the words kept on playing in juhyuns mind over and over again, it was like her thoughts were a broken cassette that replayed 'i'd love to see that myself one day' endlessly.

the question that juhyun needed to ask herself was very clear thoughーwas she glad to hear these words or not? she really had no idea how she felt. jimin's image in her mind was completely distorted. did she find him amusing? did she lust after him (at times) orーno way, did she possibly have feelings for him?

fuck no.

she wasn't about to let herself fall for the biggest fuckboy she had ever laid eyes onーbut, to be fair though she'd only seen him with hoseok, so technically she was making assumptionsーjimin did look like he was just in it for the sex and fun, so its not far fetched that hoseok was just one of the guys or maybe girls that jimin occasionally hooks up with.

this is a mess, her thoughts are a complete and utter mess.

she grunted rather loudly in frustration as she pulled at her hair. she hated how this irked and excited her at the same time. felt like her thoughts and emotions were just one big cluster of confusion and possibly idiocy. she was an idiot. who else on the face of this planet would give such silly words that amount of time to think about. fuck this.

juhyun got up from her bed and went downstairs hoping that her mother wouldn't notice that juhyun had again not slept before schoolーand thankfully god was finally on her side today because her mother was indeed not in the kitchen.

she was glad because this was her chance to stuff her face like a fucking pig and eat her feelings away.

she had already started shoving cereal down her throat when her phone rang. it was seohye.

"hey ju, are you coming to school today?" she could hear the sounds of lockers being shut and people talking, so it was either everyone came to school early or juhyun was late, and it was most likely to be the latter.

"yeah i'm coming, i think im gonna be late though"

"how late?"

"first period late" if not second.

"why are you asking though?" they knew that juhyuns pretty much late everyday, maybe not that late but she got her far share of detentions so why did they call her this time?

"well you are late so me and the others wanted to check up you know?" yeah right.

"and?"

"well we were planning to go to the mall after school and wanted to know if you'd come. i thought i'd ask you on the phone in case you didn't come to school" juhyun chuckled. of course they wouldn't call just to see if she's coming to school or not.

"okay cool i'm in"

"great now hurry up fuckface, the bell's about to ring" she laughed as she heard inha's voice, she probably snatched the phone from seohye just so she could call juhyun a fuckface.

she ended the call with her friends and she had to admit that they always managed to lift her mood up, especially inha. juhyun could easily say that inha was her favorite out of their gang.

now as much as juhyun would like to just sit there and keep eating, she had to leave the cereal box so she could go get ready for another dreadful day at school.

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"again juhyun? seriously?" mrs. min says frustration very much evident in her voice and on her face.

"isn't this like the third time you came in late to my class? and you've only been in this school for like what? two weeks?"

juhyun tried to pretend that she was sorry just because she actually liked and tolerated mrs. min. if it was any other teacher she would've probably talked back a little just to piss them off.

"just come meet me after class" mrs min says dismissing her. can't she just get detention?

juhyun nodded her head and started to walk towards her deskーjimin was absent today for some reason. she shrugged it off as just him being absent because he simply wasn't in the mood, but she couldn't help but have this uneasy feeling im her gut. could it have beenーbecause of her? no way, right?

fifteen agonizing minutes had passed and the period had already ended. with each minute that passed juhyun was getting more and more scared and now that the minutes ended she was petrifiedーthe rumors about how mrs. min gets when she's angry were quiet interesting. some said that she broke a share in half once when she got that angry and someone else told juhyun that mrs. min just had her way with words, so much that should cut you with them if they were solids.

juhyun started looking at all directions except the direction mrs. min was in. she was usually what they called 'brave' but she wasn't asking for a death sentence.

"so you heard the rumors about how i get when i'm angry, haven't you?"

"n-no"

damn it.

"don't lie to me. i hate that." mrs min says "but relax sweetheart i'm not as awesome as the rumors say"

mrs. min looked egotistical but juhyun overlooked that because she was thankful that the rumors weren't all that true. she felt herself let out a breath that she hadn't known that she'd been holding in.

"i just wanna talk" mrs. min says leaning against juhyuns desk.

"listen juhyun. i'm only talking to you like this because youーwellーremind me of myself when i was your age. i know it sounds like a corny movie line but i truly did have the same attitude you have towards school. i of all people know that you must think that this place is just a headache and that it's useless but it's notーwhat i'm trying to say is that you should put a little effort here, not As, for now at least, because one day you'll regret not studying more than anything in the world, you'll feel lost and helpless. there's also a chance that you won't find anyone to help you if that time comes so please try, okay?"

"okay"

she wasn't going to try, she just said that she would. juhyun knew that everything mrs. min said was true. knew that she'll end up feeling like shit when she grows up. had already heard the struggle from her mum, but she still knew that she just wasn't capable of complying. for the sake of mrs. min she was going to try to skip less and be on time. but that's it.

"you asked for me mrs. min?" 

juhyun looked at the source of the sound and what do you know. it's jungkook.

juhyun could swear on her life that this was a setup. the kid showed up wherever she was and it was creeping her out honestly. heck, she wouldn't be surprised if he came out of her water tap one day.

"oh juhyun, i forgot to tell you that i asked jungkook, my best student, to tutor you since your grades are falling and you need all the help you can get after school"

"but i already said i would try andー"

"hah! you really thought that i'd believe you" mrs. min laughs. fucking laughs.

"sweetie, jungkook's gonna tutor and monitor your study sessions at the same time and that's it"

juhyun and jungkook looked at each other. he looked confused as fuck, mrs. min probably hadn't asked him and just assumed that he'd do anything that could increase his chances of getting in to seoul university, even if by 0.001%, not that he didn't already have one foot in of course.

these were all assumptions since he hasn't exactly said anything like that to juhyun but come on, jungkook had such a perfect record, you'd be an idiot to think that he wasn't after some fancy ass only 3% acceptance rate ass school.

"are you guys going to keep staring at each other or are you going to get to class"

"oh yeah, i'll try my best mrs. min! see ya juhyun" jungkooks says with a smile as he walks out of class.

"such a nice kid" mrs. min says.

"yeah"

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the rest of the first half of the periods was juhyun doing what she always did. sleep. she wasn't saying that she still was uninterested in school but that's exactly what she was saying.

juhyun liked to think of herself as a proーwhen she first started ignoring her teachers she would get so bored and time would pass by so, so slowly, it was almost unbearable but with experience juhyun managed to prefect the act of doing absolutely nothing and not getting bored.

it was lunch time now and juhyun wasn't hyped because it was school food. grossーshe watched shows about prison before and honestly the food there seemed much more appealing at times.

juhyun and her friends got their so called 'food and took a seat at their regular tableーit was all nice and chill, until a certain someone took the empty seat next to juhyun. jungkook.

"hey guys" he smiled.

juhyun looked up from her plate and looked at her friends, to her shock, her friends started to get all soft at jungkooks' greeting, even inha did. what the fuck?

"h-hey jungkook"

juhyun literally wanted to choke mina for stuttering and acting likeーlike this. come on this is jeon fucking jungkook, it's not like he's some type of hotshot.

"hey juhyun" he says giving her that so called adorable smile of his.

"suck my left nut"

"you're so sweet" jungkook says "are you coming to that party tonight?"

"what party?" juhyun says genuinely confused since she doesn't recall anyone inviting her to any party.

"oh yeah juhyun i forgot to tell you" seohye says "a kid in class 12A is throwing a praty tonight and you're coming with us"

"uh says who?" when did she ever agree to this?

"oh c'mon ju, stop being so emo all the time and come party with us" inha cooed as she pinched juhyuns cheeks, which by the way was very annoying.

"pffft i'm not emo"

juhyun was beyond offended when she saw all four of them look at her as if saying 'really?'ーshe might be a little bit pessimistic (at most of course) but not emo.

"mhm sure, so are you coming or are you coming?" seohye asks.

"i'll think about it i guess"

"lit" jungkooks says standing up "so, see you after school?"

"after school?" mina said looking like the real life version of the side eyes emoji.

"yeah he's gonna start tutoring me" juhyun says "also sorry kooks but im going to the mall with these losers after school"

"yeah cool, see you at the party then" jungkook says with a smile. he looked a bit bummed out if juhyun had to be honest. maybe it was just her imagination?

"dude, he's totally into you" seohye says getting nods of agreement from the other twoーjuhyun was starting to get irritated. she did not like that coconut headass.

"no he's not"

her friends kept teasing her about jungkook and she was seriously considering dropping them since she knew that he didn't like her and she as well didn't like him so there was really no need to tease her about it. she held it in though and just shrugged it off.

juhyun wasn't clueless, she knew that he was interested in her but no way in hell did he like her.

jeon jungkook did not like her.

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this was sooo boring but its gonna get spicy soon i promise ):