I haven't been talking to two of my real close internet friends lately bc I've been so tired and haven't had time with the camps I've been doing and I feel really bad

The one understands and we have talked a little on snapchat inbetween my lunch and breaks between my camps for the past two weeks so like we're good

But the other one I've known for longer (as in close to a year or two idk? A while) and like short short talks, in a group chat with two other friends that I don't know that we'll (her two friends) they're nice just we haven't talked much which is fine and doesn't bother me, they're nice people from when we have talked

But like I care a lot about people but sometimes I'm bad at responding to people and half of the time it's because something with messaging isn't working (wifi, accounts, etc.) but like she also has had tech problems which is good (for the time being) until I get back to normal with my sleeping schedule lol

But like they're both aware that I'm alive but tired and they both get it and I'm really really happy they do or else I'd feel so bad

Like I almost lost a friend over a stupid thing (on their part entirely) they over reacted on a joke and they were pissed off at me but they said just don't do it again, but like we're good now we've talked; we're fine now

But at the time it scared the shit out of me, and I literally would have crawled in a hole and stayed low for about a week until I felt normal again to talk to people and joke around (though it can be shorter, for me personally it depends on how bad it gets)

And my other internet friend, who I love to death, we just haven't talked much; they're in a relationship, they just recently went to an interview for a job; and they got it and I'm so happy for them but like they're older than me too, but that doesn't mean anything between our friendship it's just that we both have been busy and that's okay; we still talk time to time, they just had a birthday that I said to them, and we talked for a bit then, and we're okay

And thats okay

Where I am right now is okay and I'm happy

But theirs also the guitarist in our band, and we have an instructor and he's trying to tell us (myself and other guitarist, the drummer is good they know what they're doing already) what the chords are, for guitar and for bass, since thats what I play, but the other lead guitarist (we'll call him the lead since he is the lead guitarist) is (I think) getting bored with it since they already know the song/s (Should I Stay Or Should I Go by (The?) Clash, and Message In A Bottle by Sting) and he's unplugging our instructors guitar from the amp and hitting the tuner and everything and at this point being a pest were we're wasting time just for him to tell us what we need to do

And there's a newer band (we have a system with things it's too much personal info to explain) that hasn't been together very long and they already have 11 songs down pat to play. We have about 6 and we've been together since October(?)

Can you see what I'm trying to get at?

The drummer and I are good friends and we walked out with our instructor after practice was out, the lead guitarist already gone, along with the other guitarist, and we were talking about it and all of us agreed that it's getting hard and annoying that we can't get things done and we need to do something about it

Our lead guitarist is good though. Really good we just think he's getting bored with the song choices we have and/or he already knows the song and can play it with ease

And it's frustrating you don't (or you may) understand and ugh

But yeah there's my rant and if you read it ily thanks<3