here we are standing
in the middle of the night
i begin the next phase of my life
as soon as the sun breaks the horizon
after the cock crows twice
tomorrow morning
it's a strange feeling
as a lot of things have been lately
although i am alone
and i am reveling in it
i am praying to whatever lord might be listening
that it is nothing like the last time
i fled my home
please don't let me feel the dreadful abandonment
of the last time i was alone
because it's true this time
this is alone
this is abandonment
this is the test of all tests
this is done by my own goddamn hand
so if i don't come out alive on the other side
i am going to be seething
as long as my mouth is still breathing