I stare at the blank screen
Hopeless as always
I wait for your reply
That always brings a smile
But something's different this time
My insecurities relating to you are rising
Seeing your 'social life' I am worried
Maybe I am not worth to be your friend
No matter how hard I try to control
The heart leaps every time I think of you
And then it sinks
When I try to put some distance
So that I'll never be hurt again

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Here I go again
Smiling and laughing with you
While the fear inside darkens
That you'll leave me soon

Days pass by
I could feel the distance grow
I am sorry but now
I don't want to feel this
Feel this insecurities
Of whether you value me?
Just as much as I value you?
Or have I lost my worth?
Only because I tried
To show how much you mean to me?
Only because I try to prove
That I could make you laugh
That I can keep you company
That I'll be here for you
But maybe you never needed me
You have others
And this feelings growing
Jealous that maybe I am not close enough
I lay shattered on the ground
And only show you the colourful pieces
I have lost my worth haven't I?
Just because I care
Just because I worry
Just because I don't want you to feel alone.
I have lost my worth