*Was written two months previous* 

What will it take to get this weight off my chest 

My heart beating so fast that I am slowly getting reckless

It is time to say what is on my mind I am so sick of fighting it- this rage deep inside

I gave you all my effort and I feel like I have once again been thrown aside 

I am waiting for the day that you will throw me behind - I am sick of waiting the distance turns to miles

I am so sick of putting in all my effort to make you fucking smile 

I am so special to you I can see it your eyes- but some things you want to have doesn't mean that you need it 

I have met so many people that can treat me good- being honest I have thought of leaving many times but I don't know if I should 

Now listen im sick of not only the prejudice

Maybe people are right and you can go find yourself another bitch

I have put up with so much that Im fucking sick of it

Find another girl and leave me in the filthy ditches

I am done with the glorification of a love- hit and run murder

My trust betrayed, hurt, and I am done tripping on the border

I don't know if we both can hold on much longer, maybe you are holding on to hope which would make you a hoarder

I just want to be sure that I am not the only one struggling through this murder 

Now, I am also sick of all the half truths 

I am sick of all the tension held between me and you 

I think you sense it dying but keep your mouth quiet 

You can stand the thought of me with another man, and I know you can't deny it 

I am breaking, it sucks, to keep this all inside

I want to tell you but I don't want to hurt you and that hurts me to even try 

What to do, what to say, I have to wonder if you agree 

Because I am starting to doubt that there was ever a you and me