I fold the paper up and called Judy about it.

And she said the same thing I said, "he's brave."

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It's been two days and I haven't spoke to Andre, I guess I wasn't ready to face the music.

It's not like he didn't try to reach out to me, he did a couple times.

Well, more than a couple times. He even asked my parents what happened.

I lied to them and told them I was sick and that I was unable to talk to anybody right now.

I felt guilty, so I called him, he told me he was home alone and that I could've come over if I wanted. He knew my parents might trip and he wanted to see me face to face.

I went over there, knocked on the door and he opened the door for me to come inside. When I got in his room, he was playing 'This I promise you' By NSYNC.

The 'I am sorry' balloons were hanging over his bed head.

I was impressed, he started dancing with me.

He braced my body against his, rubbing me from the hips down, he kissed me from the neck up.

Then I looked him in the eyes and our eyes eventually made four and we started "tonguing each other down"

It felt so good, it was like I was dreaming.

He then twirled me around and I just started chuckling. He made me forget about what I wanted to talk to him about.

Honestly, I spoke too soon.

His phone ran, he quickly went to decline it.

It rang again.

I asked him if he's sure it wasn't an important call because the girl called like ten times before he turned off his phone.

I got up immediately and walked out.

He got upset with me and asked "why do women always assume it's about another woman?"
So I asked him if it was about another man.

He got even more upset and started saying I was playing with his intelligence and trying to be funny.

He brought up the situation about the guy that fixed my dress and I told him that it was his fault for not standing up for me. It didn't make any sense going back and forth with a man, so as a man, he should've stepped up and defend me. I didn't want him to fight but stand up to the guy.

" I've been nothing but nice to you all this time and you're going to sit here and be upset because a friend is calling me?? so should I be upset when a man calls you? Like you go to church every Sunday, you want to hold grudges against me to suit your fantasies? Like I don't get it with you women." That's exactly what he said word for word, I was flabbergasted.

He told me I should stay in my place and that I shouldn't be looking at his phone anyway because it's none of my business.

He asked me if I was going to be one of those females that get up and leave for the slightest inconvenience.

He told me that wasn't my style and it didn't fit my color.

I didn't know what that meant.

*****
Dear Journal,

I know it has been a week since I haven't vent to you, I just feel like I'm losing it.

I contacted Andre and told him I felt way about the comment he made.

He wasn't like that when he first met me, so it got me wondering.

Is he now showing his true colors? or is he hiding something?

Either way, I be thinking if I should dump him or stay and work it out together.

I kept thinking about the inconvenience comment.

I mean I can't teach a man how to be a man.

I am just going to pray on it.

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The day I missed church, Judy told me she saw Andre flirting with one of the choir members.

The same girl that could not get along with Judy and I, since Sunday school days. She is just as arrogant and ignorant as Andre is. So if you ask me, I think they're perfect for each other.

Judy was angrier than me, she wanted to slap both of them but she knew it's not what I would've wanted.

After that, things just became awkward between us.

Like for instance, when I went back to church, we said nothing to each other when he first stepped in.

After church, my family and his family started conversing and she asked why aren't Andre and I speaking.

Andre told her that I was avoiding him and that he tried to talk to me earlier that morning, which was a lie.

*****
I just got off the phone with Andre, I asked him about the choir member and he told me it was nothing.

But I put the pieces together and figured out why he was so passive aggressive. This was because he was seeing someone else.

He swore up and down that Judy was lying. I couldn't take it anymore. After he lied and said he tried to speak to me at church when he didn't, I couldn't believe a word he said.

Both my mom and my dad were upset with me, they believe in arranged marriage. But, I can't be with anybody that's manipulative and passive aggressive. I feel like he was fake giving me affection to shut me up. I don't even think he liked me for-real.

Rick was the only one on my side, he told me to do what was best for me. He even kissed me on the forehead and said "I guess that's the only genuine affection you'll ever get huh?" Then he chuckled.

I'm not gonna to lie, I cracked a smile, I wasn't expecting him to say that.

I called it quits and that was the end of us. It didn't even make sense we dated anyway cause everybody knew our business.