Gerard kissed me back and forth, back and forth. He couldn't help himself. It was adorable. All he wanted to do was kiss me. But to be fair, all I wanted to do was kiss him. Finally, I pulled away, my fingers twisted around his hair. He just smiled at me, completely in a loving daze.

"Oh, Gerard..." I whispered, eyes on him, "Wanna head back to the dorm?" He just nodded. His eyes were full of stars.

"Is this real?" He asked, as we stepped out of the closet.

"Yeah..."

"Good, just making sure," He chuckled, then kissed me again. Without a word we walked to the dorm, he shut the door behind us.

"Can... can I keep kissing you?" He asked as we sat on his bed. I nodded, "Yes..." He whispered against my skin. I giggled, he pressed his lips to mine through the laughter. Soon, he was laughing too, desperately trying to kiss me through it all, "You're really pretty..."

"Thanks, you are too."

He sheepishly smiled as a blush formed. Without warning, he kissed me again. Both of us leaned into each other, going back and forth, back and forth until he had fallen backwards into the bed. I had fallen on top of him.

We kept kissing back and forth, back and forth. Until, without much thought, I slipped off my shirt. His eyes went wide. But I kept kissing him. My fingers then fell to the end his shirt. He pushed them away. They fell back over, but he did it again.

"No..." He whispered, shaking his head. I pulled away from him, now realizing how terrified his eyes had become. Everything in me had suddenly become disgusted with myself. He... I... oh god... this is exactly what Billie did to me... Gerard... I gotta get out of here...

Immediately, my eyes filled with tears. Slowly, I pulled away from the boy and slipped on my shirt.

"I... I'm so sorry..." With tears in my eyes, I ran out of the room to Annabelle's. Quietly, I knocked on her dormitory door. As soon as it opened, I fell into her arms, and sobbed.

"Y/n, it's three in the morning. Why are you crying?" She asked, tiredly as she pulled me inside. I sat down with her on the bed and began to calm down.

"S...something happened..."

"What happened?"

"Gerard and I... we... we kissed..."

"Oh my god, you did!? That's great!" I nodded.

"But... after awhile... I slipped off my shirt and well..." I hesitated, "I tried to slip off his shirt and he pushed my fingers away. And then, I tried again and he... he said no."

"Y/n, he's allowed to say no."

"No! Annie, I scared him! I promised him he wouldn't have to be scared around me. And I fucked it up. I just, I feel so bad..." I cried into her shoulder.

"Oh Y/n..." She spoke softly, "Your hair is a mess." As she spoke, she undid my Princess Leia buns.

"I just... Billie did the same thing to me... and I-"

"Shut up! You two are so loud!" Rachel cried.

"Rachel? I had no idea you were here."

"Yeah, and I'm trying to sleep! So shut up!" She threw a pillow, I just kept weeping, "Ugh..." Rachel got up and left the dorm.

"Hey, why don't you get some sleep? And we can deal with this in the morning, okay?" Her voice was so soft. With tears in my eyes, I nodded.

"Okay..." I sniffed. She sent a small smile and set me up on the floor.

"Goodnight, Y/n..." She whispered.

"Goodnight, Annie..." I whispered back. After what felt like seconds I fell fast asleep.

Gerard's pov, while in the dorm

Everything I had ever wanted was finally here. She kissed me over and over again. I couldn't help but smile during it all. I'm so happy... she's all I've wanted...

She leaned in and I fell backwards into the bed. Her body lay on top of mine. My lips pressed against hers back and forth, back and forth. Just then, she pulled away and slipped her shirt off. My eyes went wide. What the fuck!? Oh god... this is so scary!

Her lips were then back on mine. My whole body tensed as her fingers wandered towards the bottom of my shirt. No... if she sees my body... she won't wanna be with me... she'll think I'm gross...

I pushed her fingers away. She went back, but I pushed them away once again.

"No..." I whispered, terror filled my voice as I shook my head. Finally, her eyes met mine. Just for a moment, she stared into them. Realization filled her eyes, and soon, tears. Slowly, she pulled away, and slipped her shirt on.

"I... I'm so sorry..." Her voice cracked towards the end as she left. I sat up, completely bewildered by what had just happened. She... oh...

My own eyes filled with tears as I got up and went to Frank's. Tears stained my cheeks as I quietly knocked. As soon as the door opened, I fell into his arms.

"Gerard, it's three in the morning. Why are you crying?" He asked, bringing me inside. I soon calmed down, and began to explain.

"Y/n and I... we... we kissed..."

"Like, kissed kissed?" I nodded, "Wow, that's great, Gee!"

"Frank," He looked to me, "I don't think she likes me..."

"But she kissed you!" He cried, "Why are you crying?"

"Cause... cause after awhile she slipped off her shirt and tried to take mine off. I was so scared."

"Dude, that's a good thing."

"No! Frank, it's not! I'm... I'm gross... if she sees that..." she won't like me anymore...

"Gerard, you're not gross. You're a good lookin' guy. What else happened?"

"She tried pulling off my shirt again but I pushed her away and said no. Then she got off me, apologized, and left. Crying," I sobbed, "I didn't mean to make her cry! I never wanted to make her cry..." I hugged onto my friend as the tears spilled.

"Oh my god you guys are so loud!"

"Fuck off, Ray! We have a situation here!" Frank cried, "Why don't you get some sleep? I know how you get at three in the morning. We'll deal with this when we wake up."

"Mkay..." He got up and pulled together some blankets on the floor for me. In no time we were both laying down in the dark. Him in his bed, me on the floor.

"Gerard?" Frank whispered.

"Yeah?" I whispered back.

"Do you really think you're gross?"

"Uhm... yeah..."

"Why?"

"I mean, look at me. I'm not 'hot' or whatever. No one thinks that. So, I've just accepted that I'm gross and people won't ever like me."

"But that's so sad."

"Is it?"

"Yes! You're a good lookin' lad! Any girl would be happy to have ya!" I smiled.

"Thanks, Frank..."

"Go to sleep!"

"Fuck off, Ray." Frank said.

"Yeah, fuck off." I said, yawning.

"But we should probably sleep."

"Probably..."

"Goodnight, Gee..."

"Night' Frankie..." In merely seconds, we had both fallen asleep.

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Yeah so I've been waiting to write this chapter since chapter 1. So I hope you liked it. Usually when I start a new book I come up with a concept or smthn that I want to happen and then I think: but how do they get there? And what happens afterwards? And then some stuff happens. Have a fantastic day~peace out cheesebags