There are moments when I believe many problems are my fault, even if I didn't do anything to cause said problems (I say sorry way too much.) I have... very low self-esteem-- this I will admit... and sometimes I believe the things I strive to achieve will never happen...

I tend to think of something awesome I want to achieve (like getting published, I can clearly see myself holding a paperback form of one of my stories.) Then I find myself thinking I'll never get anywhere with that at all-- that nobody will like it enough to publish it-- and I sometimes call my writing "garbage" even though some of you clearly enjoy it. I constantly read over my writing sometimes even after it's published, and when I find a misspelling or something, I slightly fear someone will see that and make fun of me.

This isn't me wanting to throw some sort of pity party, I really don't want you to see it that way-- this is just me explaining how I tend to feel, like a lot. Low self-esteem fudging sucks-- and writing and art and music are perfect escapes for me...

Sorry for posting this here, this was just nagging at me and I didn't want it to continue nagging at me any longer... so yeah-- there's my vent. :)

God Bless y'all!

- CryoFangs