How long

Do I have to crumbleInstead of laying on the ground, shattered, showing only colorful piecesEyes open to the curve of death, bleeding through the glasses with only  "whys" and "it's my fault" "what did I even do" drowning in my  soulI just want to die

I just want to die
Because the screams feel like the vibration of my heart
The tears feel like the blood in my veins
And the only time I'm alive is through his pain flowing through me
And the only time I smile is in his memories
The Only time I'm touched is in his eyes filled of love
the last time I was alive
was in the end of the story of us