may 15 2017

maine was sitting at a bench near the pool. rj finally agreed to leave her be for a few hours. his confession of how he feels for her continued to wrack her brains and her heart to palpitate. she felt relieved and happy knowing that he still loves her and wanted her back. she battled on whether gelo was right about letting him know the story of july 16, 2015 or she was right about keeping it to herself, after all she was the one to take the blame.

(tama naman sya eh. i can't say i don't love him kasi mahal ko naman talaga sya. pero hindi nya ko mapapatawad sa nangyari and even if he does, kaya ko ba siyang makita na masaktan ng ganon katindi?)

while she's burying her thoughts on what to do and what not to do, she didn't notice simon approached until he spoke.

"peso for your thoughts?"

uy simon- hi, san sila isay?

"bumalik sa room."

ahhh. kumain na kayo?

"yup. alam mo maine pwede mo akong hindi kausapin hindi ako ma-ooffend pero wag mo lang i-deny yung presence ko kasi even if yesterday lang kita nakilala ng personal, feeling ko kilalang-kilala kita dahil sa mga kwento nila kaya i consider you a friend"

how do you know me simon? i mean based on the stories you've heard from them.

"hindi ka marunong mag-park"

hahaha ang bully mo talaga noh

"yun ang unang kwento di ba? that's how your paths crossed? siningil ka nya by making you agree to the idea of him being your driver. from that day he was smitten. at sa panahon na nakilala ko sya, masasabi ko mahal ka pa nya. lahat sila maine, mahal ka nila."

i also love them all simon.

"hindi ko tatanungin sayo kung ano ang nangyari at hindi ka sumipot sa dinner nyo. pero alam mo ba na that night he'll be asking you to marry him?"

she was dumbfounded. she had no idea. so that's what addie's pleading was all about. she didn't know how to respond. she was overwhelmed.

"from what i can see. hindi mo talaga alam. so yun, he was so worried when you didn't show up. then you sent him a message the morning after the supposed wedding proposal, he respected your wishes and let you be.... he was hurting that time pero yung kagustuhan mo yun pa rin ang inisip at inuna nya. ikaw maine, kelan mo isasaalang-alang yung gusto nya? you can keep your answer to yourself. gaya nga ng sinabi ko you can choose to not to say anything, pwede mo akong hindi kausapin. "

what would you do?

"magkaiba tayo ng prinsipyo at pananaw sa buhay maine, pero ako kasi if there's going to be a situation that will challenge my love for isay, i would want to face that challenge same way she does. kasi unfair naman kay isay kung makikipagpatayan sya tapos manonood lang ako di ba? then matatalo siya kasi  dalawa pala yung opponent - na kung sakali pala na sumama ako mas may chance na manalo kasi patas ang laban, pero kung matalo man kami, it would be fulfilling to look back and say na magkasama naming hinarap ang lahat ng walang takot. "

ayoko maramdaman nya yung sakit

hindi pa ba sya nasasaktan?

it's more than the kind of pain he is feeling

"feeling ko masokista naman din si richard eh.... alam mo maine, pain is lesser if you share it and if you have someone who will go through it with you. kung mas masasaktan sya di ba mas madali kung sisiguraduhin mo na nandun ka, kasama nya?"

salamat simon

"walang anuman. basta patikim yung tiramisu"

hayaan mo if may time

"aasa ako ha"

last na

"shoot"

he asked me to stay

"do you want to?"

hindi.... hindi ko alam eh....

"bakit di mo alam?"

i cant seem to find any reason to stay

"do you need one?"

uhm.... i .... what do you mean?

"kailangan ba talaga ng dahilan? hindi ba sapat na dahilan yung kasi gusto mo lang?"

and with that, she was silenced... kailangan nga ba talaga ng rason? bakit nga ba kailangan pa nyang maghanap ng rason?