since I've been 15 for nearly 24 hours now, I gotta say

the fear still hasn't entirely gone away

it's of course lessened a lot less then from last night but still

it's still kind of there, lingering

and it's less of an upcoming dread (for obvious reasons) but more so a person sitting in the corner staring at me

that's the best way I know how to put it anyway

I'm probably gonna feel this way for like the next week lmao