46|Angry stupid hurt

HE WASN'T HOME.... I KEPT ZONING OUT of whatever Tavi was telling me, My brain was running a marathon.

I feel very guilty. I shouldn't have said what I said.... I didn't even mean it. I felt myself starting to tear up.

"Ivy?" Tavi called out"Are you okay?"

I gave her a fake smile"I'm Okay"

She gave me a weird look" I was asking you about Finn"

"What about him?" I asked as I sniffled.

"Has he told you that pa carlsson's remembrance is also next week" She said and it all came rushing back.... The topic probably blew out of proportion cause he was worked up.

"Guess I'm just finding out" I said with a tight smile and a roll of my eyes.

"I just wanted to see you, to tell you-"

"Please make sure he doesn't do anything stupid" She said as I held her hand.

I was about to lie"Trust me, I'll make sure he doesn't do anything wrong or stupid"

"We're home!" Zach announced "With Madison"

My breath hitched.... That meant Finn was going to be here too.... I really need to talk to him.

"Hi Tavi!" Madison chirped with her hair bouncing on her head as she hugged a smiling Tavi.

"Hey Zachy Zach". I said as I hugged him and we both laughed as we ended our hug with a flex.

Finn was standing by the corner staring into space or the wall.... God knows.

"Hi" I said awkwardly to Madison as she stared at me like I was a different specie.

Madison Monroe..... She has strawberry blonde hair and peircing blue eyes with a rose tattoo on her neck.... A lip ring and a nose ring.... Overall, She has a grunge style.

"Who's she?" She asked the boys as Zach akwardly looked at I and Finn.... He shrugged as I huffed.

"Im—" I was cut short by Finn.

"She's just a friend, probably she came looking for Michelle" He said as he made eye contact with me.

He knew I was going to cry"Um... Yeah"

"Absolutely a friend" I said with a smile as I left very quickly straight to Michelle's room.

I plopped down on her bed as I made it my plan to cry out every thing I felt.

Angry. Stupid. Hurt

He denied me, Right in to my face.... Wow.... What was I thinking? Even though we've been together for what feels like a month now.... A little thing can change Finn.

We made promises. Why was he doing this?

The door opened to reveal Zach,I smiled at him as he made a sign asking if he could come in.

"How's my little sister doing?"

"Oh.... I'm Okay" I replied as he laid down flat staring at the ceiling.

"Have you ever thought of why the glue doesn't stick to the bottle?" He asked as I laughed.

We both started laughing as I thought about it "And tell me why black bear was a one time wonder!! Like.... He released hot girl bummer and then he vanished.... I'm like bruh!" He said as I laughed harder this time.

"He probably ran out of words" I said with a shrug as we laughed.

"Thank you Zach" I said after a moment of silence.

"Anytime Ivy.... But y'all should talk"He said as he ruffled my hair and left...

I smiled as I sighed,I should get going... The weather forecast has it that the weather will be really bad today.

I said my goodbyes to everyone apart from him... Tavi kept asking me if I was going to be okay.

"I'm not coming to your party" I whispered into Zach's ear.

"Understandable" he said as he rolls his eyes.

"Bye!" I yelled as I left.

Uber. Uber. Uber.

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I still haven't found any Uber and I was getting colder by the minute.... Nobody was picking my call.... So much for booty calls.

I wore my gloves as I kept looking for an Uber.... Oh God.

I regret not bringing my car, Mom will be worried sick.

It wasn't even snowing! It was raining! I was expecting snow.

I tired to hide under a tree... Very smart.

I saw a motorcycle approaching me as I braced myself to run away.

The motorcycle stopped in front of the tree as the engine went off.

It was Finn.... So he's decided to use a motorcycle for today of all days.

Slo-mo! Imagine him coming down from the motorcycle, Pulling off the helmet and shaking out his wet hair.

"Why are you still here!?" He yelled under the rain.

"Why are you talking to me!?" I replied as he huffed and closed his eyes.

"Let's go" He said as he held my wrist but I jerked it away.

He turned to look at me "I'm not going on that"

"There's an extra helmet or you just have a cold and spend the rest of the year receiving Ventolin at the hospital"

I kept shut as he said all this... He was right.

He held my wrist as I smiled a little and followed him.

I sat down and wore the helmet.... He turned on the engine.

"Hold onto me!" He yelled under the rain as I put my hand on his torso...I felt him tense then relaxed.

The ride wasn't going smoothly at all...."We have to stop, it's getting worse" He yelled as he pulled over to what looked like a gazebo.

No chair, so we sat on the floor.... Finn took of him jacket, I was thinking he was going to give it to me but No.

I kept looking at my feet... I need to talk.

"I'm sorry" I started... He didn't move as I continued.

"I was a fool to even say that.... I definitely didn't mean that... I might have had doubts but I really really trust you Bozo" I said as I didn't hear a word.

I turned to look at him looking at me"I knew you didn't mean it but,I felt really bad... Like I've failed"

I moved closer to him as I straddled his hips "Nope, you've been the best! You stopped hanging out with some friends cause of Us."

He smiled and I giggled"I'm really sorry bozo"

"Don't be sweetheart" He said as he kissed my nose and I giggled.

And we're good!

"Let's dance" I suggested as we both laughed.

"I don't dance" He said as I shrugged and pulled him up. He groaned as I laughed.

I placed his hands on my waist and mine around his neck.

"Just move or sway" I said as he stared at me in amusement and focused on getting it right.

We're just swaying but I'm fine with it.

"I missed you" He said as he kept trailing kisses on my face and I kept giggling.

"Me too Bozo.... Since when did you start using your motorcycle?" I asked with a raise of my eyebrow and a laugh.

He sighed and placed his forehead on mine"The rain has reduced, let's get you home" He said as he carried me.

I rolled my eyes.... Way to ruin the moment ivy.

I kept glancing at the side of his face as he focused on whatever he was thinking.

He'll tell me one day... Can't push.

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"We're here" he said as he turned to smile... I smiled back and got down from the motorcycle.

"Goodnight sweetheart" He said as he bent to kiss me. I smiled at him as I tapped his arm.

"Goodnight Bozo.... Even if it's still like 6pm" I said as we both laughed.

"Mom sure talks alot"

"I feel bad... I wasn't listening" I said with a pout as we laughed.

"Have fun at your party down or uptown... Who knows?" I said as we laughed.

"I was expecting you to come with but... Stay in and have a cup of tea" He said as I smiled and bit my lip to hold my laughter.

"Yes boss" I said as I burst out laughing... He mocked me as he went back to his motorcycle.

I waved bye.

Thank God every thing was sorted.

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I woke up to the ringtone of my phone.... Whoever is calling better be worth it.

I groaned as I flipped on my bed light... I checked the name.

Incoming call

Bozo🙈💜.....

"What is it!?" I snapped as I picked up, I could hear the beat of whatever song was playing at their party.

"Sweet heart!" His words were slurred so he was drunk.. I put my head in my hands.

"Where are you? What's the location?" I asked as I scrambled to pull myself together.

"Too many questions! When did you become like Dad!" He slurred his words as I remembered we both could track our phones.

We did that when we were bored.

"I'll call you back" I mumbled as I cut the call.

I tracked his phone down. Only Zachary will go to a party in the Bronx! I hope Kylie didn't go or I'd kill her..... Our parents never liked us going to the Bronx.... For reasons that are unexplainable and we've kept it like that. More like the girls.

I sneaked out straight to my car and begged Samuel not to say a word... He chuckled and let me out.

Dear God keep me safe.... I sincerely don't know why I'm scared but maybe cause They always put that fear in us.

The streets had people sitting, Doing all sort of stuffs.... Had graffiti and shit.

Some were also smoking.... According to mom this place was ghetto. It felt like somewhere Izzy would like.

It wasn't hard to find the party... It was a building not a house.... With people outside either drunk or puking. Ew.

I was in my pyjamas so I got weird looks...

I called Jordan's phone knowing he's the only one that won't drink.... Only if he's at his house with Kylie, cause he's not picking up the phone.

I groaned as I felt someone's hand on my waist.... God help me.

I jabbed the person in the gut... The person groaned and I turned to see a drunk chase. Great.

"Why the fuck are you touching me?" I asked... I was beyond annoyed. First, I'm being a booty call and secondly, drunk chase is extra flirty.

He realized it was me.... Chase knows everyone in a drunk state.

"Ivy.... Don't tell Finn or I'm Dead meat" He slurred as I tapped his shoulder and made my way inside to find Finn.

I saw Charlotte and Michelle dancing their souls out, Zach making out with a random girl. Sike.

I saw a group of people playing spin the bottle, so I decided to check for Finn and he was there.

But it was his turn to be dared.

A red haired girl peircings hella peircings said "I dare you to kiss Addison"

My breath hitched waiting for Finn to refuse.... He stood up and smirked but his next words killed me.

"Easy peasy!" He moved closer.... Addison was already waiting for him.

I could feel myself break down already.... Why did I even come? My feet just couldn't bring me to move.

He closed his eyes then opened them back to lock gazes with me... I sniffled as I ran out.

"Ivy! Please wait!" He yelled after me as I kept running.... Don't know where I'm running to but just to get away from him.

"Ivy!" He kept yelling till I felt his hand on my wrist... I stopped and jerked my hand from him.

"What do you want from me!? You've done enough! I can't believe I was so stupid to even think— what was I thinking Geez!" I yelled as I continued to run but he pulled me back.

"Leave me alone Finn! Go have fun... Kiss whoever! I don't care.... You said it yourself that I was just a friend so what do you want!?" Tears were streaming down my face as I yelled at him.

"I was drunk" He said and I scoffed.

"Don't give me that crap! If you hadn't seen me.... You would have gone ahead to kiss her! Just leave me the fuck alone" A crowd was forming now but I didn't care

"I– I was drunk ivy.... I'm sorry.... I can explain everything"

"Save your explanation cause I don't need it.... It's always the same story... You were drunk, it was just a dare! Just leave me alone! Why is it hard for you to do just that!? Tell me!" I yelled in his face as I cried.

He closed his eyes tightly and I shook my head.

"You're a very wicked person that doesn't care about anybody's feelings just yourself" I said

"Ivy please.... I never make promises but I made those just for you doesn't that say anything.... Just give me another chance" He said.... He looked vulnerable and hurt?

I'm the one that should be hurt not him.

"I can't.... I'm sorry I just can't.... Just leave me alone okay?" I said as I cried more.

"I can't! Don't you get it!? Ever since we settled every differences I became a better person! You made me a better person.... That made both my mom and siblings happy" He said quietly as my heart broke at his tone.

"Maybe I'm just the wrong person Finn" I said

"No you're not"

"Why!? Why am I not the wrong person!?" I was beyond frustrated.

"Because– because.... Because I love you Ivy" He said and gasps were heard even mine.

He literally just made it worse"You're pathetic" I spat as I ran as fast as I could to my car.... I just sat there... I couldn't move

He just said he loves me.... Truly he makes me very happy and makes me turn to jello since we were kids.... Finn is an emotional wreck, everyone knows that.... I would say that the farthest he has gone to say he loves someone... He has never even told his sister he loves her but she knows he does. Finn is the only person that is very intriguing to crack.... He is the only person that can make me angry and Happy at the same time.

I love him too..... I love him too but who knows if he truly loves me too.

I was contemplating between getting down or just go home and think of everything.

Hey there guys! I hope you loved this chapter! The book is coming to an end... I'm feeling so emotional right now.

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