Dreeeeeeeeeeam time!

It's an apocalypse, I can tell that much.

The grass is yellow and there are people killing other people.

I watch as someone bangs on the window of a trailer, only to get acid thrown on them.

I start to run down a hill and I find some trees.

Sedona and Josie are there too, so we start banging on The doors of people's huts.

Nobody lets us in, so we run down to the forest and start collecting wood.

There's a small outcrop of trees that is dense enough to hide us, and protect whatever we want to hide under them.

We start gathering firewood, and suddenly 2 boys come up to us.

It's Michael (or is his name Matthew?) and Nick (both from the neighborhood program).

They're both wearing white shirts and have some kind of tattoo all over their body.

The tattoo is light blue and kinda looks like a footprint?

Nick pushes us around a little bit for intimidation, before Michael clears his throat.

"You guys will have to come to our master by 10:00 tomorrow or risk death."

We shrug.

They start to walk away, but I run up to them and touch the blue stuff.

It's paint.

I don't know why that was so important but it was.

Cut to Ms. Bessette's room.

Sedona and I are giving a presentation to a bunch of people I don't know.

Suddenly a woman bursts into the classroom and asks: is anyone pregnant?

Everyone looks at her like: wtf no

She curses and runs outside, and we hear her say: someone called 611 because they were giving birth, which classroom is it?

Cut to a trailer.

I'm rummaging around in the garbage and I look very disappointed.

Elias comes up behind me with a huge backpack.

"Alright that's enough we have to make it back."

I nod and slip my pack over my shoulders.

For some reason either Elias is a fucking giant or I'm short as fuck, Elias is pretty much twice my fucking height.

wHAT THE FUCK

Anyways, we make our way to the only building that doesn't look half destroyed.

There's a person in the front giving out tickets, so Elias and I take one, while showing our "badges."

I snicker as I Show Elias that I stole some of the tickets.

"You know, these go for a lot of money." I say.

"Yeah but if you get caught, we're both dead."

I slide them into a secret pocket in my backpack.

And that's when I woke up.

- - - - -

Tips for remembering your dreams!

Dedicated to gumbymoo

Because apparently I'm really good a remembering my dreams?

Uh

First tip

Go to bed without feeling tired

Sounds counterproductive I know lmao

Sometimes this happens because I stay up late and you get that buzz in your head and you're not really "tired"

Other times I go to bed without feeling like I want to die

That helps

Maybe because if you're tired you don't really pay attention?

But not remembering my dreams make me feel more rested

Tip two

Go to bed thinking about something you want to dream about

It'll most likely (at least in my experience) appear in your dreams and you'll be able to latch onto it since you were just thinking about it

Some things to think about are: past dreams, cool scenarios such as superhero fighting, romance, video games, etc

Tip three

Keep something by your bed so you can write down your dreams immediately when you do remember them

I keep my phone :)

Tip four

Try and write what you think could have inspired your dream

I learned this one so that you could try and determine what you were thinking and use that to try and pinpoint what you "usually" dream about

Or what makes you dream more vividly

Idk

Lmao that's what I do, but just see what works for you

- - - - -

Here let's talk about a pet peeve because uh, there's nothing better to do because I'm feeling sick and unmotivated! Yay!!

Alright so

"Pansexuals are just closeted bisexuals" or vice versa: "bisexuals are just closeted pansexuals"

Believe it or not

I've actually heard this before!

Just— no

Please stop

They're different

People are who they are, and if there bisexual fine if they're pansexual fine

That's who they are

Just because "there's more than the binary" doesn't mean someone has to "change their sexuality"

The same thing for preferences!

Just because a girl prefers girls over guys does not make her gay

Like me, I'm pretty sure I prefer masculinity and androgyny

But that doesn't mean you won't catch me talking about femininity

Or just attractive people in general

oR JUST PEOPLE IN GENERAL

Anyway yeah

That's one

A second one is assuming characters are trans because they act "feminine" or "masculine"

Guys...

Just because a male likes "girly" things

Doesn't make him MTF trans

Not all characters have to be LGBTQ+ for them to be relatable characters

In fact, sometimes the straight characters are the best, because people aren't trying as hard to make "relatable LGBTQ+" characters

Sure, there are some trans theories I enjoy

*cough cough trans!Natsuki cough*

But things like trans!Marco or trans!Tweek

Where people ACTUALLY take it seriously and have "proof" and everything

I just—

A character is what it is, and no one can tell that character how to identify

Like Jackie from NITW is an ACTUAL trans character, and she's barely known

Pls give her love she's great

This kinda goes hand in hand with the sexualities of characters

Which I think is more up to the audience to think about, because unless it's a main focus, there isn't a lot riding on that

Like...

Evan Hansen being bisexual

I don't think it detracts from the character

And sometimes even seems in character for him

And plus, even if he's not bi, it's just for a ship

Ugh I sound so bad

I think people coming up with character sexualities are okay but thinking they're trans isn't

That seems odd

Hecc

I don't know what to think

I kinda think that maybe I think this way because often times the character is using different pronouns than what their "trans identity" would be using

Like Marco, he uses he/him pronouns, and never says to use she/her pronouns

((Unless I'm missing something, I don't actually watch SVTFOE

Which makes me believe he's not trans

Or it's not that important of a character trait to make it a big deal

Or Tweek

Uses he/him pronouns

And even though he's part of the LGBTQ+ community already

(Personally I think that would make it easier for him to come out as trans that way, if you're already in the LGBTQ+ community, just because idk I feel like you would be more open to the idea or more informed? Augh my brain....)

I just don't think he's MTF

Or if we're going Vice versa

I don't think Marco is FTM post-transition

Or if he is, it's not a big part of his character

Anyway yeah

I'm gonna stop talking before I embarrass myself

Hecc my head hurts so much why am I even typing

- - - - -

Dreamy time!!

((I don't actually remember much of the first part

I'm standing in front of Lane Tech, apparently I'm going there now.

((AU where Miki and Theo switch places lmao

I walk inside and I am immediately greeted by a bunch of bullies.

Of course, pick on the short Asian girl.

I kinda walk away, but then one of them makes a deal with me.

"If you point us out to more of the weaker kids on Inspection Day, we'll leave you alone for a while."

I frown.

Apparently Inspection Day is the day after the first day of school where they stay to bully the weaker kids they found out about

I nod hurriedly.

Cut to my house, I'm there with my family friend Annika, and 2 other girls that I can't remember.

We're working on a fundraising project and volunteer opportunity.

We're designing cards for... something.

The only reason I'm there is to make ideas because apparently I'm pretty good at that.

So we draw up the first 4 before my dad comes over and is like: wtf are you doing.

And we have to kinda explain that we're doing it for a fourth grade project.

And he doesn't take it too well so we're banned from doing it.

Cut to school again.

I'm pushed against the wall by the cafeteria beside a little alcove with a table inside of it.

Hurriedly, I point to the nearest person I scoured out.

They're scampering away with a lunch tray, shoulders hunched.

It must look weird. I thought to myself. A short girl with the bullies of the school.

Suddenly, I'm dragged by one of them into a large ballroom type place.

The walls and everything are a yellow color with chandeliers and fancy stuff everywhere.

Apparently I'm there to steal a bunch of stuff for the guys.

I grab some food before I overhear someone talking about VIP Day and how it used to be Grandparents Day but some kids don't have grandparents.

Weirded out, I head outside with the food, only to realize they're not there anymore.

I shrug and start to walk towards another section of the school.

For some reason there's an anime convention and I get offered free ramen.

I take that ramen and sit down at a messy table by the wall.

I see Annika there and she shows me the cards that we drew.

Next thing I know I'm surrounded by the bully bois

They're poking fun at me and pushing me around.

Cut to an open landscape-ish forest thing.

I'm there with the bullies and they're getting ready to jump out and attack some cars.

There's a 711 and some boys sitting in the corner.

There's an open box of cookies so I take a lot of them and eat them.

I get busted by the kid's mother and I just walk away.

I go over to where my class is ((apparently they're here too?)) and start to joke about how I stole cookies.

Then this fat businessman comes and starts harassing the class and I figure out that I have been snitched on.

So I tell the guy to fuck off and leave my friends alone if I go with him.

So I do and he tells me I owe him $9 but the woman who caught me said only $6 and he wanted to respect that.

So I was gonna be there for some reason?

Also I have no money...

- - - - -

Lmao his has been sitting here for like 3 days oopsie

More dreams of course

There was something else at the beginning of the dream

But all I can remember is cuddling with Theo at a class meeting and having an intelligent conversation with Jack

And the meeting was kind of about a game similar to South Park: The Stick if Truth

I guess we were playing something like that

Cut to some random person's house.

I'm there with Elias, Finley, Evan T, and my baby sister; Kei.

We're super secret agents that are supposedly trying to protect the owner of the house from whatever is coming to kill him.

So my friends start to fortify the bedroom, where we'll be staying the night as lookouts.

I push out the couch to give the man a place to hide and I cover him with pillows.

One of the pillows flies off and goes under the closet door, where the man says there's an important box.

"Hana! Evan's locking the door in 10 seconds!" Elias calls out.

I just kinda run away from the guy and into the room.

There's 1 bed and 2 doors and 1 window.

We lock both doors and I grab a blanket and lie down at the foot of the bed.

After a few minutes, there's slow banging on the door.

We get up and open the door, only to see zombies.

I grab a flimsy pink wand and hit one on the side of the head, knocking it down.

I then use the sharper side to pierce the brain?

I have no idea what's going on.

I try to lock the door, only to see that the lock is broken.

We keep fighting zombies, until we kill the last one.

Then we gut them and leave.

I just...

My BrAiN

HECC

Yeah... that's the end.

So

I'm sick and want to die

See y'all later when I'm feeling better

((Also I'm gonna see Wicked, yay!