I had a strange thought early the other morning

Laying alone in my bed always wondering how it felt to be loving 

Now listen-I  just-Just can't keep on fighting 

When everyone keeps looking at me like I am not even trying

I am human I feel every single word- I can't feel the blood in my heart it's not even observed

Back stabbing liars but their words are like a curse

They won't even shut up for one second to let me have my verse

Yes! I am messed up in my fucking brain and Yes! I may just be border line insane

But you don't understand the war deep within me 

I look a you- You are not my main priority 

Now listen-I am fucking sick of this feeling 

I can't take my emotions and spread them- I am not dealing!

With the pain, the torcher, and the no remorse! 

Maybe I should step on the brake because down this road it is a crash course

I hope you hear my words! I wish you could feel the sting!

Pinned to a wall with opinions that you made out of your own misery

I like the pain, don't get me wrong , but sometimes it is hard just to be strong

How would like it if I took you by the throat! Suffocate you and bible bash you with every quote!

You are not me and I am not you! So how dare you judge me with everything you damn assume

I have been through hell, I have been through life, and I live my life my way so just get out of my sight

I am not dealing with all the hateful strife 

I just want love, a home, and easy simple life 

But you- God damn- I hope you realized you have failed 

'Thou shall not judge thy brother' You are defiantly going to hell

Don't worry I will meet you there, because I know very well that neither of us will dare be spared

I accept the words that you dare say behind  my back

The pain in my heart now stopped- It is my turn to attack

I hope you realize that I am better at bible bashing- Because my dear, my life already had its crashing

Now listen- This shit is just getting old 

I don't have the time to hear more lies that you have told

Petty. So funny. You call us the Childs 

When in reality you run you mouth so much that we have lost count of the miles 

You yell at me but at you I just give a warm smile

You messed up so bad that you must roll around in your bed in denile 

I don't care anymore, let's turn the page, change the channel because the rerun looks all the same 

No one gives a shit about your church, your partner, or the people you screwed over 

I think your whole attitude to use a makeover 

Yes, I'm talking about your sorry ass

It hurts don't it when you realize that at least I can bash with class

I am the one who will be the first and last-

'One to make you panic during your group mass'

No, no, I am sick of all the shit

I was nice but now it is time to just give in 

Goodbye Bullshit, hello my brand new life

Happily married and a young beautiful new wife