It had been ten days.Ten days since the day I got back to Sydney, and ten days since i've seen or spoken to Michael.

The first day was terrible. I spent it alone in my room, either crying or staring at the ceiling. Luke knocked on my door relentlessly. For a few hours he even sat outside my door, begging for me to come out. I knew he didn't deserve this but, I just needed to be alone. After Luke finally gave up and went downstairs, I quickly went to the bathroom. Then once he went to bed, I went to get food. I fell asleep crying.

The second day was even worse. I tried to text Michael, but my text bounced back which could only mean one thing―he blocked my number. This sent me into a break down. I threw my phone against the wall that day, causing it to shatter. As I went to retrieve it from the floor, I slid down the wall and ended up sitting in the corner for the rest of the day and part of the night. I stopped crying eventually. I think I was out of tears seeing as I cried so many of them lately. I just sat there. Luke knocked a bunch of times, but he didn't push it very much. When I finally managed to get myself out of the corner, I went to bed staring at the ceiling.

The third day was slightly better the past two. But ever so slightly. I stayed in bed all day, without shedding a single tear. My phone had died overnight but I hadn't been bothered to charge it. Luke only knocked a few times, but didn't try very hard to get me to come out. Calum came over. He tried to get me to come out too, but I heard Luke tell him not to bother. I could tell Luke was really trying to understand what I was going through, but I knew he was getting irritated with my behaviour. I don't blame him.

Day four was faintly better than days before it. I actually got up out of bed; only to get the Xbox from the game room downstairs and bring it to my room. Then the rest of the day I played Call of Duty in bed. Luke was online too. He messaged me and told me he's there for me, but I didn't reply. He tried to start several games with me, but I declined them all. I got off the game and went to bed early. I thought about Michael before I went to bed, but I had thought of him a lot less through that day.

Day five was even better than day four. I took a shower, which I desperately needed. I got changed in clothes other than my pyjamas. Even though it was sweatpants and one of Luke's old t-shirts, it was a start. I had breakfast with Luke this day. In silence. He had tried to start several conversations, but I didn't want to talk. After breakfast, I decided to go for a short walk. The fresh air helped to clear my head. Even though I only went to the end of the street and back, it really did help. The rest of the day I spent in bed playing video games and writing in my journal.

Day six was―okay. It was an okay day. Not good, but okay. I finally got around to charging my phone, and when it turned on I got tons of messages from Luke, Cal, Ash, Cora, and my dad. They all said basically the same thing. They hope i'm alright and they're there if I need them. But that's just it. I didn't need them, I needed my brother. I made slight conversation with Luke this day. Even though I just peaked my head in his bedroom door and said, "go online" referring to Call of Duty. He smiled though; and seeing Luke's smile was enough to make my day better than it had been before. We didn't talk at all on the mic or in messages, but just knowing he was there made me feel slightly better.

Day seven was good. Not great―but good. I talked to Luke more. We made conversation over breakfast, and even made some jokes. Jokes that I normally wouldn't laugh at; but since they were coming from the boy I love, it made them all the funnier. I went to his room with him and cuddled all day. We didn't speak much, but we didn't need to. Just being in Luke's presence made me feel better. I feel asleep on Luke, with our hands intertwined and my head on his chest. This was the first day I had felt home again.

The eighth day was even better. I woke up in Luke's arms, which started my day off strong. The eighth day was the first time I had kissed Luke in what felt like forever. This kiss was different than our many others though. This kiss was filled with tenderness and caution, almost as if Luke was afraid he'd break me. He told me he was scared that I didn't love him anymore, but I assured him that I probably wouldn't ever stop. Luke helped me finally unpack all my things and put them away. We went to the diner together for dinner, and then Calum and Ashton came over for movie night. It was Luke's turn to choose the movie, so he chose Ferris Bueller's Day Off, probably because he knew this was one of my all time favourites. After the movie, the guys went home and Luke and I went to bed. Day eight was the first day I hadn't thought about Michael―at all.

The ninth day was a normal day. I began to fall back into my old routine. I went to the mall with Cora and her other friend Brooke. She was really nice. She was my age, and told me about the high school I would be attending in the fall. She assured me that everyone there is very nice and welcoming, which eased my anxiety a bit. We exchanged numbers and made plans to have lunch together next week. I got home and found a candle lit dinner on the table. Luke and I ate for a while and tried to be romantic, but then we both decided we couldn't see what we were eating, so we turned the lights on. We cuddled on the couch afterwards and kissed for quite some time, until going to bed. I felt normal on the ninth day. I felt like Michael not being here may not be as bad as I thought it would.

Day ten was today.

I woke up and rolled over to check my phone. I replied to the few texts from Cora, Brooke, and Calum. I tried to get out of bed but was trapped in between Luke's arms.

"Luke." I groan.

"Hmm." He mumbles.

"I need to get up."

"Why? Stay here with me." He whines.

"I can't. I need to shower and get ready. Calum asked me to go shopping with him to help choose a suit for his job interview next week." I explain as I push Luke's arms off of me and stand up.

"Can I join you?" Luke asks, propping his body up on his forearms.

"Yeah I don't think Calum would care." I shrug.

"I don't mean join you shopping." Luke smirks. "I meant the shower."

"Oh." I blush. "Yeah, I guess."

"Really?" Luke asks, clearly shocked that I said yes.

"Better hurry." I say as I turn around and walk to Luke's en-suite, swinging my hips more dramatically. I leave the door open and pull the shirt I was wearing over my head, leaving me in just my bra and panties.

I look at Luke who's still in bed, staring at me with his mouth wipe open.

"You coming?" I smirk.

Luke jumps out of bed and hurries into the bathroom. He immediately smashes his lips onto mine, moving me backwards until my back hit the counter. He unclips my bra and tosses it on the ground.

"You're so beautiful." He says against my lips.

I bring my hands to his hair as tug lightly. I pull away from Luke and shimmy out of my panties. He stands in front of me with wide eyes as he eyes me up and down.

"Luke Hemmings, are you checking me out?" I giggle.

"I can't help it. You're sexy as fuck."

"Luke." I say as I cover my face with my hands, embarrassed by his words.

He takes my hands from my face and intertwines them with his.

"Don't be shy. Not around me." He says as he pecks my lips and then starts up the water.

He finally removes the only article of clothing he has on which are his boxers. It's my first time seeing him completely bare, and I can't help but let my eyes trail down.

"May Clifford, are you checking me out?" He mimics.

I roll my eyes and step inside the shower, Luke following suit.

Luke spins me around and lightly pushes me up against the shower wall, attacking my face with small kisses. He moves down to my neck and sucks harshly, making sure to leave his mark on my skin. I moan at his actions. He begins to move downwards when I lift his chin up to stop.

"What's wrong?" He asks.

"Nothing. I just figured I could do something for you this time."

"But, you've been feeling bad these past few weeks. I wanted to do something to make you feel better." He smirks.

"You wanted to make me feel better by eating me out?" I giggle and then widen my eyes at my sudden dirty mouth.

"Yeah, I did." He laughs.

"Well, i'm not feeling bad anymore. I want to make you feel good." I say as I slowly go down until I am on my knees.

I swirl my tongue around his tip and slowly take him into my mouth, making Luke throw his head back in immediate pleasure. I wrap my mouth around him and take in as much as I can, pumping the rest with my hands. I hadn't realized how big Luke was until now.

"May." He moans loudly, pulling roughly on my hair.

I move my mouth up and down while still pumping the base. I look up at him through my eyelashes and bat them, immediately making him moan and thrusting further into my mouth.

"I'm gonna―if you don't want me to―move now if-" He stutters.

But I wasn't moving. I wanted to take all of him. I bob my head a few more times and within seconds, Luke releases his warm liquid into my mouth. I swallow and wipe the edges of my mouth before standing up. I rest my head on Luke's chest as he comes down from his high.

"Holy shit," He breathes. " That was the best blowjob i've ever gotten."

Although i'm flattered, he said the best one he'd gotten. Meaning he's gotten one before. Obviously I knew he has but, I can't help but think of someone else with their lips wrapped around Luke―my Luke. I shake the thoughts from my head; nothing is going to ruin this moment for me.

"So much for a shower." I giggle.

Luke laughs before taking the body wash and rubbing it on me slowly in a circular motion.

"Hey Luke," I stop him. "Thank you."

"Thank you? You just finished giving me head and you're thanking me?" He laughs.

I swat his arm. "No you idiot." I laugh. "I mean thank you, for just being here with me."

"Of course, baby." He says as he leans in to give me a quick kiss before continuing with the body wash.

Once we're finished, Luke steps out of the shower first and wraps a towel around his waist. He grabs another towel from the hook and holds it out for me. I step out and he wraps it around me.

"Thanks." I say. "I'm going to go get changed."

I wipe my feet on the carpet quickly before stepping out of the bathroom. I walk over to my room and open my closet doors. I pull out a pair of black leggings and a grey and pink sweater from Victoria's Secret. I figured I didn't need to be dressed up too nicely today since I was only going to the mall.

"Please where those pants more often." Luke says from the doorway.

"Luke!" I shriek. "Were you watching me?"

"No I just got here, now I wish I was though." He laughs.

I roll my eyes playfully. Just then my phone buzzes. I pick it up to see multiple texts from Calum.

"Shit. Cal texted me twenty minutes ago saying he was on his way. He must have been waiting in the driveway all this time. I gotta go. Do you want to come?" I ask.

"Nah, i'm just gonna stay home and play some video games. Have fun, babe." Luke says as he comes over to me to kiss me goodbye.

I walk outside and over to Calum's car. I get into the passenger seat and shut the door behind me.

"What took you so long?" He asks.

"Sorry I―I overslept." I lie.

I'd rather not tell him I just finished giving head to my boyfriend who just so happened to be one of his best friends and that was my reason for being late.

"Alright" He stretches the word, "I can tell you're bullshitting but I think it's best if I don't know what you and Luke were doing." He laughs.

"What? Why do you assume we were doing something?"

"Please. You and your boyfriend have the house all to yourselves. Do you really think I'd believe you two just sit around and play video games all day?"

We mostly do, which was the funny part.

"Whatever." I giggle.

"I'm really glad you came out of hiding." Calum says.

"Yeah, me too." I say, and mean it.

Maybe being without Michael wouldn't be as bad as I thought it would be.

A/N yaay for a long chapter! How are you guys liking what's going on? I know you probably hate Michael but don't give up on him just yet! Please vote, comment and even share this story on your twitters if you want to! You can follow me also, my user is @/haroldftlrh (: x