Jun's POV

It's been two days since I went back to school and of course I dread every second of it.

I now know that Ezri had the ring but I don't know if I should just talk to her about it again or not. I always forget about asking when I'm around her. It makes me so mad.

She does these things to me that I didn't even know was possible and all she's doing is standing there.

"Ezri." She turned her head towards me with a confused look on her face as we sat on the roof top during lunch. "Yeah?"

"Do you remember that picture I showed you of a ring when we first started talking as friends?"

"That's who told me!"

"Here I have it with me. I've been trying to find out who's it was all along."

"Oh my god you're a l-"

"But there's a catch." I groaned in annoyance as I waited for the catch that she had.

"Well are you gonna tell me princess?"

"Hmm? Should I?"

"Aw come on! What do you want? Money? Food? A necklace? A kiss?"

"Sure why not."

"Okay that didn't answer which one, but I'll gladly kiss you."

"Oh I know you would." She smiled and so did I, leaning towards her and grabbing the ring. "You're such a turd!" She exclaimed, a pout evident on her face as I laughed and put the ring in my pocket.

"I know." I pulled her towards me and connected her lips with mine. My mind became fuzzy and intoxicated with the scent of honey. I want her, no I need her, yet I can't have her.

I love her so much, but I can't.

We're only friends. Friends who love each other, yet because of each other, nothing will change.

I want it to change, but am I making the right decision?

The kiss became more passionate and needy as the seconds went by. Her hands found their way to my hair and I almost lost it. I longed for her touch even though her body was against mine; the touches she left on me burnt against my skin as they left one by one, yet the one on my lips continued to stay.

-Time Skip-

We had gone back to our classes, not seeing each other for the last two periods of school. I began to wonder, why I was doing what I was doing.

I wondered why I had to live this life and why I couldn't just be happy.

I wondered if it hurt Ezri as much as it hurt me knowing we were only friends that would kiss, who loved and cared for each other yet nothing was said.

No I love you's, no hand holding, no date nights, no nothing.

I want to call her mine, I do, but would she want someone as dangerous and murderous as me?

I only knew one thing for sure.

I wanted out.

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"Is this because of that girl?" Seungcheol's body walked towards me, anger could be seen well across his face, his eyes looking at me dead center.

"What girl?" I asked, my body tensing as I sat still. My heart was beating quickly and I took a small step back from him. The last thing I need - no the last thing I wanted - was for Ezri to get hurt. Was for her to have to suffer for my actions, my wrong doings.

"I'm not dumb Jun. I know you and that girl at your school are more than just school buddies." I looked down to see his hands clenched, turning white as his fists shook a bit. "You lied to me."

"No."

"No? What do you mean, no?" He scoffed in disbelief leaning back in his chair. "I'm done. I never lied. I was keeping her safe, far away from you and any other idiots who live their life to kill people."

"You're an idiot Jun." Seungcheol got up slowly out of his seat, walking over to my side of the table, his hand underneath my chin, making me look up at him with my neck cramping. "We," he paused, his hand gently running down my neck before he gripped it tightly, choking me, letting all the oxygen I had inside me, quickly fade away.

"We kill people Jun. You've killed people. With guns, with your bare hands, with drinks, etc. No matter what you think, you'll never be normal. You're only causing her pain. I suggest you give me that ring and leave. Or I'll kill you both."

I felt my body slump to the floor. I didn't have much longer, I knew I'd most likely pass out.

"I...hate you..." I gasped while he let go of my neck, that was now throbbing in pain. My vision was fading in and out as I was picked up off the ground. "The feelings mutual Jun."

"I quit."

"You can't just quit. You've got to kill, but oh wait. You wouldn't. Yet you have for years."

He looked me dead in the eyes, his brown ones connecting with mine.

"You're a murderer. We all are Jun."

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"Stop!" A hand was slammed onto the table, making both men look towards the sound that echoed down the halls.

"Seungcheol he has a choice. If he wants to go, he can go. This is what he chooses. He knows the consequences and he'll face them on his own. So leave the boy alone." Jeonghan screamed, walking up to the two men who stood in place shocked.

"Jeonghan he-"

"Seungcheol that's enough. Yes this is the frickin mafia, but we were all a family before this happened and if he wants to leave, so be it. If in the end he's killed by one of us or someone else, so be it. He knows the consequences. Do you understand?" Jeonghan watched the men as they stood silently, Seungcheol looking at the ground and Jun silently thanking him.

"Jun."

Jun looked at the man before him. "Go now. but please be safe." All Jun could do was nod his head, grab his things, and leave.

And that's exactly what he did.

Ezri's POV

"Jun?"

"Hm?"

We sat on the rooftop of the apartments he lived on and looked at the night sky. The car drove past with their lights flashing and horns honking when someone would make them upset or do something wrong.

"What are we?" I wasn't able to look at Jun due to how scared I was, but I could see from my peripheral vision that he was looking at me.

"What do you mean?"

"You know what I mean. What are we? Are we friends? Acquaintances? Lovers? I don't understand what this is." I took a deep breath before I continued to talk and confess how I felt. "I like you Jun. I really do, and I understand if you don't or if you've been using me this whole time it's just tha-"

"Hey." I felt Jun's hand touch my cheek, wiping a start tear away that I didn't know had fallen, turning my head towards him. "Look at me angel, I'm just afraid that you'll get hurt because of me and I don't want something bad to happen to you. I'd never forgive myself for that and I'd put that on me. Ezri I'd never use you...I...I love you."

"What?"

"I love you Kim Ezri. Will you be mine? If you're willing to try with me?"

"Yes."

And just like that, I felt like everything was getting better.