Alec's P.O.V:
If my heart hadn't brake already, it definitely did now.

"Of course you don't... what are you talking about Magnus?".

"Alec it's nothing... just let it go...", he sighs and steps back as my hands fall on my side. He breaks eye contact and heads to the kitchen.

I fight away the tears that built in my eyes and head to the table, picking up the trait and following Magnus to the kitchen. I walk in to face his back as he bends over the pot, tasting the soup.

Smiling softly at the sight I leave the trait and hug him from behind, picking up his scent right away. The scent that makes me feel like home. Always. Some things never change. I kiss his neck softly, and realize that it's more delicate than usual.

"I love you and I'm sorry. I'm sorry... but I didn't know it was you... I thought I had cheated on you. I thought you were that girl from last night. I didn't remember anything and I--".

"Alec you don't have to explain okay? I get it. You freaked out in the morning because I am... a woman now. And you're not attracted to woman. It's okay, really, no need to make excuses", he says quietly and untangles himself, leaving me behind once again.

What did just happen? Excuses?!? I thought that Magnus was mad at me... but... he's beating himself up because he thinks that I don't want him anymore? That's insane! I need to talk to him... but when I turn around he's gone. Great. Where did he go now?

"Magnus? Where are you?", I yell and wait a couple of seconds until I hear a shaky voice reply: "Bedroom".

I sigh and rub my hands in my face, trying to calm down and not let the pain I feel in. I can't let it get to me. Magnus must be my number one priority. I walk towards the bedroom and open the door to be met with my boyfriend (girlfriend?) holding and his pajamas.

"Magnus? Where are you going?", I ask beyond confused.

"The guest room. I know that you don't want to be near me Alec. Really, I understand. There's nothing to worry-".

"Okay that's enough!", I yell, rage clouding my judgment as I throw everything he's holding on the floor.

"Alec what do you think you're doing?!", Magnus asks startled, anger clear in his voice. But there's also something else. Sadness, disappointment? I can't tell and right now I'm too pissed to care.

"Exactly how shallow do you think I am? Huh? Not to mention selfish! Do you have any idea how much I love you?!? YOU ARE MY LIFE YOU IDIOT, MY LIFE! I didn't fall for you because you're hot, I didn't fall for your appearance, I fell in love with your soul, with the beautiful person you're hiding away from everyone! Everyone except the people you love! Except me! I fell in love with that kind, caring, loving yet so care free and open minded person you hide away. That's who I'm in love with! Do you really think that a stupid spell could change that?!?! I didn't know that it was you in the morning damn it! Can't you hear me??! I thought it was that stupid woman that kissed me at the club last night!! I thought I had cheated on you! I thought I had betrayed you!! I didn't know it was you! All I could see was the reason that I'd lose you! I've been driving myself crazy all day! When Ragnor called me to tell me about the spell I thought the earth beneath me was gone! I felt lost! I came here practically running because I was so sure you were mad at me. I thought you hated me. I thought I had disappointed you! And you think that I don't want you? That now that you're a woman I want you to stay away from me? I'd give everything to spend as much time with you as I can!!! And you think I'd waste it like that?! This is ridiculous!".

By the time I'm done, tears I've been fighting back so hard have escaped and the problem is that I can't stop them. But when I notice the tears in Magnus' eyes and the broken look on his face I regret everything. What have I done...