Not Letting Go
Third Person's P.O.V :-
The tension was thick in the air, one could almost cut it with a knife.
Ever since pulling up at Jimin's villa, Taehyung has not spoken a single syllable to Jimin. He had got out of the car without any sound and headed straight over to his room.
Jimin didn't blame him either, that might have been a lot to digest. Jimin would loose his mind too if the person he fell in love with in the course of a month turned out to be his childhood friend who had been on the lookout for him since forever.
But it's not like Jimin knew who Taehyung was on their very first meeting in Seoul, Jimin tried to reason with his conscience as his brows frowned.
It's useless, Jimin should have confronted Taehyung the moment he found out who he actually was instead of playing it off as if he had no idea who Taehyung was.
Jimin felt horrible. He knew he repeated many times that he'd let Taehyung go but in spite of all that big talk, a little part of his heart desperately wanted Taehyung to stay.
He lost him once and the pain was unbearable, he was not looking forward to going through that again.
Jimin just sighed and got up from the kitchen counter where he sat pondering all his worries at. He needed to get changed and maybe tomorrow morning he could have a chance to speak with Taehyung again.
Jimin concluded that those were the right course of action and went to turn the lights of the kitchen off. Just as he was about to step into the living room to head upstairs, he saw Taehyung standing at the base of the stairs, now in his pajamas.
Jimin's frown dissolved into a soft expression as he carefully approached Taehyung.
He had no idea what he should say. He wanted to know what kind of person Taehyung saw him as in that moment.
Did he even have the privilege of calling Taehyung 'baby' anymore?
"Ca-can't sleep?" Jimin shuttered in his speech, opting for not using any nicknames, he didn't want to make Taehyung uncomfortable.
What if Jimin called him 'baby' and he thought of him as a creep?
Taehyung just took a few moments to stare at Jimin's face,"You knew, right?" He finally asked, his voice trembling a bit,"You knew everything, right?" He asked again, biting down on his lower lip, waiting for Jimin's answer.
"I..." Jimin began and looked down, at a loss as to how he should approach this topic,"I did....I found out three days after meeting you" He finally whispered, feeling conflicted all over again,"I-I should have told you sooner I know-"
"Are you even in love with me, Jimin?" Taehyung suddenly asked, feeling breathless from all the anxiety bubbling within himself.
Jimin finally looked up at Taehyung's face after that sudden question, he felt confused,"I...I don't understand, what?" He asked, feeling like he was walking on eggshells.
Taehyung's eyes began to get teary,"You don't understand? Its me who doesn't understand, Jimin!" Taehyung suddenly yelled, making Jimin flinch at his loud tone.
"I can't figure it out, my feelings, I'm so conflicted, throughout the entire vacation I kept on wondering why you were so nice to me, I wondered how could you be so nice to me, I asked myself if I just happened to be in the right place at the right time and you just happened to find me" Taehyung said, his vision getting blurry but he could still make out Jimin gulping down the lump in his throat.
"I wondered if someone else happened to be at my place when you first met me in that bar, would you have loved them the same amount as well? Was I just really lucky?" Taehyung asked as his voice broke and the end bit came out as a squeak, tears slipping past his eyes.
Jimin hands automatically reached out to wipe Taehyung's tears on instincts while his throat still refused to let one syllable escape.
Taehyung felt Jimin's warm hand and leaned into it for a moment.
"But now I realise that you wouldn't have been this nice to anybody else because you've been on the lookout for Taehyung from Busan all this time" Taehyung whispered in a small voice as he stared directly into Jimin's eyes,"I'm conflicted because it makes me immeasurably happy that you're only like this to me but at the same time I wonder if you love the current Taehyung at all, Jimin" He softly voiced out his fears to Jimin.
"Are you in love with the shell of the past me? Do I, the me of today, make your heart flutter at all? Will one day come when you'll realise that there are many differences between me and the Taehyung from Busan and start to fall out of love?" He asked, his heart beating way too loudly in his own ears.
"I-I could never-" Jimin finally gritted out, his own eyes getting teary seeing Taehyung cry.
"I'm jealous of my own past self, Jimin" Taehyung clutched Jimin's arms and stepped closer,"I desperately want you to love me for who I am today, because I can't imagine life without you anymore" Taehyung whimpered, finally hugging Jimin tightly, who in return secured Taehyung firmly in his arms, staring at the wall with mixed emotions.
Taehyung loved him. Even after knowing the truth Taehyung loved him. Jimin felt butterflies erupt in his stomach.
"You scared me, baby" Jimin finally closed his eyes in relief and lowered his head till it rest on Taehyung's shoulder, arms bringing Taehyung as close as possible,"I thought you were gonna break up with me" Jimin whispered in a shaky voice.
"Don't be silly! It's you who'll break up with me in due time!" Taehyung whined in a groggy voice making Jimin smile in the hug.
"I'd rather die than break up with you" Jimin whispered, a warm feeling was spreading in his chest.
"You're in love with the kid you met in Busan" Taehyung persisted in spite of all of Jimin's reassurances.
"I gave up at one point you know?" Jimin began, remembering those days,"No matter how hard I searched, I just couldn't find you, eventually I began to lose hope" Jimin whispered.
"I focused on myself, debuted as a celebrity and focused on securing fame and wealth for myself, tried my hardest to push you in the back of my mind" Jimin mused,"Every now and then, the thoughts of you plagued my mind, making me unable to sleep, none of my relationship lasted because even when I was with them I constantly thought of how it'd be like if it was you instead of them" He whispered, gently swaying from side to side, taking Taehyung with him.
"I have loved the Taehyung from Busan for years now, it's really hard for me to get over him but" Jimin said and leaned back to look Taehyung in the eyes,"When I first came across you I had no idea who you were but somehow being with you helped me not think about my first love anymore, I thought I finally found someone I can be with for a long time" He said as his hands went up to cup Taehyung's face.
"Only to realise it's been you since the very begining!" Jimin nearly shrieked, barely able to control his emotions, showing off his precious crescent moon smile.
"I was over the moon when I found out your identity, but I kept my identity a secret too. I had a lot of insecurities about my young self as well, he was small, weak, chubby, not smart, I wanted to look cool to you before I made the grand reveal but Granny kinda ruined my plans" Jimin confessed and chuckled.
"I admit the special treatment was because I knew you from Busan but gradually, I fell in love with the present Taehyung as well, and I wouldn't want anyone else in place of you now" Jimin spoke softly and caress Taehyung's right cheek.
"And now that you've said you want to be with me despite of everything, you better stick to your words because I'm never breaking up with you" Saying that, Jimin slowly brought Taehyung's face closer and left a light peck on his pouty lips.
Taehyung sniffed a little,"Okay" He mumbled, the pout still present on his lips,"Can we have sex now?"
Jimin choked on his own spit.
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A/n :- * looking at Jk in suspicion * So you're seriously not gonna run after me with a hammer?
Jk :- I told you I'm a changed person now 🧘♂️ petty little things can't get me angry
A/n :- What if I just remove you from the story and don't write your scenes anymore? * curious *
Jk :- You really like testing the limits, don't you? 😊💢
A/n :- ....
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