KNIGHT'S POV

I DON'T HAVE much memory when I was young. Noon, nagkukulong lang ako sa kuwarto at paminsan-minsan ay nakikipaglaro sa kakambal kong si, Knoxx, at sa nakatatanda naming kapatid na si, Kobe.

When I turned three, while playing with my toy cars inside my room, I heard a knock from the door, and found out that it was our grandparents who's knocking. I was innocent that time, and didn't know that it will be the last time I will living with my parents, because tomorrow, my grandparents will took me and will announced to the world that I will be the fourth heir of the Fulgencio Group of Company.

"You must be perfect at everything!"

"You are born to be a CEO!"

"You must be the best of the best!"

"You're a Fulgencio, you must be at the top, always!"

"You're a fine young man! You'll find the perfect woman in the future, for sure!"

I didn't give a damn about pressure when I was young. But not until I was on vacation in Italy with only my butler with me that I started to give a fuck about everything around me; it was the day I met him.

It's the day where the heaven sent me an angel.

I am a very introverted person and didn't want to indulge myself in groups of people; therefore, I do not want to socialize with my fellow youngsters. But the day I lay my eyes on the angel in our neighborhood, I knew that there's something inside of me that's started to awaken.

I remember that very day, where I immediately walked and picked up the ball for the boy who's also walking towards where the ball is. Naunahan ko siya at ako ang nakakuha ng bola, I handed it to him.

"Is... this yours?" I slowly asked. Marahan siyang nag-angat ng tingin sa akin at hindi sumagot. But he immediately looked away and suddenly flushed when he saw me staring at him.

"D-dammi la mia palla... Quello è mio..." (I-Ibigay mo sa akin ang bola ko... Akin 'yan...) Mahinang bulong niya nang hindi makatingin sa akin. I remained staring at him for a reason I don't know.

Napatitig ako sa kaniyang maamong mukha na animo'y hindi makabasag pinggan, tila nahihiya siya. In my mind, I thought, oh, god. This boy is indeed an angel from heaven. Thank you for sending him to me.

"Oh, please, no italian. I'm just newbie here." Mabagal ang naging pag-bigkas ko ng mga salita, nais kong ipaintindi sa kaniya ang mensaheng nais kong ipabatid.

"Non ti capisco..." (Hindi kita maintindihan...) Tila naguguluhang sambit niya. "Quello è mio." (Akin 'yan.) Itinuro niya pa ang bolang hawak niya.

"Oh, yeah, right. Sorry." Napailing-iling ako at marahang iniabot sa kaniya ang bola "Well, do you like basketball? You know... the game?" Itinuro ko naman ngayon ang bolang hawak niya.

""Non ti capisco..." (Hindi kita maintindihan...) Humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa bola.

Wait, is he mad at me now? Is he? Is he?

At last, I sighed. "I see. You can't speak english." I heaved. "Well, if you just want to know. I'll introduce myself... you know... My name is--" Hindi ko na natuloy pa ang pagsasabi ko ng pangalan nang biglang may isang tinig ang pumutol sa akin.

"LILIÉNNÉ AMORÉ GRECCO!" Malakas na sigaw ng kung sino. "Nostra madre ti sta chiamando! Entra nella nostra casa! Ora!" (Pinatatawag ka ng ating Ina! Pumasok ka na sa ating bahay! Ngayon na!)

Napailing-iling ang kaharap ko at inikutan pa niya ito ng mga mata.

Sa isip ay napamura ako. How can he be so damm cute in so natural way?

"La... Grazie." Mahinang aniya sa akin at tinanguan ako. Ilang saglit pa ay marahan siyang tumalikod at akmang babalik na sana't papasok sa loob ng mansiyon, nang biglang may mag-udyok sa kaloob-looban ko at mabilis hinawakan ang braso niya.

He stopped and gulped. Napalunok din ako at agad napabitaw sa pagkakahawak sa kaniya nang makaramdam ako ng pagdaloy ng kuryente sa parteng 'yon nang magdikit ang aming mga balat.

What was that...?

"I-I just want to introduce myself to you." I smiled at him. Bigla akong nahiya sa hindi malamang dahilan. I heaved. "My name is, Knight. Knight Andrius Fulgencio... you're knight in shining armor." I winked at him, and then he flushed.

I didn't know what comes to mind why did I said that. Is that a pick-up line from me? Why did I said that? Did I really mean it?

I actually don't know what just happened right after I said those words. I am not that person. I barely talk to anyone, but there's something in this boy that pushes me. There's something in him that makes me comfortable and calms me in a way I don't know.

I didn't know what the fuck was happening to me at that time. So, I had to figure it out. Day-by-day, I pay visits to him, talk to him, even if he doesn't understand what I am saying, play with him, and bond with him.

And all I can say is, damn. Damn man. Who would've thought that little, introverted, cold-hearted, nonchalant boy, Knight Andrius Fulgencio, is actually laughing and having fun while playing to a complete stranger without even understanding the language they say to each other?

And because of that, I started to study Italian language for a short period of time. I learned the basics and used it to understand the words that the boy was saying to me.

"La Grazie..." (Salamat...) Nahihiyang aniya habang nakangiti nang sipsipin ko, gamit ang labi, ang kaniyang nagdurugong daliri.

God, he's so cute.

"Don't mention it." Ginulo ko ang buhok niya. We smiled to each other before getting back at playing the ball.

We're happy. We're having fun. But it eventually turned into black and white when my vacation in Italy was almost done. Mabilis dumaan ang araw at habang masaya akong nakikipag-usap at nakikipaglaro kay, Lili, hindi ko namalayan na dumating na pala ang araw na kinatatakot ko.

"I am... leaving." I whispered to him while holding the ball on my hand. Hindi ako makatingin sa kaniya, I don't want to see how will he reacted on what I just said. "I am leaving..." I slowly repeated, making him understand me as he doesn't know how to speak in english.

"I don't care." Nagulat ako sa naging tugon niya. I looked up and saw that he's smirking. "Even if you leave, even if we're apart... I can feel it here..." He pointed his index finger to his heart and smiled. "I can feel it here... my heart's telling me... the universe will crossed our paths again... we're going to meet again..."

My jaw dropped. "Y-you can s-speak in english? You can understand me? How..." I stared at him. Sa isip-isip ay pinupuri ko siya dahil sa kaniyang maarte at precise na pronounciation sa mga english words.

Napanguso siya, namumula ang mukha.

Fvck shit. Stop me. I think I am going insane... he's such a cutie.

"I'm still studying..." he told me.

I slowly nodded my head. "Then, why aren't you talking to me in english, well in fact, you can and really understand what I am saying these previouse days..." Napakamot ako sa ulo. "Nag-aaral pa naman ako ng italian." Mahinang bulong ko pa sa sarili.

He laughed.

Pvtangina. Heaven.

"I waited for the right time, Knight."

My eyes widen when he called me by my name. I looked away. Pakiramdam ko ay nag-init bigla ang mga pisngi ko.

Pvtangina talaga. Anong nangyayari sa 'yo, Knight Andrius? You're not like that! Stop yourself!

"You're blushing." Napahagikgik si, Liliénné.

Lalo lang nag-init ang pisngi ko. "I am not."

"Yes, you are." He stated it as a matter of fact. "Anyway, let's just continue our game, alright? You're leaving, we should not waste our time and make the best of the remaining hours or day that you'll be here." Nakangiting aniya.

I also smiled back. "Yeah, you're right." Kaagad akong kumilos at nilaro ang bola para maka-shoot. He immediately followed me behind and try to steal the ball but I didn't let him.

My staycation in Italy was fun. It's not the culture nor the food that makes my staying in this country memorable, it was because I met Liliénné Amoré Grecco. Hanggang sa pagsakay ko sa private plane ay hindi ko malimutan sa isip ko ang mga tawa niya't mga ngiti. His laughter and smiles calmed my raging thoughts and washed away the worries about whatever things were waiting for me going back to the Philippines.

Upon my arrival, the news came to me like a speed of light. My surname changed. From de Cordova to Grecco. I never complain about it anyway. It is my grandparents who want it; they're the ones who handled everything for me. From birth certificates, school papers, and many more.

I was homeschooled when I was in elementary school, and when I turned high school, the life started to change in me. When I put my feet into South International School, that is also the time I forgot about Liliénné's entire existence in my life.

I never recalled and never think about him anymore. I completely forgot him. I got busy because of paperwork and training as one of the Fulgencio heirs at such an early age. My mind and heart focused on business.

But... Before the end of my senior years in high school, something happened that brought another change in my life. There's an audition to be part of K-pop in my school. I don't know what came to mind, but I just saw myself dancing in front of K-Organizers and coaches, trying to impress them with my moves.

I don't know what's in me, although I do know that I am not that good a dancer in the first place, so why the heck did I audition? I guess I just want to rest my tired mind and heart by dancing and singing, even if I am not that good.

I already knew what will going to happen that time after I auditioned. Imposibleng mapili ako ng mga organizers and coaches, 'cause who I am? Yes, I know, I am handsome, but I don't have any talent at all.

Swear, hindi ko alam paano nangyari ang audition na 'yon. I'm just supposedly watching the people get auditioned? Why am I the one who performed in front?

Another news came again. I was shocked. The K-Orgs. and coaches offered me the position of becoming the main visual of the K-Group that they want to create. I immediately replied and accepted the offer.

When I talked about it with my grandparents, they were happy and congratulated me, of course. They want me to push it through, to become a K-Star. Reason? If I became famous and known in the world, many people would go and invest in our company. If I were to become famous, our business will go through success even more—they're thinking that if I were to be famous, our company will rise and lift to the ground to the clody sky, until the heavens—the prime, the peak.

So I go to Korea and stay with my other grandparents, as my father is a pure Korean and his family lives there. The training finally started. I trained. My life became mute—silent for a while as I trained to become a K-Star... for years.

While in the camp training, I feel so devalued. I was tired—exhausted. I cried. I laughed. I get mad. Training days were overall taking toll on my overall well-being. There's also the time where I almost got banished from being a K-Trainee because my team-mates never voted for me to stay in the camp. Hindi ko naman masisisi. I don't have anyone inside the camp, who's close to me.

I was aloof. I always enjoyed my me time. I never entertain my co-trainee and let God's judgment lead through until the end of the camp training.

Gladly, at the end, I was also launched and became a member of the K-Pop group—the Bravery. I became an instant celebrity, our group became popular, we became perfect, always happy. It never crossed my mind that the happiness was also going to end. 

I was also learning to socialize and such. The group changed me entirely.

Our group stayed and lasted for years until our contract has finally ended. Our fans are devastated about the news; I am too very devastated because it was all of a sudden. Me and the group members parted ways at the end.

After the shocking news, that was also the time where my grandparents talked to me and told me that now is the right time for me to train and take over one of the Fulgencio companies. Reluctantly, I agreed and started the job. 

I was perfect in everything. I never missed. Slowly, I earned the full trust of my grandparents and finally took over the company, but that was just a wishful thought when an annoying attorney got into the picture and announced that he has the same shares in the company as I do.

My grandparents confirmed it and told me that I must cooperate and work with that bastard—Xalvienne. I tried, but I failed. I don't know; it's just that there's something inside of me that makes my blood boil every time I see his face, especially when he's smirking and always trying to be better than me.

Oh, I hate that man the first time I laid my eyes in him.

One afternoon, we argued, and our conversation heated. We almost got into a fight. It's because of the upcoming event of the company, and we are fighting with our own suggestions; thus, in the end, we fight, but Grandma decided that me and Xalvienne's suggestion would be pushed through.

Again, I feel so valued. Ever since, when I was still in K-Industry, I was always at the top, almost holding the stars in the sky in my hands. But when we got disbanded and I became the acting CEO of the Fulgencio company, my life and mindset changed.

I feel like I was the second-best; Xalvienne's the first-best.

I freaking hate the feeling. So, I try to ease the anger heat in my body by deciding to get a drink one night. It was near my accidental friend Evan's condo, and coincidentally, he's also the co-owner of the bar, so by that I asked for his company.

"Where are you?" I asked as I drove into the mentioned bar. "I'm near the club."

"Oh, shit. Sorry, Knight. I forgot, I still have important meetings to attend to. Can I just join you after this meeting? I promise it'll be quick, then I'll go there."

I heaved a deep breath and closed my eyes for a moment.

At the end, I was the only one who got into the club and decided to drink alone.

"Excuse me. You're blocking the way."

Nagdire-diretso ako sa papasok sa loob ng club matapos tumabi ang taong nakaharang sa entrance. I immediately went to the counter and ordered my favorite alcohol.

"Thanks." Kaagad kong nilaghok ang laman niyon at umulit pa. "Another one, please." I asked, and the person in charge obeyed.

After a while, I did not know that I already had countless glasses of alcohol in my body. Wala sa sarili kong inilibot ang tingin sa paligid at tila kusang gumalaw ang mga mata ko at tumama 'yon sa direksiyon ng isang... Wait. Is this a woman or a man?

Don't care, anyway.

I saw the person he or she's talking, put something on the drink, and gave it to him... Or her? I can't see the face properly because of the low lightning inside the club. But somehow, I soon recognized... It's him and not her.

I shook my head vigorously and decided to rest after another and another glass of alcohol I consumed. I heaved a deep breath and decided to rest as I do have a work meeting for tomorrow, as I recalled.

Kaagad kong tinunton ang hidden room sa loob ng club para makapagpahinga na. Yes, there's a room here. Well, it was made for the privileged people only—like me, because the co-owner, of course, is a friend of mine. He gave it to me, and note that just in case...

You know what I mean.

I opened the comoflouge door and started to walk towards my room. But I stopped in my tracks when I heard someone open the door from behind me again. I slowly turned and found out that it was the person with whom I was confused, whether she was a woman or not earlier. That is, in fact, he's a man—a little boy after all.

"Ah," he moaned in agony while holding his head.

Is he in pain? What's the drug's effect on him anyway?

I saw him turned towards the door when someone knocked. Na-lock niya siguro 'yong pinto noong pumasok siya. Akma sana niyang bubuksan ko ang pintuan nang wala sa sarili kong hinablot ang katawan niya.

My grip tightened when I felt electricity rush through my veins after our skin touched.

What the hell was that? I've never felt it for years already...

"Sino ka?" I knew from his voice that he's drunk. I was holding his arms as we walked towards my room.

Pasuray-suray niyang inilibot ang tingin. I think he's wondering where he is. After a while we stopped in front of a mix color of gold and red door. Hinawakan ko ang door knob at marahang pinihit 'yon para buksan.

Pagkapasok na pagkapasok pa lang namin ay napansin ko na agad ang pagngiwi niya. I shook my head and slowly let him go.

The electrical shock faded after our skin diverged.

Fvck, wait. In my mind, I questioned myself. What am I thinking? Why did I bring him here anyway? For what reason? Fvck, I don't know. What should I do now?

"Ugh, shit." I turned to him when he moaned again. He's holding his head, in pain.

What should I do with him?

I sighed and started to take off my clothes.

I saw him suddenly panicked. "Kuya, ano. Kuya." He immediately walked towards me and almost stopped me taking off my remaining clothes.

I just stared at him as he gulped.

"What?" I asked him, motionless. Nakahawak na 'ko sa sando ko, handa na 'yong hubarin.

"Uhmm, ano. Pwede pong pa-cr? Naiihi na po kasi ako."

Tss. 'Yon lang naman pala.

"Go on," I said. "There." I pointed the way to where it is.

He bowed. "Salamat po." Hindi ko na siya pinansin pa at agad na siyang tinalikuran para magtungo na shower area.

I really need a freaking bath.

"Fvck." But before I opened the shower, something immediately crossed my mind.

Pvtangina. Nasa kabila pala 'yong hygiene kit ng kuwartong 'to.

I sighed and picked up the towel and wrapped it around my waist as I walked towards the other CR of this room.

My brows furrowed instantly when I saw that the tiny guy was holding a freaking condom in his hand.

"Ano to? Trust?" His forehead was in creased. "Ha? Condom? Ano yun?"

"Sinabi ko bang mangialam ka ng gamit dito?" I asked with my emotionless voice as I looked at him.

He slowly turned around and immediately gaped in surprise when he saw me. He absentmindedly looked me over from head to toe before shaking his head and putting the condom back in its container.

"Hala, pasensiya na po. Akala ko po kasi candy." His face was undescribable. "Ano po ba 'to?" Itinuro niya ang laman ng plastik.

Umaangat ang gilid ng labi ko. I almost smirked. "Hindi yan pwede sa mga bata." I walked towards him and took a condom inside of its container. Napaurong siya sa ginawa ko. "Gusto mo subukan natin sa 'yo?"

Napatanga siya. "Ha? Para saan ba yan?" Kunot ang noo at tila kuryosong tanong niya.

I didn't answer him. I opened the condom in my hand while my eyes were looking at him seductively.

Shocked was visible in his face when I caught his waist and cohere my body to him. I saw his face suddenly turned tomato.

I felt the electricity rushed through my veins, again.

Shit. He's cute.

"Why the drug didn't effect you?" I whispered to him.

"Po? Anong drugs?" He whispered back at me.

Wala sa sarili kong pinisil ang baywang niya "Mmm. Bakit nandito ang bata sa club?" I seem to be turned on for some unknown reason. I brought my lips closer to his ear.

Halos matuod siya sa aking ginawa at halos hindi na alam ang gagawin.

"Uhmm.... pwede pong bitawan niyo na ako." Mahinang pakiusap niya.

But instead of obeying, I pressed myself even more against him. He gulped as we stared at each other. I cursed again and again in my mind as something gradually hardened in my bottom.

"Ugh."

I slowly closed my eyes as the unknown desire consumed me.

And that's the first time I lose my virginity to someone. I lose my virginity to a boy—a man of whom I didn't think that would have an effect on my life later on. 

The person who's destined to change my life and the person who'll own my heart until the end of time.

The boy whom my first sex... My first crush... My first in everything...