I sipped on my drink as I stared at Ren, eating his food and watching TV. I don't even know why I allowed him to come into my house. I mean sure, he's still my best friend but we aren't how we used to be.

I think It has a lot to do with his girlfriend and this local buzz they have around the CPT of their rap group.

"That was good as hell", Ren groaned with a smile on his face, balling up the paper bag that was once filled with food.

I didn't respond. I just continued to stare at him. I licked my lips and slowly looked away as Ren gaze caught mine. I knew I shouldn't have let him inside.

"Yo Rhy?" Ren questioned as he leaned forward to me. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing", I dryly responded.

"Here you go with this attitude shit again", Ren said as he sucked his teeth, frowning.

"Yeah whatever", I said as I stood up and started to walk off.

As I tried to walk away, I felt Ren arms quickly wrap around my waist and being pulled down onto his lap. I looked over my left shoulder at Ren.

"Yo what's the issue with you Rhyon. You got this nasty attitude and I ain't digging this shit. You aint acting like yo self. Fuck is up?"

"Tuh" I replied with a snarl. "Look who's talking about someone not acting like their self. You barely come around or kick it with someone that's supposed to be your best friend?!"

"Rhyon.it aint even like th...- "

"Then what is it Lorenzo?", I interrupted him and piercing my eyes through his soul.

Ren tighten his embrace around my small waist even tighter. God, it felt so good to be in his arms. It felt like it was right, but it was still wrong because my name is Rhyon.

Not Kim.

"Rhyon" Ren sighed. "I know we aint been kicking it like we usually do since you moved back but this music shit...and...and Kim riding me about these strawberry bitches round hood...- "

"You cheating on her?", I interrupted again, raising a brow.

Ren chuckled. "Like you give a fuck. But no, she don't trust me and shit so I been trying to be a good nigga to her"

"So why you over here for if you trying to be a good nigga?", I mocked with mug in my face.

Ren didn't reply. I sucked my teeth and shook my head as I turned away from him, trying to wiggle out of his embrace. I sighed and shook my head at my stupidity. I thought I could talk to this guy about how I feel but it is my fault.

I shouldn't have caught feelings for this guy. But it is hard to not fall in love with your best friend.

"Rhyon", Ren faintly whispered in my ear. "I'm sorry. I aint know I was hurting you girl. You know I wouldn't purposely hurt your feelings".

I didn't budge. Instead I closed my eyes and sighed in shock as I felt Ren softly press his lips against the nape of my neck. He slowly planted tender, wet kiss trails up my neck and stopping at my ear.

"W-What are you doing Ren?", I moaned with my eyes closed.

"Shhh...relax", he replied in a deep voice before he continued to kiss my neck.

This feeling is so weird. I know my body and I am heating up by the second. Each kiss from him sent electric jolts through my body, surging through my veins and leaving my sweet nectar forming in between my thighs.

"No Ren.", I quickly said as I broke from is embrace and standing before him.

My eyes widened as I looked at Ren Khaki pants with a big bulge in the middle. I was taken aback at this sight. I don't know a thing about sex and I personally don't think I am ready. I always wanted to wait until I found a real boyfriend, but I've also dreamed of Ren being my first.

Ren licked his lips before standing up. His frame hovered over mine as he looked down at me and biting his bottom lip. I don't know what to do at this point. My mind is telling me to put him out. This isn't right.

But my body is saying he is rightfully mine and I shouldn't care about anyone but me. It's just me and him now.

"I won't hurt you Rhyon" Ren said with sincerity in his voice.

I fixated my eyes on him, then closing my eyes and feeling Ren sweep me off my feet and into his arms. I wrapped my legs around his waist as we passionately gouged at each other lips. 

Before I knew It, we were inside of my bedroom and I was laying on my bed in my bra and panties with Ren on top of me in his boxers, kissing my neck.

"Ren wait.... what if my mom comes home and hears us?", I moaned softly as I tried to sit up.

"Baby.... come on she aint coming home no time soon", Ren huskily said as he caressed my thighs.

My body reacted to every touch he was giving me. I was in pure bliss so far, but I am nervous about having my virginity taken at such an immature age. I mean, Melissa and Paris was having sex but I don't think I am quite ready for that.

I watched Ren lean up, looking down at me and smirking. My hair was all over my head from him running his fingers through it.

"You beautiful Rhyon"

I bat my eyelashes before blushing and covering my face. I felt Ren hands smooth its way down to my stomach and then tugging gently at my panties.

"Oh god", I nervously said as I leaned up a little and watched Ren slide my panties down to my ankles.

I blushed heavily from him gazing over my lower half of my body and pulling his man hood out. My eyes broaden at the sight of his size, length and how thick he was. I didn't think teenage guys could be so big.

"Relax Rhyon. I aint gonna hurt you a'ight", he ensured as he rubbed my legs that were severely tensed at this point.

I nodded slowly as Ren leaned over me and kissed my lips while positioning himself in between my thighs. I felt the tip of his manhood rubbing around the lips of my honey pot, which sent my heart rate higher than normal.

"Ren...shouldn't we be using a condom?", I asked before twisting my mouth to the side.

"You don't trust me or something Rhyon?", Ren said with a slight attitude in his voice as he leaned up and stared at me.

I stared back. "I mean, I never said that I was just saying because I don't take birth control and I...- "

"I'll pull out" Ren laughed softly before planting a kiss upon my lips. "A'ight?"

I sighed and smiled as well.

"Okay"

With that, Ren slowly placed his manhood tip at the entrance to my love canal. I panted rapidly as I felt him swirl himself around my nectar before gently inching his tip in. I scrunched my face up in discomfort and digging my nails into his bare back.

"You good Rhy?", Ren panted in excitement as he stared at me.

I never replied. Instead, I groaned as my body tensed up a little more from this painful sensation.

"It hurts Ren" I whined as I tightly closed my eyes.

If I closed them any tighter, I'll be popping my eyeballs through the skin. Ren leaned down and kissed my neck. I guess to help me keep my mind off the pain of my cherry being popped.

"I'ma go slow", Ren promised in a whisper.

I noticed he slowly started dipping his hips and it started to feel good about 5 minutes into it. I was overwhelmed at this sensation of Ren and I finally having my first intimate encounter. The way the bed rocked and the grunts that escaped his lips were doing things to me that I just can't explain.

"Rhyon.... damn girl", Ren groaned softly in my ear as I panted in his. "You feel so good"

I didn't know how to respond so all I did was moan into his ear. Ren was gentle with me and it felt so good. I know he wanted to go faster, but he took his time with me. He placed me in positions that I had no clue that my body could conform too.

"Let me teach you how to ride it", Ren said as he laid on his back and patted his manhood.

"Ren...I can't...- "

"It aint hard" he says as he cut me off and grabbed my hips "Just slowly sit and place your knees on the bed and ill guide your hips"

I nervously bit my lip as I followed Ren directions. I could feel him fill my insides up as I exhaled in ecstasy just from sitting down on him. I felt powerful as I heard him groan and lick his lips with a smile on his face.

"Now just let me rock your hips slowly", he said as he stared up at me with lustful eyes.

And this day was the day I lost my virginity, learned how to ride and perform oral sex. This continued almost every day until I get ready to be shipped off to college and I even ended up going to the free clinic to see if I can get birth control.

I didn't tell my home girls about it. but when I do, they'll be shocked as fuck. I'm not sure if Ren told Kim what happened between us, but I doubt it. Hopefully, he didn't tell any of his home boys because I don't want no one in my business.

If this is what being a grown woman feels like, then I'm digging it. If I'm doing it to Ren, I feel invincible, sexy...free.

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Sorry for the long overdue update. I been BUSY WITH LIFE LOL

I WANNA SHARE SOME NEWS WITH YOU GUYS: IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW I AM A FINALLY AND OFFICALLY A COLLEGE GRAUDATE.

BACHELORS OF SCIENCE IN BIOLOGY FROM VIRGINIA UNION UNIVERSITY. I LOVE MY HBCU!

THIS IS A BIG DEAL SINCE I AM THE 1ST GENERATION OF MY MOTHER KIDS TO GO TO COLLEGE AND I DID IT. THIS SHIT WASN'T EASY AND I AINT COME FROM NO GLAMOROUS NEIGHBORHOOD.

A LITLE GIRL FROM QUEENSBRIDGE PROJECTS HAD ONE DREAM = TO BE A COLLEGE GRADUATE.

AND I DID IT.

I POSTED SOME PICTURES BELOW SO YOU GUYS CAN SEE. I WANNA SHARE MY ACCOMPLISHMENT ESP FOR MY HIGH SCHOOL SENIORS. ITS NOT WHEN YOU FINISH ITS HOW YOU FINISH!

OH BTW. I THINK AFTER I FINISH MY BOOKS I'M LEAVING WATTPAD AS A WRITER. I WILL STILL ACTIVELY READ AND COMMENT BUT AS FAR AS ANOTHER BOOK. NAHH BROO!

IM GONNA BE GETTING A MASTERS DEGREE SO I KIND OF WANNA FOCUS ON GETTING MY FUTURE SECURED CAUSE YES I AM READY TO START A FAMILY SOONER OR LATER.

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