"What happened?? You called me? Was he crying??" I asked patting Adeel's head softly.

"When he'll cry then only you'll come to attend him??" He spoke rudely.

"What is wrong?? I was coming only..." I said standing up.

"Yeah, I can see that very well" he said rummaging through drawers, Almirah.

"What are you searching?? Tell me, I'll find it for you" I said

"Can't find a single thing also, everything is out of place. Hareem use to keep everything systematically." He said closing the drawers loudly. Even Adeel started crying.

"What the hell is your problem?? Everything is in it's place only. If your searching for your things, then all your things are in Hareem's room. Because, as it is you were not going to stay in this room, so I thought why not give your luggage also some space?? And yes, I'm not Hareem, I'm not your affectionate wife.

I'm Hanya. Hareem's younger sister who is now married to you, her brother in law which by chance is now my heartless husband." I was poking his chest now. "We both were different...I can't help with that. If you're still in your dreamland, where Hareem does all your work then Hello!!" I snapped my fingers in front of his face

"Wake up, Good morning, welcome back to reality, now I'm here...and I'm not Hareem" I completed my rant. I was now breathing hard.

His jaw was clenched and he roughly caught my right hand and bended. I tried to hold back my scream, so my parents don't come to know about our fighting.

"You're hurting..." I whimpered.

"Think before you say" he said and left. I felled down on my knees, I tried hard not to cry but I couldn't control my tears.

The whole time, I was feeling restless. Moreover, I was feeling ashamed of myself. I knew his mood was off, so I should have control my tongue. But even he shouldn't have brought up Hareem in our fight. I know that they both loved each other a lot, but I'm also trying my best to keep up this relation. Nothing works from one side...

I was now standing in my balcony and looked up at the sky. The sun has gone to rest, the moon has already taken it's place as the darkness begins to surround me. I like the night, it hides my flaws, my imperfections. My worries, my thoughts, silently burn into smoke as they wonder through the endless night.

I knew where I had to go, where I'll feel at peace. Since Adeel was sleeping with Mama, I can easily escape. I changed into my jeans, didn't bothered to change my top, wrapped a stole on my head, wore my sweater, took my wallet and car keys. The old father clock in the corner of the living room chimed, as I descended down. It was around two. I got in the car, hit the gas pedal with full force and soon I was on the road.

The cold breeze blew right through my sweater and I bowed my head to one side, closing lashes weighed down with mascara to keep out the salty sting. I stopped the car and got down.
I could hear the waves lapping like the ticking of a more leisurely clock. I stood and walked over the cool sand to the freezing water, letting it kiss my toes through my bare foot.

The dampness of the sand was making its way through my skinny jeans, I hugged my knees close. My stole suddenly fell loose making my hair fell loose on my face, tousled, tangled. Thank God, there was no one here.

"You still have the habit of coming here??" He sat down beside me as he looked at me. I turned my face and wiped my tears.

"What are you doing here?" I asked looking at him.

"I saw you getting in the car and driving in full speed" he said looking at the sea.

"So you followed me??" I asked

"Yes, I did, but not because I don't trust you, it was late, I mean it's two at night!!" he said.

I started dusting my jeans, took sandal in my hand and turned to leave when he caught my right wrist.

"Hanya, please don't go" he said standing up.

I didn't said anything just kept looking down.

"Can we talk?" He asked. I nodded. "I didn't meant to upset you" he said looking down but never left my hand which was creating an another symptom inside my body other than anger and sadness.

"I know you didn't meant to upset me, but you did." I said equally looking down.

"And I apologize for that. My mood was off, and I just blew it all on you" he said now looking at me. By seeing his eyes, I could say that he was really sorry.

"You shouldn't have brought up Hareem, into this" I said looking at him.

He took a deep breath and then spoke "I know"

"No, you don't know anything. Because if you would have then you wouldn't have said so. I felt angry because I felt misunderstood and judged, and I wanted you to realize that you are wrong about me." I said and sighed.

"I did realized, Hanya" he said softly.

"I felt angry because when you say that to me, it feels like you’re being parental and treating me like a child. And you definitely intended to be hurtful, and I didn’t feel like I deserved that." I said sternly.

"Definitely, you didn't deserved that Hanya. It was my mistake." He said.

"Will you stop, please. Stop accepting everything that I'm saying as if it was solely your fault and not mine" I said in a irritated voice.

"Because it is my fault..." He said sighing.

"No it is not. Actually we both are at fault. We both are still in denial. Denial to accept our fate, our relation!!" I said

"Yes, we are. And I'm the one who is more responsible for this." He said sitting down on his knees.

"No, you're not" I said getting down on my knees too and held his shoulder, ignoring all the rubbish symptom in my stomach.

"You lost your wife, your soulmate, your lover, your everything. It's not easy to just keep everything behind and walk as if nothing has happened. These reactions were bound to happen. I have already knew it." I said stroking the trapezius with my hand.

"Trust me, I'm trying my best. It's not that, that I said yes to this marriage just to be ignorant or harsh towards you. I loved her Hanya, I really loved her...I'm trying but it really hurts for trying not to love her or forget her." He said looking down. He was in pain and his voice was the ultimate proof of that.

At that moment, I realized what the heart wants, the butterflies, the anxiety, It hit me like a ton of bricks. It knocked out the air out of my lungs. And somehow it became the worst feeling of the world. I should keep my distance. This would be best for both of us. I know I care for him, but it shouldn't exceed more than this.

I removed my hand from him and stood up. He also got up.

"It's too late, we should get going" I said picking up my things.

"You're coming with me" he said keeping his hands in his jeans pocket.

"I'm going in my car" I said.

"You're coming with me. Whether it's your car or mine!!" He said.

"But-"

"No buts...let's not argue in this." He said and I nodded. "I'll call someone right now, to keep your car in the garage." He said and started dialing. After speaking, he came and sat down on the driver seat. I was already sitting at the back. Now, don't ask why!!

Night had finally befallen, wrapping the day in its dark blanket. A trembling gush of wind inaudibly drifted across the skyline. The moon guides us through the night. Her calming presence makes me slowly close my eyes, my body quietly switching off.

Assalamualaikum my beautiful readers. How's everything going? I know you all gonna be like it's a small chappy. Yes, it is because the following chapter is gonna be biiiiiiggggggg, so be ready for that.

On my last chap almost everyone loved Sameer. So here's a question for you all...do you all wanna have a separate story for Sameer? Drop down your votes and on the basis of that, I'm gonna decide. If the majority says Yes, then it'll surely be written, but it's gonna take time, like I can't say when. I can only assure you all from my side.