Can these memories erase by themselves, I want to go backwards.....

They haunt me in my dreams, that thin line between reality and my dreams is being erased slowly. Am I still dreaming?

Those feelings which were strong have vanished somehow. Am I being selfish?

I loved you so much, it hurts. Now I hate you without any regrets...

Is my mind playing tricks on me, should I chose you or myself? I can be selfish this time! Can't I?

Should I let you go easily, when you broke me so bad. Pieces of my broken heart lying everywhere, can you mend them?

You lied when you told that you love me! Those lies, have grown onto me now......

Whom should I trust? Myself or the one for whom my heart beats for! Can I trust anyone, after you broke me?

Can't I go back to the time we were happy together, forgetting everything you did to me! Won't be so easy now!

I won't forgive you! I'll hurt you the way you hurt me. Then you will know how helpless I felt!

I want you to feel that pain I went through. There were days when I thought of ending myself, just thought of you being left behind was enough to hold me together. I held on to our memories during those tough days and you cheated on me? Whyyyyyyyyy!

Couldn't you hold back a bit, I was recovering for you, I tried my best amidst the loneliness surrounding me. Why was I not enough for you? You told me, I was the one for you! Where are those promises you made to me? A moment of lust and you forgot everything?

Yesterday I was not in my senses, I don't know what overtook me when I slept with hyung. I felt empty, you weren't there to hold onto me, I needed you not him!

Why did I commit this sin!

I'm not like you, am I?

I didn't betray you!

But I did lie, a sweet and innocent lie....

Should I give him a chance? Even I cheated on him, so aren't we even now?

I broke the embrace he held me into, going towards the open window, watching the wind swaying the trees.

"Jimin, can't you give me one chance?" he whined

"What if I cheated on you? Would you forgive me Tae?" I turned around looking into his eyes which turned dark.

"Why would you think of that?" he growled.

"See, you can't even imagine me cheating on you and you want me to give you another chance! Aren't you being too selfish?" I scoffed.

"I-" he engulfed me in his warm embrace, breaking my train of thoughts. I should push him away, but I can't.

"Give me some time to think" I sighed pushing him away.

"I understand, but please think about us before taking any decision Jimin_ah. Momentary pleasure should not be the base of your decision" he sighed.

"What do you mean by that?" I asking furrowing my eyebrows, does he know?

"I can see what's going on between you and Yoongi hyung, Jimin_ah. Don't let this affect our relationship. You told me once you had a crush on hyung" he replied.

I told him? When? Why don't I remember!

"Taehyung_ah let's not talk about this. We need time apart to think over our relationship" I argued.

"I'm ready for that, but please think about us with an open mind. I don't want any new feelings to destroy our love" Taehyung smiled sadly.

I sighed with a nod turning away from him, taking a seat on the chair.

"Let's stay apart for a few days, maybe that would help. Starting from today we'll stay in different rooms!" I stated, his eyes widened but he nodded nevertheless.

"As you wish" he turned away walking out of our room, my eyes turning moist.

How can I live without you?

I stared at the closed door, shut by him moments ago, sighing. Why did this happen? Where did I go wrong!

Am I at fault? Or was there a fault in our relationship that we never noticed?

A knock brought me out of my train of thoughts.

"Sir should I clear the dining area?" our butler spoke from behind the door.

"Clear it" I replied as he said okay leaving me alone in this room drowning me in my thoughts...

Knock knock

"Min!" it was hyung, I ran towards the door opening it at one go. He pulled me into his warm embrace as I sobbed.

"It's okay" he said comforting me with his slow pats on my back.

"Whom do I trust now hyung?" I cried.

"We just have each other Jimin_ah" he responded coolly.

"But I need time to decide about us too hyung" I sniffed looking up into his eyes.

"Take your time Min, I waited so long for this moment and I'm willing to wait a bit longer. But this time make a firm decision" he smiled, those thin glossy lips tempting me. I looked away with a sigh.

"I won't keep you both waiting for long. I'll make a decision soon" I said breaking the hug.

"I trust you" he smiled.

"Call me selfish for this, but I hope your final choice would be me!" he winks turning around, closing the door.

"What's with him!" I stood there with a face red as a tomato, shaking my head.

I sighed going out towards the balcony, watching the trees sway. The nature looked so beautiful, calming my nerves. My eyes wandered towards the garden below where I spotted someone in a black hoodie, making my heart beat fast. Was he my killer?

I saw him snooping, taking a look around. Maybe he wanted to get in. I froze in my place as he took out a shiny object from his pocket looking up at me.

I turned around running in, closing the glass doors behind me. I ran outside my room in a hurry, running into a hard chest. It was hyung standing there, as our eyes met.

Cold sweat made way to my forehead which I wiped as we sat on the sofa in my room. I kept looking out every now and then making hyung impatient.

"What's up Jimin? Why are you so nervous? You saw someone?" he asked, my eyes widened.

"You did see someone!" he stated as I nodded.

"Tell me something Jimin. How can I help you if you keep mum?" he sighed holding my hand with those veiny hands.

"I-I  I.... I saw him hyung, my killer" I said holding back my tears.

"Where? Tell me fast Jimin, should I call the police?" he got up, but I pulled him down.

"But hyung we don't have any proof" I cried.

"But Jim-" he tried to convince me but I stopped him.

"I think we should gather some proofs hyung" I suggested, he furrowed his eyebrows. Sighing he agreed with me.

"Let's do that after Taehyung leaves. He's meeting a client later, he told me" I said.

"Okay, but don't you dare go anywhere alone" he warned in a low tone, I choked in a whimper.

"Okay hyung, I won't" I answered as he nodded.

Knock knock

"Sir Mr. Kim is calling you" our butler informed us.

"I'm coming in 5 mins" I replied as he told okay before leaving.

"Let's go, we'll talk later" I told him getting up. He left the room as I turned around to change from the clothes I wore right now.

After I met Taehyung, he left a while later, leaving me and hyung alone in the house.

"Where should we start from?" he asked.

"The garden where I saw him last" I replied.

We went out, all this time I felt as if we are being watched.

Is it my feeling or am I right for once?

I sighed searching the bushes for any evidence, I found something shiny. It was a keychain!

"I gave this keychain to Jungkook! How come it's here?" I whisper yelled with widened eyes as hyung was surprised with the new found information.

"Did he come back unannounced?" he questioned.

"I don't have an answer to that." I sighed looking for any other clue.

After an hour of rigorous search we came back empty handed.

"Jimin! Where were you?" someone yelled, I looked up to spot Jin hyung.

"Hyung! How are you?" I said as he engulfed me into a hug.

"I'm good, I should be the one asking this question. Who is the doctor here now?" he smiled as I giggled.

"Hyung, I'm good" I smiled pulling away.

"Nice to hear that, I came by to give your recent reports. Let me tell you, your reports show signs of improvement" he smiled as I hugged him tight with joy.

"That's great news!" Yoongi hyung chimed as I smiled.

"But I found something Jimin, there were traces of LSD in your blood" he explained which made us confused.

"LSD (lysergic acid diethylamide), first synthesized in 1938, is an extremely potent hallucinogen. It leads to hallucinations, where you see, hear, feel, taste, or smell something that seems real but is not. It is also commonly called Acid.

In the 1950s, doctors used it in psychotherapy and to enhance the effects of antipsychotics. In the late 1960s, people started to use LSD as a recreational drug.

In short it's a drug which can cause hallucinations Jimin!" Jin hyung explain.

We were both shocked, looking at each other with eyes wide open.

"Someone is adding small doses of LSD in your food or water, which are causing these hallucinations" he told as I furrowed my eyebrows.

"I started having them again after coming here" I remembered.

"Didn't you tell me that the new butler seems weird?" Yoongi hyung pointed, to which I agreed.

"You're right, I told Taehyung too but he was not at all bothered!" I sighed.

"Give me your medicine box, I brought you another one. Take these from today" Jin hyung explained handing me the medicine box. I nodded giving him the older one.

"Then, is it safe to have food here?" Yoongi hyung asked.

"For now let's continue what's going on. If we try to change something, it may alert the killer" Jin hyung warned.

"But what about that drug?" Yoongi hyung asked getting concerned.

"I gave an antidote for that, and you can follow these steps if the effect of that drug kicks in:

1. Remember It Isn't Real
2. Stay safe and don't wander alone
3. Connect with someone
4. Don't self medicate
5. Stay hydrated and eat well

Everything would be fine if you follow this" Jin hyung explained.

"I have noted the same hyung, thanks for your help" I  said holding his hands.

"Good, it's my job Jimin" he smiled.

"He will be safe right Jin?" Yoongi hyung asked.

"He should be, please be with him until then Yoongi" Jin hyung said.

"I won't leave him alone at any cost" Yoongi hyung said holding my hand, heating up my cheeks.

"I have to leave, got to check some things. Take care both of you" Jin hyung told before leaving.

"Who can do that?" Yoongi hyung thought.

"Why drug me?" I sighed.

"I think we should continue our search, let's check your room Jimin. Maybe we can find the source of that drug there" Yoongi hyung suggested.

"Let's do that" I told as we went towards my room.

We searched every possible nooks and crannies but we didn't find anything.

"Where's that damn L-" he was cut off by the screeching sound of tires.

"Taehyung came back, we should stop" I suggested to which he nodded going out of my room.

Who's plotting all of this? What have I done for them to think of killing me?

I lied down, taking a small nap, closing my eyes.

"I don't want to be here. Take me away, Taehyung-ah. Please, it hurts. It will kill me if I stay here. I'm alone." I yelled on top of my lungs in a room full of darkness.

"I'm here Jimin, please get better for me, for us..." I heard Taehyung, where was he?

"Please take me out of this hell" I cried louder.

"You have to fight for us Jimin_ah" Taehyung's voice rang in my head.

"I will come back for us" I promised.

"I will be waiting for you" he promised.

I woke up soaked in sweat.

"You broke our promise" I sniffed, wiping the lone tear left on my cheek.

To be continued...
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Where's the killer hiding 🧐, we'll find out soon!