I need a notion

I need a change 

I need to drown out the voices that are driving me insane 

I hold my head high 

But inside I wanna die 

I wipe away the tears in my eyes because it's weakness to cry 

I need help 

That much hasn't changed

I won't speak out but keep silent is killing me

I listen to the fights

I take most the blows

I don't care about how or where

I just need a home 

I need to heal the cuts deep in my- wrist 

I need help I am becoming a high risk 

I cant stop the pain from pounding in my chest

I hold high but I know I'm inadequate

I have to wonder why I don't just quit

I need help

I'm drowning again 

The screams are pounding me again 

I can't handle this pain 

I have to wonder what it feels like to smile-without strain 

And they say 

'Don't listen' but they scream so loud 

I need help but they wont let me out 

Let me go! Let me go!

I don't care when or how I just need a home