Kailee

I'm sitting on my balcony. The cold marble under me and the breeze of the night make me slightly shiver, but my mind is going back to somewhere else. The familiar memory from years ago. A memory from the time I was happy. The last time I had everything. The last memory I have of him....

It's minutes after midnight but I don't feel like sleeping, instead, I go to my terrasse. It's cold. I'm in my pajamas but it's so beautiful outside. Actually, it's scary, the dark clouds have surrounded the poor silvery moon. My favorite blanket of stars is hidden and instead lightning makes its appearance through the navy blue sky. It's heavily pouring, so loud that I can't hear my own thoughts.

Yes, I'm scared of thunderstorms and lightning, of their sound and everything but this is our nature. Everyone should like it even though it might make them stay awake till it ends, shaking in their bed under the warm blanket--the only thing sheltering them from the world.

The scary one which I was gonna soon experience in full mode.

Yes, sometimes it causes a lot of damage, but what is love without disasters? Just a thrill.

....

The neighbor's dog suddenly starts barking out of the blue. His voice is hardly heard over the loud night, but he doesn't give up, barking even louder. He is normally quiet, except when people are walking around, especially when-

"Zale!" I look down, my eyes wide open when I see him. Zale is wet, his outfit- wait he is wearing the pants that he sleeps in and the t-shirt I had given him as a present.

"What are you doing this late outside- look at the weather!" I almost screamed out of worry for him. It isn't safe here, not to talk about outside. The wind is going faster with every second that passes.

"Why isn't my princess sleeping in her comfy bed?" His eyebrow is slightly lifted, making me a captive of his heavenly voice. Still, I can't ignore the fact that he answered my question with another one.

The most annoying thing for me and the most normal one for him. I must always receive a direct answer or I'm getting mad, but with him...with him it's different. Everything is. I would do anything just to have him closer to me on an everyday basis. In fact and everything looks better. I'm not scared of anything, except... of losing him.

No, I'm not, because this will not happen. Never! I won't let him go, I will be broken FOREVER. I mean it!

'No stop these unhealthy thoughts and look at the present.' I told to myself. Tears are burning in my eyes just from the thought.

I bring my hand to brush them off right before they start rolling down my face. I turn my attention to the man of my dreams, waiting for me under my balcony, like a real fairytale prince.

"How?" I ask. "How did you know I wasn't sleeping at this time?" My heart is picking up as I speak.

"I was falling asleep when I saw that your lights weren't off and I decided to pay you a visit." He looks up at me, his mesmerizing eyes locking into mine. "I knew you weren't calm and I needed to check up on you so I could fall asleep." I look at him, raising my eyebrows.

"What should this mean? Why do you think I wasn't okay" I wasn't going to admit he was right and that I wasn't able to sleep because I was shaking from fear. I have pride after all. A little left, but still I do.

He laughed at me "Kailee, who are you trying to fool here?" He asked, obviously the question was rhetorical, and just like he had planned it, a thunder hit on. I jumped out of surprise and actually screamed, a little. Zale folded in half shaking with laughter.

"Hey, it isn't funny!" I said with a firm voice but I'm sure that he was able to feel the worry in it. "They are scary" I pouted at him from the terrace.

"Of course, they a-" He started but a cough escaped him, and then now I realized that he was soaking wet. The rain hadn't stopped and he was just standing there talking to me while I was in the comfort of my warm room. Okay, in front of its warmth, but still down there it was colder.

"Wait, I'm gonna give you an umbrella". He lifted an eyebrow at me.

"I don't need that, honey. The only thing I need is your hot body to shield and warm me up." His cute dimples were visible and even more cute, looking at them from above.

"Zale! You know I want that too but we can't- unless you can't enter the house without being heard." I smirked at him. Thinking of the possibility of him beside me in my pink bed.

"Do you think this is a good idea, sweety? I don't want to put you in trouble because of me." I am surely going to be if someone finds out that Zale had been at home. Especially if this one is my father. My parents don't really approve that I'm friends with an older man, not to talk about having a romantic relationship with him. I don't understand why they care that much about how old he is. Zale is kind, sweet, and even protective to me, maybe more than they are. After all, age is just a number-

And prison is just a place - my consciousness mocked me, like always.

"It will be okay," I hope. " I will give you clothes to change into...and we could spend some time together," I suggest looking at his messy hair. I want to run my hands through it.

"Don't worry, you know I live at the house next to yours, it's not far I can change up there. Besides, I don't think any of your pink Barbie clothes and dresses would suit me." His words make me chuckle, of course, I didn't plan to give him one of my clothes. They would be much smaller for him. I have several of his that I had stolen from him. His clothes always saved his unique fragrance, one I would NEVER forget.

I love how he thinks and tries to do everything for me, not wanting to risk my parents seeing us together. They won't do anything to him, but to me, this is...a different story. His parents, actually his mom; because I don't know anything about his father. She knows about me and our relationship and truly approves of it. It would be weird if she didn't know about me and Zale, I mean I'm at their house almost every day, my parents think that I'm going there because of Zale's younger brother - Weston, doing our homework but most of the time it's just a cover.

"You will be sick if you don't change your clothes, Zale!"

I'm the younger one of us, but still, I will protect him whenever I need to, even if it's something as simple as this one. He always does it for me.

"Look," I pointed to the ladder propped up on the fence. "Use it to get up here."

"It's not necessary, I-" he started but I put on my puppy eyes and pouted at him. This was my secret weapon which he could never resist.

"Please!"

"Kailee-"

"Pleeese, if you love me" I hated to use this line but I wanted him closer to me. Now!

He got the ladder and propped it on the wall of the balcony. It isn't that high, but there wasn't any other way for him to climb up to me.

Moments later he was standing in front of me. His breath against my neck, water dripping from his clothes and hair, still he looked so yummy right now.

"I will hug you once you change into something more...dry" He chuckled and simply nodded. I went to pick one of his hoodies and pants and threw them at him. He quickly changed into them.

"Princess," he said, walking closer to me, once he stopped he put his hands on my waist. Carefully he lifted me, I wrapped my legs around him and my hands around his neck for support.

"I missed you!" He said as I was playing with his fluffy hair.

"Me too," I lightly licked the curve of his neck.

I lifted my head so I could look into his eyes and said "We need to be extra quiet,".

He giggled " I know sweetheart". I closed my eyes as I felt his lips brushing onto mine, breathing into them.

I was expecting his kiss to be like every other one before, simple yet passionate and warm. This time he was different. He was just tickling my lips with his. His hands are roaming around my body and slightly going under my pajama top. I didn't dislike it, nothing that was coming from him was possible to be hated by me. Our lips were both slightly open and this allowed him to press his hot tongue to my mouth, making my body calm under his. Just when I started to think that this was everything he was going to do, he surprised me.

His strong hands stop at my ass, kneading it and pressing more into me. He started walking with me still in his hands when my back hit the wall next to my bed. My heart starts beating rapidly and my breathing is heavier than before. I am getting lost at the moment. Our bodies are pressing heatedly into each other's, against the wall.

The only sound in the room is our heavy pants. My mind is starting to get blurry as our lips pressed together

....

My breathing is so unsteady and I feel my body shaking,

fuck no, I am getting vulnerable again. No this can't be happening, it was just a memory nothing realistic. Except that it happened. Still, I can't put my mind to why he left, even more painful, without explaining anything.

The only person who was there for me was...Weston. He never left me alone even— at the prison. True I wasn't allowed to see him at first and then he wasn't coming for a while, but still he was there...believing in me. And now I'm being rude to him, to the only person who was with me in my hardest time.

Not Zale, Weston. He was my real best friend after all and now he is proving it once more, helping me find the cruel person who ruined my life.

I could have been at college studying and following my dreams, instead, I was on the verge of giving it all up. I should be grateful to Weston, who saved me. I am, but I'm not sure he knows it.

I will show exactly how much I appreciate him!

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So now when you got to see both sides of the problem,(kinda, because it's more complicated : ) what do you think?

Words: 1819

Published: 21.06.2022