Dear dairy,

I've got to say it is amazing what the mind can take

It seems that my heart is something that can no longer break

But I guess that is what happens when you suffocate- under the lies that other people make 

I've tried for years to try to take it back

The worlds pain and the words that people say

Can't find a reason why and it is driving me insane

Why? What did I do for this?

What have i done to be eaten alive by other people's carelessness

I have tried to hard to fit into a mold 

People call me the freak but they are the one with such a dark soul

I flick my wrist with a band to hide the pain

I close my eyes and listen to myself hiss at the actions done in vain 

I have welts in my skin that are too deep

I close my mouth and my eyes because I am afraid to speak 

I don't matter, I am always second best, when you push me away and then ask me why I'm depressed

It is hard to believe that something so sweet now brings me such great stress 

I have to wonder if this is as good as it gets

I cry, I morn, but on the surface I look as if I feel nothing 

Because even though I don't show it... I feel everything