"she would of made such a lovely bride
what a shame she's fucked in the head!"
— they said

but you'll find the real thing instead
she'll patch up the tapestry that I shred

❝Feels like we had matching wounds,
but mines still black and bruised

...and yours is perfectly fine.❞

CHAMPAGNE PROBLEMS
❝ i am a prisoner of a fairy-tale. ❞

ℑmogen was imprisoned in a tower of tradition; she had been trapped from a young age, always being reminded of the ridiculous opinions her family had on blood status—opinions she was expected to agree with. Sometimes Imogen felt as though her life had been written by someone else; her choices weren't her own—it was always her parents that were in control. Though no matter how many times Kallista and Vincent Seagrave tried to engrave their thoughts into their daughter's mind, Imogen always held on to her own opinions, never daring to let go.

Her late blooming only added more to the stress. It had taken Imogen much longer to show any signs of magic, though on her eleventh birthday any fears regarding Imogen being a squib were silenced when she received her letter of acceptance. Her parents didn't care about what house she was sorted into, though no matter how many times Imogen tried to shut the stress out, it remained in her mind like a guest refusing to leave.

Kallista and Vincent cared greatly about who their daughter associated herself with. In order to preserve their perfect family name, they expected Imogen to only hang around purebloods. They continued adding ink to the paper, forcing a story Imogen didn't wish to follow, writing the girl's life as if it was their own.

          For years, Imogen had tried to push those expectations to the back of her mind; it wasn't until the winter of her sixth year that things started to get more serious. The war began to creep closer; her parents' letters became harsher—they were expecting her to get more serious about her life. It was suffocating for Imogen. That was until Sirius Black took some of the weight off her shoulders.

          Vincent and Kallista hated everything about Sirius—the one boy Imogen truly longed for. With his mischievous grey eyes, his dark messy hair, and of course his cheeky grin, Imogen wouldn't ask for anyone else; he was perfect—everything her family despised. The boy never failed to make Imogen laugh, even on the days when her happiness was buried under a pile of worries.

          The two had always bonded as they shared the same circumstances—both coming from a controlling family of purebloods. In the winter of fifth year, Sirius had done what Imogen had never even dreamed of doing: running away. He had broken free from his parents' harsh grip, erasing the story his parents had written for him. He got to start fresh, Imogen was beyond happy that Sirius was free, but deep down she wished it was her too.

          The circumstances changed—Sirius was in a safe and loving home while Imogen was still trapped under the weight of her parents' expectations—but to to them it didn't matter. Whenever Imogen was with Sirius, the weight of those expectations seemed to lift; when she was with Sirius, nothing else in the world mattered. With Sirius, Imogen didn't have to live up to the Seagrave image; she could just be herself.

          But nothing could stay simple.

          It was the end of her sixth year when Imogen received the letter—it was the one sentence that hit her like a wrecking ball, shattering her like glass. The news broke something inside her; it wasn't just that she was being arranged into a marriage; it was her freedom slipping from her grasp.

          As the war drew closer, Imogen found herself stuck between two impossible choices. She had no other option but to choose one; she was trapped.

Imogen Seagrave ( Daisy Edgar Jones )
"be where ever you are, we ain't angry at you
love, you're the greatest thing we lost."

Sirius Black ( Ben Barnes )
"but I wanna feel all that love and emotion,
be that attached to the person I'm holding."

Regulus Black ( Timothée Chalamet )
"but the funny thing is I would've married you,
If you'd have stuck around."

JOINED BY...

Aaron Taylor-Johnson as... JAMES POTTER
Andrew Garfield as... REMUS LUPIN
Tobie Donovan as... PETER PETTIGREW
Sophie Skelton as... LILY EVANS
Adam Driver as... SEVERUS SNAPE
Sophie Thatcher as... MARLENE MCKINNON
Lizeth Selene as... MARY MACDONALD

anyone else as described!

❝ It's always on the tip of my tongue, tell myself
it's not the right time or something dumb

but then you kiss me like you do
and we're right back where we started from ❞

TABLE OF CONTENTS

i.      i wonder who will erase me?
( Year 6 ) 001-015

iii.    at least I'm trying
( Year 7 ), 016-030

iii.    every breath feels like rarest air
❨ The War ❩, 031-045

iv.    what a shame she was fucked in the head
❨ The War ❩, 046-060

❝ oh she was walkin round my block and,
now she's coming through.

my interest is to lay with you,
to laugh and have nothin to do ❞

( authors note ! )

I'm so so sorry the synopsis of this is horrific, I just kept rewriting it but I was struggling so much and eventually just settled. I promise the rest of the fic is way better!!

so I will be remaking this fic... this will actually be the death of me and it will be a slow process but unfortunately it's the only way I see myself continuing this ( but i am super excited ). I will be changing some stuff so please make sure to read and spam me with comments!!

( dedications ! )

I need to give an extra big thank you to joe ( whimsywitchess ) and willow ( sirensun ) who have been listening to me yap about this fic from day one. also another huge huge huge thank you to riri ( eluxcastar ) who will be reading over most of the chapters <33 pemberlies cxinnamon-sundrop untoldhauntings pastryparty ( wifey Aubrey ) -theology howlingforregulus -fairyszn mothdollie _Queencard_ siIverveils HIGHTARGARYEN angeliclenz -lostgardens Mxrcjqckspnchqsc BookObsessedMidnight amuors stxrbxnks runlikeh3ll Delusionalaquarius emogenliars -slutantics plaidntabis driftmark cardiganlcver fountainfantasy olympialogy and everyone else !! ( especially all the incredible people who have sprinted with me )

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