"Oto-san, I'm scared..."

"Don't worry, my daughter. We will be just fine." The raven man reassure.

"B-But-"

A loud roar stormed into your eardrums making your knees become weak like a pair of useless jelly. There, the monster, the demon fox who showed up out of nowhere is now destroying everything that is in his way.

"(y/n), run to Oka-san, okay?" The man said to her again.

"W-What about you, To-san? D-Don't leave me..." She whined at him while hugging her father's leg tightly.

"(y/n), listen to me."

The girl wiped her tears and listen to her father's words.

"You're a brave girl, right? I know my daughter is a brave girl...she even unlocked her Sharingan too...see, you're awesome!"

"T-To-san-"

"(y/n), go now! Run!" The man then pushed her away while one of his comrades caught the girl and take her away from there. The little girl struggles to get to her father back but it is a futile attempt.

"To-san!!!"

"Tell your mother, I love you. And I love with my whole heart, Uchiha (y/n)... And...my unborn child, Uchiha Kenji."

It's just a murmur from the man but with the help of the Sharingan, the little girl can read his lips perfectly and that is what the father wants as well. He then charge to the fox and fight along with his comrades. Unfortunately... that's how heroic he was...

You slowly opened your eyes and realised you're crying in your sleep again. "Why am I having these memories again?" You said while wiping the tears away before getting up from your bed.

"What's in the past is forever there...what matters now is just the present..." You murmured to yourself after going out of the house to enjoy the starry night. You then jumped on the roof and lie down there, counting the stars.

"The present is surely a gift, right? That's why it is called 'present'," a familiar voice greet you from the ground before he leaps up as well.

You grunt, "What now?"

"The night is beautiful. It's a waste to sleep without adoring the beauty of nature here." He replied before putting his hair in his signature low pony again.

"Itachi."

"Hn?"

"Thanks for returning this necklace." You said while looking at the stars.

"Did you throw it on purpose?" Itachi asked you.

You chuckled at him, "If I did that, I would have flushed it in the toilet in front of your face earlier, idiot." Wow, you really missed to just sit and relax with him...just like the old days...

"Why are you still keeping that trash?" He asked again.

You rolled your eyes at him in annoyance, "You're pretty annoying with that attitude, Uchiha." You grunted. Then, you glanced at the pendant, adoring your neck pridefully there. "It's a gift...of course it's a treasure to me."

"Eventhough...I'm the one who gave it to you?"

"Is that wrong?" You raised your eyebrows at him.

"I thought you hate me."

You burst into laughter hearing this joke. Is he concerned about how you feel about him? This man is more than interesting now! "Stop being an emo bitch, Itachi. I'm not an idiot kid who just throw away the gift that was a present from a...ex-friend... Plus, I never said I hate you. I just don't like you."

He chuckled, "That's an honest confession there...why you never hate me, (y/n)?"

"Hey, it's Mitsurugi-san. And...why should I hate you for?" You said, being a sassy girl you are.

"Because I slaughtered the entire clan?" He asked again.

"Aahh...you make me sounds like a psycho who loves blood now..." You chuckled nervously while scratching the back of your neck. Damn, this is a killer question for sure... It will make you look like those selfish bitch.

"Is it because...I didn't kill your family?"

"A nice answer or an honest one?" You asked him.

"Honest."

"Yes...maybe... I don't know...I felt like, you're not an idiot who would kill for fun, right? You must have your reason... But, I'm a bit hurt, that's why my trust for you is long broken since that night." You're really good with honesty if you don't apply any feelings in your words. But, it's hard to be honest but, honesty is the best cure!

"I see...I'm sorry for hurting you." He replied.

"Hah, don't worry...I won't trust you anymore. That way, I'll be fine!" You told him.

Itachi realised that you're not acting all cold to him anymore, but why is that? He decided to ask you instead of making his own assumption, "Why do you act like that before to me?"

"Like what?" You asked, just as an excuse for you to hang out longer with him. It makes you feel at ease after that nightmare after all.

"Now you're asking."

"Fine. Like I said, I don't like you. No one will treat someone they don't like nicely, right? Use your brain for this simple situation, please...stop only using it on your fight." You answered, mocking him in the process.

"Oh. I see." He replied before gazing at you, "You hardly change actually, (y/n)."

"What?"

"Your attitude. Sometimes it makes me think that you actually have a bipolar or several personalities." He replied while remembering how rude you are to the bullies but you change so quickly when you saw an injured child or greeting the neighbors.

"You wanna point out that I'm...a crazy bitch?"

He chuckled, "You are...but," He stood up and jumped down the roof while you quickly looked down at him from your place. "...just be true to yourself, (y/n). You don't have to become someone who's not you. Stop pretending because there's no one is judging you anymore here." He said before he teleports away.

His word was like a hard punch to your gut. Stop pretending because there's no one is judging you anymore. But, he doesn't know... "That I don't even know who I am now..." You said while clutching your pendant tightly.

For these past years, it's true that everything about you is just a big fat lie. Everything, your name, your fighting skills, everything! "Who am I?" You sunk your face between you knees and started to think about what you have done before.

Did you ever regret for living like this?

Of course not! You finally have a family.

But, why do hear the voice telling you that they are not your blood related family? Family is not really about blood!

Are you happy to be with Sakata and Len?

Yes, definitely!

But, you're still crying at night...why is that?!

What is this feeling? Relief? Why?

Of course because you're still alive, the survivor from that massacre. You relief to see everyone died but you alive? Why did you never felt any hatred towards Itachi? Because he's not the one who killed your family eventhough he killed the entire clan?

What is your goal in this life? Are you even a human now? Which one are you? Who are you?

Stop pretending because there's no one is judging you here.

Yeah but you're the one who's judging people whether they're bad or good.

Is there any difference between good and bad? Between virtues and evil?

What is the meaning behind those words anyway? What is evil? What does it means?

"Those we're fighting with are bad people".

What does it means?

"Those who killed Hajime are pure evil!"

What does it means?

"Becoming the shinobi, it means we will fight the evil!"

What does it means?

"They are bad guys, pure evil."

What is evil?

Suddenly, you hit something at your side and you heard a soft, calming music from it. It's a music box with the shape of a small glass piano. The melody... it's...lovely.

It made you feel at ease...it makes you forget about those I'll thoughts about yourself. It makes you feel...human again.

But, where did this comes from? Did Itachi dropped it because he sat here just now. You pick it up and notice a piece of small note inside of the music box. Being a craftsmen, you can easily operate this thing without any help from your tools at all. Without any efforts, it opened.

You are you, Uchiha (y/n).

It is from him, only Itachi knew who you really are- wait, you don't really know who your true self is but...somehow, this Uchiha seems to know about you more than you do... What does it means?

Itachi betrayed your trust that night, you lost everything that night because of him!

But, what kind of lost is that?

What is that everything?

Itachi is not at fault for your families' death, not at all.

Then, what did you lose that night?

A certain face visits your empty mind, that shiny black orbs, silky long black hair, that powerful Sharingan, Uchiha Itachi...

That's right, you loved him because of his kindness to you. How he treated you like a normal human being and not as a weapon, that is when those feelings grow even stronger.

That's right, you lost it.

"I lost my heart."

You lost your identity, your true self. And...your main goal in this life.

"To always be by your side."

He did take everything from you, but why? Why you can't hate him despite of those bad things? Why?

You look down at the music box again before wind up the key to play it again.

Everything just melt into a soft music again, your mind is at ease again. Maybe... that's why you can't hate him. That's why don't like him. Because...

"...I love him."

You need to find a new goal to overcome that feeling. You don't want to hurt yourself again for his sake. No! Never!

"That's right..." You whispered to yourself. "Heart makes humans bear love." You smirked. "His heart..."

"Carving is one of your best skill, (y/n)!"

"That's the pride of a craftsman there."

"I'm a craftsman, also a swordman...not a shinobi anymore..."

"Sword are our pride."

"I'm a human with pride..."

The voices that keep ringing in your head, it brings you to a new path. A new goal in your life.

"Maybe, if I achieve this goal...I can get the answer for my question too!"

That new goal, not a pure one but, not so stained too. Heart is where those things born as well. Love, hate, good, bad, virtues, evil... Everything was breed from there, a complex organ named heart.

"That's right..."

You finally know what to do.

"But, I can't rush with this... Slow is the best pace here..."

Your goal is now engraved in your heart too.

"I will carve his heart."