This is my 13th reason 

I was sitting at the doctor's office  with a grim expression while my aunt and uncle were sitting beside me with angry glares directed at me. I had tried multiple times to convince them that I wasn't pregnant.

They should believe me since they know I don't like Asad but then again, when was the last time they actually listened to me? I stared at my watch extremely bored, we had been waiting for the doctor for over 10 minutes and she still wasn't back yet. 

Finally, the door opened and the doctor walked in holding a packet, she put it down on her table and handed another packet to my aunt. "Rayyana is not pregnant." She said and I could hear the sigh's of relief coming from my aunt and uncle.

"I told you." I angrily said and made a move to storm out the doctor's office, they were being ridiculous by stealing my phone away from me! "Can I have my phone back now?" My aunt nodded and handed it to me without another word. 

I grumbled and turned the power on and saw millions of messages from my friends and Asad. I opened the messages from my friends and they were all talking about the newspaper and no doubt Asad was saying the same thing. 

I quickly messaged my friends telling them the news was false and it was just my cramps, they instantly messaged me back by saying they were mad at me because they thought that I had a secret wedding without them. 

I scoffed, I was dreading my actual wedding day and they thought I married Asad secretly. I opened Asad's messages next and all his messages were in caps lock basically saying that the news has to be false and that I couldn't 'cheat' on him. Then I guess he calmed down a little because the next few messages were actually nice and not in caps lock.

The messages were him telling me to answer his calls and telling me not to panic and not to be upset over this, he also said he was going to talk to the press and demand them to remove the awful message's.

Asad being nice? He was probably doing that because of his image, after all he would be cancelled if he did something Haram like sex before marriage. I mean sex in general is something I am not looking forward too. 

I shook my head and watched my aunt and uncle walk ahead of me, I followed quickly behind and we went home silently. 

It was 4 in the morning when we came back and I wasn't really that tired so I decided to go to the rooftop. I had left my glasses behind because I could actually see without them but I decided to grab them just in case. I hated glasses so much and it angered me when people said I was lucky to have glasses. The fun fact was that these were the same people who called me 'blind' for fun. 

I laid down in my Charpoy bed and watched the sky, there was no moon today and very little stars so it wasn't that fun as the nights before. I decided to check the weather to see if it was going to rain today and the next thing I knew I was searching for the article about me. 

Even though it was very misleading it was kind of fun to have a article written about you. I searched everywhere but I found it nowhere.  

Don't tell me Asad actually made people delete it 

I blushed thinking about Asad threatening people and the next thing I knew I was smiling super hard. I heard a ping and opened my messages to see one from Asad. 

The devil- I removed all the articles about you 

Rayyana- I saw, thank you

The Devil- Whatever don't think I did it for you, we can't fall for each other Rayyana this is strictly business. 

I sighed and closed my messages, of course how could I forget it was only a business deal. I layed down on my side and willed myself to close my eyes and not to cry but the next thing I knew I was crying. 

Stupid   

"You know how to create suspense." Rabia teased me. We were heading to the Carnival in a Riksha and the whole way the girls demanded to know what happened. I had told them the story thousands of times (obviously not mentioning the part about Asad and his deal) but they wouldn't shut up about me and Asad's love for each other. 

"You all know there is no love involved." I said angrily tired of everyone questioning me. They wouldn't stop and it was hurting my head. I was so close to cancelling but then I thought against it because I would be going back to Canada and only ALLAH knows when I'll be seeing the girls again. 

We all got out of the Riksha and paid for our tickets. We all had gotten 25 tickets each and we all had agreed to use them on the same rides. But that plan soon went down the drain when Rabia and Sabha fought over different rides. Rabia wanted to go on fast rides but Sabha didn't like fast rides. Soojin told them to do rock paper scissors and when Rabia won Sabha refused to go on any of her rides.

"I will hold your hand." Sabha nodded and watched in fear as Rabia pointed to a big rollercoaster. I didn't mind them, I had only been on one in my entire life but I spent the whole ride with my eyes closed. We stood in line for what felt like hours until finally we got spots. Soojin and Rabia sat in the front while me and Sabha sat behind them. 

Now that I was actually seconds away from being blasted off I realized l was scared so in a way Sabha was my safe spot. We were patiently sitting until I heard mumbling to my right, I looked over and started bursting out laughing when I realized Sabha was reciting the shahada. 

"LAAA-ILAHA IL-LAL-LAHU MUHAM-MADUR RASULUL-LA." 

"Sabha it's okay, Inshallah we will live." Sabha glared at me "Not funny!" The person who was operating the ride told everyone to hold on tight and Sabha's hold on me got so tight that it was hurting me. 

Before I could say anything the ride started moving and before we knew it we were upside down. Sabha and maybe me were screaming I couldn't tell because my eyes were closed. We stopped and I opened my eyes to thank ALLAH but stopped when I realized we were at the drop. 

I gulped and found myself reciting the Shahada before we went down and I resumed my screaming. 

"Is it over?" I heard a meek reply next to me, I opened my eyes to see the ride had stopped and we were finally safe again. I looked over to Sabha who was pale "Yeah." I whispered myself and got off the ride. 

"Wasn't that fun!" Rabia screamed to Sabha and me, we both just nodded and then we laughed once we saw how pale we looked. 

The last time I had went on a rollercoaster was when I was 10, my dad was with me because he had promised that he would go on the ride with me. 

Flashback

"I'm so excited papa! aren't you?" I turned to my dad who was staring at the drop not saying anything, he turned to me and nodded. My dad was scared of heights so scared in fact that he refused to go on a Ferris wheel with me. I told him they were slow but he still refused saying that the box might drop or the Ferris wheel might stop and we would be stuck in the sky for hours. 

After many hours I had finally managed to persuade him into going on a rollercoaster with me but something about the way he said it made me suspicious. I shrugged and came back to reality when I realized that it was our turn. 

I excitedly went into the little box thingy and looked to my right my smile instantly frowned when an unknown man was sitting there smiling at me. "Sorry, my dad is going to sit there." He raised an eyebrow at me.

"No, I'm not." I turned to see my dad holding his phone taking a picture of me. "What? You promised!" I said angrily. He shrugged and said "Sorry." Before I could say anything else the ride started and we went with a blast. 

After the ride was over I got out of the box thingy and angrily went to the exit. I was uncomfortable with the man beside me and I was angry because of my dad who had promised me that he was going to sit with me. 

I saw my dad smiling at me "How was it?" he had the audacity to ask "Good." I mumbled and stomped off, he followed me and said "Do you want to go again?" I shook my head and he mumbled a "okay." 

When we went back to where my mom and Humna was (Zoya wasn't born yet) she asked me how it was and I told her about how my dad hadn't gone on the ride with me. He told me he was scared and he promised the next time he would go on the ride with me. 

Flashback end

There was no next time, we were planning on going to an amusement park because Zoya had never been to one before, but he died. 

But he had made it up to me that day. He had gone on a spinning ride with me 2 times even though I didn't like spinning rides. He complained when I said I wanted to go on it another time but he stopped when I told him he owed me.  

I smiled at the thought.  

"Rayyana?" Sabha was shaking me, I turned to her and smiled "Yeah super fun." We all were hungry and we agreed to go to the cafeteria for food. "Do we still have money?" I asked, we all checked our purses and groaned when we realized we wasted it all on the tickets. 

"We can't even get a small popcorn with this!" Soojin said angrily. We all sighed and sat down at a bench staring at our tickets. "Well we can go on rides cant we?" Sabha said trying to cheer us up. 

We all shook our heads at her and just sat there no doubt thinking if this was the end of the day for us. 

"Now ladies, aren't we supposed to be having fun at amusement parks?" I groaned silently at the voice and looked up to a smirking Asad who for once looked normal. 

"Asad Bhai!" The girls all said excitedly. "Asad bhai we have no money and we are hungry." Soojin said sighing. Asad smiled at her and pulled out some money handing each of them it separately. "$40 each get as much food as you want." The girls all thanked him and ran to the food stands leaving me behind.

I rolled my eyes at the girls love for me and got up and starting walking to the food stands myself, but that plan was ruined when I got pulled back. 

"Let me go Asad, if someone sees you here they could fan girl and I'm in no mood to handle one of your fan girls." I looked around to make sure no one saw us. 

"Relax, no one will recognize me." Suddenly, I remembered I was supposed to be mad at him. 

"Yeah whatever." I mumbled and walked away from him to the food stands. 

I ordered some food and looked at the man who was taking my order, he was checking me out and I couldn't help but feel disgusted under his gaze. 

"Will that be all?" He asked me "Yes." I said pulling out the money Rabia had given me. She wasn't paying much attention to me but she did give me $15 dollars. "Oh no take this on the house." The man smiled at me. 

Usually I would have been excited to have free food but not this time, "oh no it's okay take this." He shook his head and before I could protest more he shooed me away. I sat down at a table contemplating running away, but before I could the man came out with my food on a tray.

"Here you go enjoy." He smiled at me and to my dismay sat down across from me. I sat there just staring at him waiting for him to go away, when I realized he wasn't going to move I awkwardly got up and said "Actually, I'm not that hungry." I made a move to walk away but someone caught my wrist. 

I took my hand back and the guy held his hands up in surrender "Sorry but you look hungry and I made this food with so much love." 

I made a disgusted face at him and before I could say anything or even walk away the guy was on the ground and he was being punched repeatedly. 

"Asad!" I heard myself screaming and that's when Rabia, Soojin, and Sabha came and pulled me away "Tell him to stop!" I yelled at them but they just stood there shaking there heads. 

I noticed 3 other guys behind the guy who was flirting with me and saw them painfully staring at the guy who was being punched by Asad. 

I looked to the girls and they had the same expression as me, that's when I realized why they weren't coming to my defense. 

This was a whole gang. 

I shuddered at the thought of them touching us (obviously what they planned to do) and that's when I realized Asad was still going off on the guy. 

As much as he deserved it I was worried about Asad's knuckles so I pulled him back. I flinched when I saw the guy who was beaten up badly. "Next time you make a move on my wife or her friends I'm going to beat up more then just your face!"

He screamed at them, "Asad." I whispered when I realized people were recording him. He was openly exsposed and everyone knew him as Asad Qureshi meaning his disguise had fallen apart. 

"Are you okay?" I asked Asad as I applied some sort of healing gel on him, he was taking the pain well not flinching at all. 

He was staring at me this whole time, We were at his apartment after dropping the girls home. He hadn't said anything and I was afraid to ask him anymore questions just in case he yells at me. 

"Asad." He said nothing. I sighed giving up, I turned around to put the medicine away but was turned back around. 

I stared wide eyed as Asad put his head on my shoulder, he nuzzled into my neck and I instantly felt butterflies in my stomach as well as the urge to push him away. 

After all I was still angry at him... Wasn't I?

"What are you doing to me Rayyana?" 

Urdu Translation-

Shahada- First kalima, basically a prayer for muslims. 

also used to convert people to Islam if they choose too, so if you aren't Muslim and read that part then welcome to Islam! (Jk)

"LAAA-ILAHA IL-LAL-LAHU MUHAM-MADUR RASULUL-LA." -The shahada. 

Inshallah- If ALLAH wills

Bhai- Brother (you say that in respect)