The laughter escaping my lips is echoing off the sides of my small, yet beautiful room. My laugh isn't pleasant, but at least it's bearable. Plus, I couldn't hold it back. I pulled my laptop closer to me and pushed my earbuds in a little tighter. The lights were dim in my room, and it hurt to look at the window.

Now, let me apologize about how I'm not one of those people who stay outside for hours like my brothers and sister. I play softball. I enjoy it very much, but sometimes I do prefer sitting in my room and hanging out on my laptop. My mom hates it, but I don't care. The things I do make me happy to be alive.

When I was around 8 years old, my dad passed away. He was a firefighter, and he died when trying to save a little boy from a burning building. It was tragic, considering he was chief of the fire department. He always seemed to know what he was doing. After the incident, everyone in my family could barely hold themselves together. It seemed like nobody in my house wanted to live on the face of the earth. None of us are over it..especially my mom and I.

Youtubers changed my life forever. They made me laugh so hard that I would cry! I honestly have to thank them the most for everything they have done for my life. I would love to thank all of them...but two in particular.

Rhett McLaughlin and Link Neal.
Rhett & Link.
Good Mythical Morning.
Good Mythical More.
The Mythical Show.
Good Morning Chia Lincoln.
Finding Ms. Locklear.
Basically everything they do benefits me.

Those two guys have flipped my life around. I've been watching them since the beginning! But after my dad died, their jokes and entertainment became medicine and therapy for me. It was amazing.

Too bad I'm never going to live to see the day that I'll meet my heroes...