okay, so i'm just going to talk about life here to give you guys some sort of idea as to why i've been gone for like two months and all that

sorry if i don't do this right or if this comes off as bitchy or whiny or this brings you down at all. i really need to just get this off my chest.

first things first, i don't know if i've mentioned this or not, but i think i get seasonal depression during the summer, and it's really the biggest reason i've been so absent, i think.

it's like i want to do all this stuff. a part of me wants to be on here, reading and talking to you guys and all that, but an even bigger part makes me feel unmotivated and lonely and insignificant and painfully aware of how distant i am from you guys and gahhh

and this caused an unhealthy amount of procrastination on just about everything for me, which just stressed me out even more, so yeah. fun times.

and some other things that have been going on with me i'll list down here. not all of them are negative, at least!

- i came out to my best friend, and then he came out to me (also came out to my mom, and it's all good so yay)

- i've had three concussions in the past two months (one was while i was away at camp so that sucked)

- i've had more social anxiety than normal, and had this really bad episode in front of the girls at camp, and that was terrible

- my older sister has had some health concerns that seem to be all good now, but it stressed me out a little

- i've been going to summer school for a bit now, because my grades sucked

- i'm currently suffering from a cold that's made me feel like hell for past day or so

but despite all this crap, i want you to know i still have good days. i'm becoming more happy than not, and think i'm going to work my way back on here because wattpad overall makes me smile, so yeah!

i'm probably not going to answer pms and all that right away, so please bear with me.

also, i'm planning on making a new random book, so feel free to keep an eye out if you care.

all right! time to publish this before i lost my nerve

love,
anna