I want you here and now
Try my best to fight you say i hate you but i always stay
Heyy... Heyyyy. Heyyyyy

~~NOBODY LOVE~~Tori

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It was exactly a month since me and abdulazeez started dating, he was so loving, caring and everything. I loved him so freaking much, even mom knew him, she once spoke with him on the phone. Abdulazeez really stole my heart, he was everywhere, my heart, my bathroom, my bedroom, my closet, in fact my home, the whole house...

Every single thing was just peachy before baba twisted the whole thing.

I sobbed quietly memories of what happened earlier lingered like a spectator in my mind.

*Flashback*

I was watching empire on my mac when mama walked into my room. The very moment i lifted my head to look at her i knew something must be definitely wrong. So, I quickly sat up "Mama what's wrong?"

"Its nothing your father wants to talk you" she smiled or endeavored to, then walked out of the room. My heart started to tremble inside my bust, the mere thought of something really bad will going to happen to me, raked at my skin. "Ya Allah! Don't let anything bad happen to me ya rabbi! My maker" i prayed silently then inhaled and walked outta the room.

I opened the door to baba's parlor slowly still reciting some du'as, "gani baba mama said you want to talk to me" i said as i sat on the carpet, he nodded looking so serious.

Everything was just so different, my parents, the house, even the atmosphere itself felt different, baba never look like that unless he wants to talk about something so important and serious. Wallahi I couldn't even remember when last i saw him like that.

He cleared his throat and started "You see, this is a serious matter i want me and you to talk about" i gulped and nodded "My friend alhaji tafida came last two days which you were well aware of, he came on behalf of his son al amin to ask for your hand in marriage, which I accepted right away", i gasped in shock he didn't paid heed to me and continued "I knew alhaji tafida for almost all my life, he's like my brother, a blood brother from the same parents, he was the one who helped me when i have nothing, he was the one who came to me when i have any problem, his father even paid some of my school fees back in school, he was always there for me, he helped me a lot in my life, and i think it wouldn't be right to reject after all he has done to me, I don't even think i can ever repay him even when I give my daughter to his son. So, what i want to ask you now do you have any problem with my decision or any objections?"

I gushed back the tears that were about to start flowing, I couldn't talk I couldn't say a freaking word, i was just shaking inside, how could baba just accept his offer without asking for my opinion, it wasn't fair, al amin out of all people. Ya Allah!

"Why are you quite? Do you have any problem with my decision?" He asked again, "I... What... Baba.. He... I don't like him" i finally came up with a sentence, "What??? I didn't expect something like that from you" he looked disappointed, i lowered my gaze "please baba, I understand but..."

"Shut up" he shouted, something he never did before, "Give me one solid reason why you don't like him?" He questioned looking at me, i remained hushed because I didn't have any reason, i didn't have anything to say, "What do you think of yourself? Ko ban isa da ke bane? You will marry al amin and thats my final decision" he spoke before walking out of the parlor angrily

Baba was angry with me. Ya Allah! Why does this thing has to happen. The world around me was spinning, I slowly rose on my feet and move to my room

It was when I entered something clicked me

Abdulazeez!!

Oh nooo!! Abdulazeez, breaking up with abdulazeez was the last thing on my mind. I love him I can't break up with him, azooz was the one i loved and desired to marry not al amin.

I had to find a way to stop this.

*end of flashback*

I hugged my legs and sobbed, sobbed and sobbed....

I desired to scream and scream until the pain in my heart evaporated.

It was 2days since the day of that encounter, Baba's still ignoring me, mama was worried too she spoke with baba but he said there is no one's gonna stop him because he had already made his mind and they are already planning on when to fix the date of the marriage. Me on the other side, I haven't been eating since that day, i have completely lost my appetite. I have changed, I couldn't welcome a slumber, i was always in my room crying, I haven't been answering azooz's calls, and I haven't been replaying his uncountable messages, I can't even remember where i kept the phones. My life has just been turned up side down, everything was just messed up. I have bags under my eyes, my hair like a bird's nest, when i looked at the mirror i saw a zombie not rukayya, but I didn't care i, all i care about was abdulazeez and how to stop baba from marrying me to another guy who I don't love.

I just wish to wake up and found out that everything was just a dream, smile, live my normal life, laugh with baba. But hey, it was real.

All was real

I slowly stood up from my bed, it was already 4pm and I haven't took my bathe i was still on my hanna montana pajamas. I let out a sigh then hopped into the bathroom

After one hour, i bathed, dressed up and prayed asr then i started reading the qur'an. Alhamdulillah i felt much relieved. It was when I finished I realized I haven't spoke with ameela for days and I didn't even told her about what was happening. She would definitely kill me

I turned my room up side down in the process of searching for my phones. I let an air of relief when i spotted the sumsung in my closet

I wonder how the phone went there.

"Darn it!" I said underneath my breath when I realized the phone's battery has drained down. I plugged the phone to charge then started to search for the other phone.

I finally found it under the sofa then noticed that it battery has drained down too. I plugged it too to charge then jumped on my bed.

I started to think of my destiny... Abdulazeez... Al amin... Slowly slowly before i knew it i fell into a deep slumber

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I was waken by the call of magrib prayer.

I slept for 4 good hours. Well, it was good and peaceful.

I lazily strolled towards the bathroom and performed ablution then prayed. I cried my heart out in sujjod (prostration), i begged my lord, my maker to guide me through, prayed to have patience for what is to come and to choose what is best for me for he is the al hakeem the wise.

I took my iPhone and lay on the carpet i prayed on earlier.

Me- Ameela you have to come now I really need to tell you something.

I texted ameela. And after 2mins my phone buzzed

A- Babe Alright i'll be there in a few in sha Allah, i hope its a hot newsssss.

I ignored her and went through the 17353732 texts from abdulazeez. I opened one of the messages

Salam my love, How are you and where are you?, I'm really getting worried, what have i done to you? You're not picking my calls and replaying my messages. I really hope I didn't do anything wrong if yes IM SORRY

Another one.

Baby please, I'm worried sick about you, you're punishing me real bad. It hurts when you don't return my calls. Where are you?, all your numbers aren't going through. I miss you so bad.

Another one.

Its been 48hours and 43 minutes since you last sent me a text message. I can't stand it any longer. I can't sleep and I can't eat. It's you in my mind and in my heart. I miss you so much baby!

I blinked trying to push back the tears that were threatening to flow, but it was too late. They were already flowing

I was crying really hard. Why does this whole thing has to happen. Ya Allah! See me through

After some minutes my ears picked up a sound and a moment later ameela ambled in my room. She gasped when she saw me crying

I wept and chained my hands around her neck. She stroked my hair gently "Shhh don't cry, I'm here. You know, you can tell me everything" She said and pulled away from me. I wiped the tears as she rubbed my arms in comfort.

"You remember that guy Al amin that stayed in our house for two days?" She nodded and I continued with the explanation

She gasped in shock when I finally came to an end of my story "Freaking cupcakes! Are you kidding me? You're getting married to that guy?" She paused "i.. I can't believe it", I blinked a few times to propel my tears "I have to find a way to stop this marriage maybe i should talk to hajia mama, baba listens and obeys whatever she says to him" i spoke my voice cracking a lil bit, she shook her head which made me stare at her with a puzzled expression, she started "You see baba is already mad at you, i will really advice you to do as he says, you may not no maybe marrying al amin shine alkhairi (is better), you don't know what Allah has planned for you. He do nothing without a purpose"

"You mean to say you're siding baba, great really great" i said in disbelief, she shook her head "No don't get me wrong, you're a muslim and we.." She pointed her finger at me and then to herself "Believe in qadar (destiny) so you should take this as nothing but your qadar maybe this is what Allah has saddled for you, pray for the best verily he is al-khabeer (the all-aware)"

I then realized she was telling the truth, all she said was nothing but the truth. Allah tests everyone with different struggles, like she said maybe this is what he has saddled me with, this is my qaddara. I shouldn't lose faith in Him.

"Forgive me for questioning your judgement Ya Allah!" i murmured before moving my gaze to ameela who was looking at me too with a small smile on her face. I leaned forward and hugged her tightly "Thank you so much, I don't know what i'd to without you, seriously you're everything to me" I couldn't help but let the tears stream down.

"Please do not weep no more and you don't have to thank me, what are friends for?, i think you now realized why you're best friend with a big headed girl, eh?" She teased and i pulled away slapping her right arm playfully.

"Oh em gieee" she gasped scrutinizing my face "Don't tell me you've lost weight in two days?, look at that bags, OMG eewww look at your hair" she held a strand of my hair then closed her nose dramatically. I jumped on her laughing out loud, she pushed me away still pretending that my hair stinks, i lose my balance and fell on the floor "Ouchh idiot its hurts" i said rubbing the back of my head, she brought out her tongue in a playful manner which i threw her a pillow in return. We both laughed at our childishness and craziness.

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"Ouchhh please" i said painfully, You see, this stupid friend of mine offered to wash and braid my hair which I accepted immediately because I was very sure i will find it really difficult to even wash the 'messy' hair myself. We were already done with the washing now she was braiding it but i felt like she was just pulling the whole head she just can't do it gently and I was already getting annoyed. "You know what? We are done, thank you so much such a darling you're" i said trying to stand from the little chair i was sitting on, i really can't stand it anymore, my head was already hurting, "Oh my Allah! Rukky patience is a virtue and you're not going anywhere till I'm done, its only 2 that remain and I will finish it in less than 10mins" he spoke pulling me back to sit on the chair.

I heaved a sigh, she's the most annoying human being on earth, I'm telling you.

20mins later she still wasn't done yet, imagine the girl that said in less than '10mins'. I shook my head. "Ameela" i called after some minutes

"Hmmm?" She answered

"What should i say to abdulazeez? you know i have to explain everything to him". Poor abdulazeez, the mere thought of breaking up with him makes my heart weep. I wonder what his reaction gonna be like when i tell him I'm going to marry someone not 'him'.

She tied my hair in a high bun with a band because it was shuku (A pleat that is done in a high bun), then spun me around so that she can come face to face with me. "Just call him and tell him that you're breaking up with him"

"Because...?" i asked with raised eyebrows

"Because you're tired of the relationship" she completed, "What?" I said aloud "what kinda sick twisted thinking is that? Seriously something must be wrong with your cerebrum"

She threw me a pillow "Don't you dare insult me, i thought you asked for an idea", i placed my hand on my forehead in frustration "Of course i asked for an idea but i can't say that to him, what would he think of me?"

"The best girlfriend in the whole world" she answered, "You're stupid" i said laying lazily on the bed, she copied me by laying on the bed too "You see just do as i said, believe me its a good idea, he won't bother to call you or disturb you ever again, and then you will marry al amin and you people will have cute babies and..."

"Zip it" i cut her off from her daydream "When have you started hating abdulazeez? To me abdulazeez is way better than him", she shrugged "I don't hate him, its just that i see no point in liking him, after-all you're not going to marry him, and FYI he's not better than al amin, i once saw him when i came to your house the other day when we went to the ice cream shop, he's so handsome masha Allah, OMG and i love his car, his sideburns, ulala"

I looked at her, wide-eyed "don't tell me you're crushing on him", he shrugged again "You're so lucky, you guys will make a cute cute babies", i rolled my eyes, she's really something else.

I couldn't help but think about how our marriage life gonna be like. Will i ever gonna like him? I asked myself. Seriously, the thought of being his maybe in the next few months, raked at my skin. There was nothing like 'like' or 'love' i have for him in my heart even as tiny as an ant.

Salamu alaikum guys!
I hope you liked this chapter even though its short

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Lots of love 💕💕

Ruru❤️