16 july 2015

hi bu,

sooo.... happy anniversary. tatlong taon na itong greeting na 'to but i'll always look forward to this greeting. i remember, tatlong taon na rin pala akong walang regalo. honestly, i know the perfect gift. pero... secret ko muna.... i think malapit na.... kasi naman ikaw... ay wait.... baka magka-hint ka pa.... erase erase muna....

alam mo ba na mahal na mahal kita rj? ok stop. i saw you smirked! gosh! when will you stop that habit of yours? ok sige na nga, i admit you look hot! parang ang yabang-yabang mo kasi pag sinasabi mong alam mo na mahal kita. feeling ko tuloy ang ganda-ganda ko. so yan... i love you.... and quit it. you're so smugged about it. oh god! why do i get this feeling you're not even denying it! ugh!

meron akong fear... medyo madami kaya enumeration muna tayo for part one. ok lang? at dahil mahal mo ko magtiis ka sa kakornihan ko. here it goes:

1. i fear of losing you - but you always make it a point that you don't have anywhere to go but here... in my heart

2. i fear of not being enough - but everytime you send me to sleep wrapped in your arms you write it as your fulfillment

3. i fear you'll see someone better - but each day you made sure you only have eyes for me

4. i fear of disappointing you - but everytime i get a role for my audition you would call your mom and dad just to schedule them a ticket and when i don't get the part you'll always say 'too bad they missed a guaranteed three VIP seat slots'

5. i fear of getting old - but when we came across the episode of grey's anatomy about alzheimer's you told me you will not stop to make me remember who you are and you asked me to promise to do the same

6. i fear of learning how to park - don't you dare laugh faulkerson! because it will always be my reason to get your attention. so i'm sorry but i'm not taking up your lessons

7. i fear of finding the perfect tiramisu - because you promised me we'll travel the whole world to look for it. so yeah, i'm not going to say they're better than mine so it will be a lifetime of unending search unless my fear number one happens

8. i fear of being a mother - because i know i'll fail but knowing that you will be their father it makes me feel excited seeing those little richards and little maines (which i'll be praying so hard to look like you) so with that i promise, hence forward that i will always always address your boner accordingly and willingly and if you fail to have one, i will put my hands to good use... again faulkerson. STOP SMIRKING!

9. i fear of losing isay - because without her you can't stand on your own when i'm angry, you get frustrated that you cannot think anymore on how to woo me and you end up like a cry baby. and i love her

10. i fear of losing addie - because i don't want be bored when we move in to your house. and i love her

11. i fear of losing lester - because hello! i might end up locking you on weekends because i don't trust you with your other guy friends and i'm sorry, ok. but that's final. no boys night out without him. and i love him.

so now you know my fears.... but know in your heart you have wiped them all out long before i started feeling them. i love you. if one day i tell you otherwise, tell me to fuck off - you're not maine! i promise you i'll come to my senses....

happy third richard! i love you and you know it....

yours til no end,

maine

ps i wont be late this time
pps they don't have tiramisu there. you jerk!
ppps if one day i say i found the perfect tiramisu, make me believe i am wrong because i don't want our journey to stop
pppps and in reference to my eighth fear, i consider it my best and perfect gift... and i can't wait to give you the first perfect gift... let's start tonight yes?