The alarm clock rang so loud that it forced me to wake up and turn it off with all my might, but then I flop into my pillow burying my face in it making a big sigh after that, I remember all the things that happened two days ago.

All I do was keep remembering his touch, his warmth, hiw hands on my cheeks, or even his cruel words that stabbed my reality so hard. Reaching my phone at my left side facing its direction, I truned it on seeing it's only 6 AM in the morning, I scratched my head furiously that it's way too early.

Why am I getting excited when I'm just gonna go watch a movie with a person who indirectly rejected me. I want to cursed myself since our time to meet up is around 9, so what now? I just really want to curse myself for being an idiot.

Since arguing with myself is pretty useless right now, I finally stand up to get out of my bed, and left my room to go to the kitchen walking towards the refrigerator and opening it to find something I can cook. After I finished setting the table and placing what I've cooked, I heard someone opened the door.

"Jihoon, I'm home." My mom shouted to greet me.

"Welcome back mom." As I respond to her, she immediately go to where I am, seeing the food is already prepared.

"Let's eat." I added and both of us sits and started chewing down the food infront of us.

"You should prepare yourself for today." I choked with the sudden words of my mother, I panicked and can't breath because the food is stuck, My mother reached out the glass of water drinking it rapidly.

"M-Mom, what do you mean by prepare? You're making me think some other things." Confessing to my mom what I just think off and she pinch me in the cheeks really hard.

"You child, why are you thinking some inappropriate things? What I am saying is, your going out with your Uncle Guanlin today, right? You should make yourself decent." When she finished her sentence, she finally let go of cheeks, and I rub it with my hands to make the pain go.

"I don't need to be decent, we're both guys, why Do I need to wear something that made me look good?" Even though it's my own words, it still pierced in my heart that we are bpth guys, I don't need to wear something good because he won't mind it, it just won't work.

"This is your first time hanging out with your uncle, Jihoon, be thankful that He will treat you today, please." Mom pleaded me eagerly, after we finish the dishes, I let her choose my clothes which is to my surprise, her fashion sense is better than mine, she just looked around in my wardrobe.

It is already 8 AM when we finished looking for my clothes that I will use today, my mother hurridly pushed me into the bathroom to take a bath, saying If I don't prepare quickly then I'll be late, It would be a total disgrace for my uncle who's gonna pick me up later.

Wrapping things quitely and at exactly 9 AM the doorbell has finally come, is this really okay? I mean can I keep up with my feelings if I'm with him after what happened?

"Jihoon, your uncle Guanlin is here."

Mom called me and suddenly it made me nervous, My palms started sweating like a faucet, my heart keeps beating that causes me to hear it so clearly, calm down Jihoon, calm down, things are gonna be fine, treat him like your ordinary Uncle then everything is gonna be fine, its easy, I know it will.

As I arrived at the doorstep, I finally saw my uncle dressed so well, he then flash his gummy smile that made me lose control inside, is it really gonna be okay?

"You look good, Mrs. Park, we'll be going." He bowed then to my mother and pulled me out in our house, I saw my mother waving a goodbye then closing our houses' door. Soon I realized I was in the passenger seat of a car, next to me is the driver sest which is empty but then filled with the person who's gonna accompany for today.

"You're looking at me too much." He finally said a word as he started the engine.

"W-What?"

"I said you're cute." He then move towards in my direction, until our distance was so near and it made closed my eyes out of the moment, unexpectedly anticipating he will do something.

And he really did something but not something I expected, i heard a clicking sound that forcedly opened my eyes, I saw myself with a seatbelt, immediately looking at him confused.

"safety first." Seeing his smirked finally confirming what's gonna happen to me today.

It's so not gonna be okay.

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So lame.

Hope y'all like this lame chap.

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