I swear to god I'm gonna off myself my cousins all get to stay for the rest of the week but I don't because of this stupid fucking back to school night thing tonight and even though my dad has the week off, we can't just go and come back I guess. It seems like my cousins get everything I wanted when I was their age which I don't understand it it doesn't seem fair at all I should be able to stay the rest of the week. additionally, they got to take a Disney cruise earlier this year, which I always wanted to do, and when I was younger, my grandma would tell me "maybe someday" and then she took my fucking cousins instead. my dad has the week off but no my mom's fucking demanding I go to back to school night and by the way I still haven't seen my fucking schedule and additionally my grandma is paying for this whole thing like I want to stay

I'll admit I've barely felt real this whole vacation anyway not in the normal break from reality vacation way just in a way I don't know how to describe but regardless I want to fucking stay