11|double boy package

THE WEEK WENT BY IN A BLUR, with assignments and stupid classes... But it's too early to sleep in class... And the feeling is collective... Apart from people like barbie doll that decided to give the boys that are swooning over them their assignments to do. And drake got sick... I told him to stay home but he didn't listen so I hope he did go home or he did go to the nurse... I haven't seen him since after I told him to go home...

This week was quite fun to go through! Note the sarcasm! Finn always had a new girl every day to make out with during lunch break... It pisses me off... Why the hell cant he just try to make one relationship work... He either sends them off with his stupid and irritating adjectives... You really don't want to be a victim of that... Or he sends them off by telling them a simple 'I'm not interested anymore'... The stupid girls will always come back. Fuck him and his life... I basically don't care about whatever happens to him...

Mom and Dad at last! Told us they were having a party... We came up with a group gift already... A mug that says 'world best Dad' for dad... Cliche much... And an album full of our pictures with both of them and silly photos of us... That'll make mom cry... And Caleb thought it wasn't so he was going to give me 50 bucks if she did cry... The party will be on Sunday on the day of the anniversary its self and today is Friday...

I was fuming... Getting tired of finn's sluttish attitude... I was either going to leave any time soon or I was going to spark... Lord help me!

Izzy brought me out of my trance "You look like you're planning murder in your head"

Silence... I did that a lot when I'm angry...

"Look at her... She's like 'im here to kill'" caleb added

Silence again... I sipped harshly on my drink... I saw Kylie's head tilt to were my gaze was fixed... She then pointed and all but Charlotte made an oh sound...

I hit my hand on the table... Hard... They all flinched and the stupid make out stopped...

"What is your problem!?" My voice boomed in the cafeteria... And he looked at me like I wasn't talking to him... "I'm talking to you two!"

"I'll see you later stella" he said as he winked at her and she rolled her eyes at me...

"It's Sydney by the way" she said as she stood up and smiled not before glaring at me...

"So?" He said nonchalantly as he put his hands at the back of his head...

"Do you have to do your shit when we're eating?" I asked as I crossed my hands...

"You could always leave like you always do ivy" he said as he smirked... I want to wipe off that smirk off his face..

"This is where I eat and I really don't see any reason to leave because of you" I said as I learned in and pointed at him... Eyes were on us now...

"This is also where I eat... So tell me why you're making a big deal... It's just a  heated make over... If its disturbing then leave... Slut!" He spat out... He did not just call me that! I felt myself trying to cry... I clearly heard the gasps around me and I didn't miss the look on Allison's face and I also didn't miss the looks on my Friend's faces... Izzy and Jordan wanted to hit him but I held my hand out... They didn't like when anybody called me that.

"Shut the fuck up man whore!" I belted out as I literally stood and poured my drink on him and he gasped as the drink touched him... I felt myself smirk and I saw the amused look on people...

He stood up "You're such an annoying and naive bitch!" He spat out... I knew I was going to cry so I just glared at him and said "good day Man whore"

I was walking out when I felt something pour on me... Water! Dripping from my head down... I just didn't turn round but I heard...

"Awwn... She has a guy to seduce today... She's wearing red... I'm sure the panties are red too" and laughter followed after... I knew Jordan went straight for Finn and Izzy went straight for whoever said that shit... I walked out of the cafeteria... Straight to my locker...

I slid down and cried out... I cried out loud so I could hear the echo...

He called me a slut... Naive... Annoying... Those were the words that made me strong and now they were breaking me... I mustn't let it break down the walls ive been building... Those words haunted me... Like I could hear them replay in my head all the time... Its been 3 fucking years! Ivy get a grip of yourself... Stand tall... Annalise always told me that.. Zeke always told me that! Stand tall and fuck the haters... Oh God!

Why is this happening to me..? I sincerely do not deserve this... I put my head in between my head as I continued to sob... Students will be going back to class now so I decided to take a fresh top from my locker to change in the toilet... I sobbed to the toilet... I looked myself in the mirror... This isn't me... I'm strong... I might be bad at love or anything relationship but it never affected me until three years ago!... I'm strong... I kept repeating to myself... I packed my hair in a low bun as I washed my face and sighed...

"Way to end a school week" I said to myself as I sighed again and I moved out to see some people making out again but I could see that girl from the mall that day from where I was standing... I could see her figure... So curiosity got the best of me... I decided to check what she was doing... I moved closer and I started seeing she was with someone... Curiosity took over me... I hid at the back of the wall and peeped. 

I felt like I was just stabbed then the knife was twisted repeatedly... I felt like the whole world crashed on me... Like I just lost someone... I left that place... I felt the tears coming back... I can't cry cause of boys.. I made my way to the library... The only place I never have my peace but I think it will do for now... I won't pick a book to read at all just sit and cry myself to death.. This just made me know that 'sometimes been curious can make you hurt'

I signed in "hi" I said to the librarian... Lilly... She's a very nice librarian and beautiful in fact... She smiled and said hi nervously... Probably noticing I had been crying but before she could ask I turned my back on her and I walked to my favorite section of the library... It was the only colorful part of the library... I noticed an all to familiar brown hair... I walked over and ruffled his hair... I gave him a weak smile... he raised his head as he smiled at me but when he saw my face he sat up straight, closed the boom he was reading and looked at me with no expression... He knew better than to look at me sadly... But I could see the sadness in his eyes... Jason... He's like my best friend too... I could tell him anything...

"Hey" I said quietly as I put my head on the table...

"Hey" "what's up?" He asked...

"Nothing" I said knowing he wasn't going to buy it...

"Shut up and talk" he demanded as I just closed my eyes and sighed...

"Demanding much" I said as he stared at me while I just couldn't stare at him... Jason is intimidating but he has an overly nice part of him... I looked everywhere but him...

"I'm waiting" he said as I just sighed... In defeat...

"Okay sirrr" I said as he shook his head and chuckled...
I narrated my sad story to him and he just stared at me and I placed my head on his lap as he stressed his legs... He gently stoked my hair...

"It's funny how you didn't see Drake's drama coming" he said as he snickered...

I turned to look at him "what do you mean?" I said as I furrowed my eyebrows...

"It's just... All summer you were talking about how boring your relationship with him was becoming" he said as he shrugged... One thing about Jason... He tells the truth bluntly and never hides the truth from you... But he was not a snitch...

"Yes but not so soon... Its like double boy package" I said as I played with my fingers...

"It will be fine just behave like you didn't see... And let's watch how drake wants to be a lover boy!" Jason said as I just rolled my eyes and stared at the arts on the wall... I could feel Jason stare at me before going back to his book... The only word that lingered was 'it will be fine' I hope it will...

Holy! I know its short but my hands are hurting... I'm soo tired... This was unexpected though... And who can't live single for the rest of high school? Lol! I'm living that life people!