Inspired by Mariah Carey, Michael Jackson, Rupaul Andre Charles, And Various Disney songs
OS

“Loving You”

I love being near you, seeing you, secretly loving you
I love to see you dance, laugh, and talk to your friends
I wish I was your friend. . . .
Can't you see? You make me happy, you make me smile when I think about you
Listen, I know you probably arent gay or atleast bisexual, but would you atleast be my friend, my
homie, my compadre.
Your my hero, you saved my from multiple bullies, and we were friends in the beginning of the
year
But now you hate me . . .
You even threatened to beat me, with all your friends along with you.
But I will still love you, with open arms, even if you turn out gay or bi, I’ll support you.
Now high school is approaching, and they’ll be even more bullies and homophobes coming my
way.
You say you want to beat me, but you just ignore me, like I’m a dead bird in the street, and I
gotta say, you're a real douchebag for being mean to me.

All I wanted was to be your friend, but for some people like me, friendship turns into love after a
while, and I'm sorry for that.
According to Jenny Han from “To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before”, she says “Do you know what
it’s like to like someone so much you can’t stand it and know that they’ll never feel the same
way?” well. . . .
That's How I felt when I was with you for those 2-3 years
I secretly fantasize about us dancing together at the Christmas pajama party in 7th grade
When you dressed up as a shiny umbreon onesie and I in camo pajamas with a matching robe
and glasses. You were adorable in that by the way. You even taught me to play Fortnite on your
phone when I didn't bring mine that day, and i don't even like Fortnite!
You Probably moved on by now
And you probably try to forget about me
You even switched all your classes to not be around me, I suppose

Mind me I don’t know much about you, But boy, you were my everything. I loved you with all my
heart, my messed up, mental, and outlandish heart.
Yes, I am kinda insane, I suffer from ADHD, Manic Disorder, and maybe schizophrenia, and into
weird things like gay fanfiction, all the bts members, dolls, evanescence dance moms and even
dancing, and even more things that a 14 year old african american boy shouldnt be into
But that makes me, you know, ME! And you can't take that away from me!
Mariah Carey says “My heart has never been broken, I've never broken anyone else.”
So like her, my heart has never been broken, and I doubt that I broke anyone else's, well, at
least no one that's a family member, but you were the first person to break my heart when you
said you didn't like me, you even said you hated me at that. But I know I’m loved by many and ill
continued to be loved for the rest of my life until the day i die, like somewhat of what Michael
Jackson said, “If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing
the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with”.
And in recent Times before COVID-19, you were really negative towards me, but it didn't shaked
me, in fact, it never shaked me! I never phased me at all. Because it takes a lot of work to be
and remain positive and negativity is basically laziness, like the famous Rupual said, “Negativity
is basically laziness. It takes a lot of hard work to remain positive, but positivity always pays off.”
And positivity always pulls off, so I try to say hello to you, but you keep ignoring me.
So guess what?
You're nothing to me anymore, even when I'll see you at school, you'll be nothing more than just
another student I don't interact with, a figment of my imagination, a bunch of fantasies forgotten
and dead in my brain.
You and I were the perfect match, you know,
I know you were born in one of the summer months from a study at school, so you were either a Cancer, Leo or Virgoand ⅔ of those signs are the most compatible for a Taurus, you were
also a sports type, loved to dance, tell jokes, and i could tell you were a very smart guy.

But I guess life isn't just fun and fairytales.
And I guess that the songs were wrong, when you wish upon a star, your dreams won't
come to you because those first two years of middle school, I wished and dreamed and
hoped and prayed you would love me back, but they never worked.

Love isn't an open door because unfortunately for some children who don't know this
yet, love takes time, and sometimes it won't work out, you got to get back on the horse
and try again, But I don't want to try again! At least . . . not now anyway.

And finally, if you keep on believing, your dream will not come true because I believed for
the longest time, and NOTHING ever came out of the times I believed that my wish of
being your boyfriend came true.

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