Miniminter's POV

I was staring out into the morning dusk, standing on one of the bridges.

"Morning," I hear JJ whisper in my ear. He hugged me from the back, kissing my neck.

"Hi baby," I said, turning to face him,"Wanna tell me what last night was about?"

"M-my k-kid."

"What?" I said shocked, surely if JJ had a kid I would know by now.

"H-he passed a-away, he was born sick. He uhm, he was alive less than 6 months."

"Oh J," I said, leaning my forehead against his.

"I was l-looking for s-some stuff y-yesterday and I found an old picture."

"Who di-" I began to ask, naturally curious.

"A girl who I loved," he said looking down, "After w-we, um, lost him, it just d-didn't work out."

I lifted his chin, touching my lips with his.

"What was his name?" I whispered into his ear.

"Oliver Olatunji," he said, beginning to tear up.

"That's a beautiful name," I said, beginning to tear up myself.

I wiped his tears with my thumbs.

JJ flashed a sad smile, "I always wanted to call my kid Oli, I love the nickname. I r-remember h-holding 'em f-for the f-first time. H-he just s-started giggling and h-his e-eyes shone w-with such vivacity. I swore to protect him from that day on. B-but I c-couldn't."

I wrapped my arms around him, and he buried his head into my shoulder.

"You would have made an excellent father, J."

"I-i miss him so much. H-he, he was my little boy. I-i wanna teach him about the world, I wanna s-show my little boy the world Si. I-i w-wanna, I want my Oli back."

JJ was now sobbing. I just held him tight in my arms. I knew how shit it was losing people you love, but losing a child is, is a different level of pain. He continued to cry into my shoulder.

"Oliver would have been so proud to see his daddy do all the wonderful things he has."

"Si, I-i want to hold him. I-i really want to h-hold 'em one more time, I want to see his little tiny smile."

"I know, love," I said, kissing his cheek. I wiped the tears from his cheeks.

"Simon, I love you so much," he said as he tears started to slow.

"I love you too," I whispered.

We stood there for a few moments, embracing each other.

"Thanks," he said, holding a sad smiling.

"For?" I asked, staring into his eyes.

"Holding me when I needed holding, without questioning why I needed holding. For listening when I needed you to listen."

"That's what I am here for," I told him, "Loving you."

JJ looked as though he had a realization, "Don't you have practice?! You have a match tomorrow!"

"Some things are more important than football," I said.

We just looked at each other for a moment. I realized how lucky I was to have JJ in my life.

"Si, can we get breakfast?"

"Yeah, I just want some milkshake and waffles and just unhealthy shit. It's been a long week."

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|I high key cried writing this ahhh. Hope your enjoying.|