Laserian

People say if you like someone let it go, and if it was yours it will surely comeback to you or something along the same lines. Let me tell you, this is all bull shit.

Because it hurts like a bullet wound when that person goes and I am telling from experience. Amber Mikelson missing was like a bullet wound. If my friends, band mates and Liosa didn't know I felt for the girl, now they knew.

I was hyper, freaking out, destructive and worried. Everyone was calling someone to help me find her. I have checked all the possible locations, hell I even visited her parents. They thought she was staying with Anna as some girl called them to let them know.

Naturally I was interrogated but I was in too much of anger and hurry to answer them and left rudely. This was a problem to be fixed later.

Liosa walked in with her high heels clicking in eerie silence.

"Any news?" Terian asked his eyes red.

He cried a bit.

"I found her." She said with a grave look on her face.

I walked over to her and roughly grabbed her shoulder.

"Then what are we waiting for?" I yelled out in frustration.

"Because I have to tell you something first." She was anxious and was shifting from foot to foot.

I nodded for her to go on.

"When I found out about you secret, I was taken somewhere , in deep woods. I was scared but it turned out it was only a warning to not let this secret out or I will pay a serious price. So I walked to that place , just in case." She said now giving me look of worry.

"And?" Marc prompted now.

"And the one who took me there was Eibhir. He is holding her captive there." She said out the last words filled with tension.

My body reacted to her words, I froze.

I was processing the thought. Eibhir, Amber, captive...all these words in a sentence were not making sense. I don't want them to make sense.

Eibhir is like a father figure to me. He can't just..he will not..will he?

"Laserian, think about Amber first." Liosa said in a gentle tone snapping me back to senses.

"Amber." I nodded still half frozen in shock.

"I will come with you." Finally Marc said, the hurt and disbelief clear on his face.

I prayed that Amber was still alive or I had no idea what I will do.

***

Oh, it was Eibhir alright pacing around in his tiger form and ready to leap. She was scared and pale, my senses caught her bleeding wrist and other injuries making me roar in fury and I jumped at the tiger.

Well the down point of all this was, Amber might hate me later. She will find out that I was the panther she liked all along and now when she will see that I had been lying to her.

But I had no time for it, I was fuming in rage at Eibhir. I never thought he would do such things, go to extent of kidnapping the one I swore to protect now.

As I was about to attack him, Marc's growl interrupted me. Oh! Yeah he was also my best friend's father, how can I forget?

"Traitor, that's what you are? And for whom, a girl? Ironic isn't it and I thought you couldn't feel emotions all this while." He said now back to him human form.

One person Eibhir had a soft spot was Marc, I guess Marc had the capability to develop a soft spot for himself in everyone.

"I am not a traitor Eibhir, I asked for a valid reason. And I did warn to you stay away from her." I answered with anger turning back to my human form.

I avoided looking at Amber, it might create mess with my mind. She must be looking at me with hatred and I couldn't handle that look.

Eibhir looked at his son and then at me. He was angry, naturally. It was a first time his most loyal soldier has disobeyed him.

"Father we need to talk." Marc said gravely.

There was wariness on Eibhir's face which he quickly tried to cover.

"Can't you see what is happening here Maelcurus?" Eibhir yelled.

"I can very well see what is happening here. You kidnapped my best friend, well my other best friend." He gave me a light shrug, "And now you are trying to justify it. She makes him happy dad, after a long time, can't you see?"

He said angrily that surprised both me and Eibhir.

My respect for Marc went up zillion times.

"She is a danger!" Eibhir said desperately.

"According to whom?" Marc's voice raising now.

Eibhir closed his mouth shut.

"Can't you feel her power?" He whispered with his eye narrowing at her.

I noticed her stare back at him bravely and angrily. I had the wish to laugh or atleast chuckle at her reaction. She was glaring at Eibhir.

Marc closed his eyes as if trying to control his temper which he seldom looses.

But then his eyes snapped open. He could feel her power, we all could. Our animal and human side lay peacefully inside us, not fighting for dominance.

"I can feel it." He said and I felt a pang of worry.

What is Marc turned against me and sided with Eibhir. I would not blame, after all he was his son. I will be angry but not for long, I cared for Marc more than that.

Eibhir's lips lifted in a victorious smile as Marc agreed with him.

"And its amazing!" Marc yelled happily surprising both me and Eibhir.

"What?" Eibhir asked with a angry scowl.

"It is dad, can't you feel it. It's peaceful, our human and animal side are not bickering for once." He said with a genuine smile on his face.

"Hello people, one injured girl here." Amber interrupted us which was very brave on her part knowing full well that we were shapeshifters.

We turned towards her, Marc chuckling at her expression. There was an obvious disbelieve in her eyes, worry and confusion. But no terror!

I walked towards her.

"She is the problem here Laserian not us." Eibhir yelled but I ignored him as my eyes narrowed on her injured wrist and my insides coiled in anger.

I turned and gave Eibhir my deadliest glare. Defeated after a while he left with Marc giving me an understanding nod and I nodded back.

"Laserian O'Fearghaile." She said as I worked on untying her only two of us left now.

I kept myself busy with knots, her breathing, her scent ...anything but those injuries.

"I am sorry." I whispered.

I have never apologies, to anyone but to her it came naturally since I was drowning in guilt.

"You are the-my panther?" She asked now free of ropes and flexing her wrist making her wince.

I winced at her pain and bit back a curse as I saw dried blood on her hand. I wanted to rip apart a head or two now.

But my lips lifted in a slow smile as her words sunk in...my panther..she said. She called me hers.

"Well if you say it this way, yes I am your panther." I answered with a smirk.

She was glaring at me.

"Anything else I might want to know, you liar." She said in a little louder voice.

"Umm....I was also your pet dog." I answered running a hand through my hair uncomfortably.

Her mouth opened wide, definitely shocked.

Her beautiful hazel green eyes flashed with anger, hurt, betrayal, confusion and then defeat. Each emotion made me feel different and like her I went through all of them in an instant.

Then she hit me hard on my arm.

This time I was shocked.

"Perv, you were in my room...and-and I changed clothes there..and, and you heard all I said about you. OH.MY. GOD! And I told you all my secrets...and you were on my bed." She was pacing now scowling as she remembered.

I thought it was best to keep quiet.

Then she jerked her head towards me and glared deepend.

"You knew, you knew I had a crush on you and still you played with my emotions, were rude to me...."

That was it, this made me wince at my stupid mistake of calling our kiss as a mistake and leaving her in pain for two weeks.

So to prove her that it was anything but a mistake, I interrupted her rambling with a kiss. As soon as I pulled her closer, roughly , the shock stopped her and she looked at me with most innocent surprised look.

As my lips met hers, I felt all my anger and guilt fading away. They were soft but she was not yielding in, probably still angry. A small nip on her lower lips made her groan in defeat as she finally kissed me back. My hands traced her form, inexplicably warm in my arms.

Her hands pulled me closer clutching the front of my jacket and I happily obliged.

God this girl was affecting me too much, she was like a drug that made me high and I needed all the time.

Our lips broke, my eyes noticed her sensuously swollen lips after all the kiss. It was sight that could shatter all the resolve and I bent down again capturing her lips in mine.

But this time she pushed me away lightly and breathing heavily and flushed she looked at me.

"Don't think these hot kisses will make me forgive you." She said indignantly.

She was not angry or hated me, I could deduct that much from her tone.

"I am glad that you liked the kiss." I said lightly suddenly feeling good that she was not angry.

Just to make sure, "You don't hate me?"

She looked at me intently as if deciding on the answer.

And then a sigh escaped her lips, a sigh of her defeat and my victory.

"I don't hate you. But I don't like you either." She said coming to a conclusion.

I nodded understanding her emotion.

"I told you all about the nightmares, I told you since when I am having them and the restless night I have never once had a peaceful sleep. And yet you never bother to tell me the truth.

You were just plain rude to me. It felt as if you hated even my existence on earth." She said sounding really pained.

"I never hated you. I just wanted you out of danger." I tried to defend myself weakly.

"This is amulet that masked your scent for this long." I pointed to the small piece of jewellery on her wrist, that were injured making me angry again.

"And why were you there ten years ago, when...when my dad shot you?" She asked stammering at the thought.

Should I tell her I was there to kill her? She was already upset and injured, do I want to tell her and risk getting her away from me.

NO, the simple plain answer in my head was no.

"I was on a mission." I answered truthfully and thank gods she didn't question me further.

She sighed and tilting her head she scanned my face. I am a stoic, brave soldier but under her intense gaze I squirm. She was making a decision, she might want to hate me, distance herself from so it was kind of unnerving to wait for her decision.

And then she stepped forward, surprising me yet again and circled her arms around my waist hugging me. Her head rested on my chest and I was pretty sure she could hear my heart.

It took me a moment to realise what happened and then I returned her hug once I realised. She inhaled sharply as if taking in my scent, memorizing it that I was the same animal she encountered ten years ago.

"I am trying to find hundred faults in you Ian." She mumbled against my chest.

Ian, she still calls me that. Like a fucking school girl I felt relieved at this. Trust the girl to make me a rebel and sappy romantic both at same time.

"I am trying to hate you for all the pain you put me through." She said sadly.

I kept quiet , not sure what to say to her right on accusations.

"I am trying to find reasons to stay away from you as easily as you stayed away from me." She said pain crystal clear in her voice thick with emotion.

She is having an internal conflict the one I had when she came along. I had to kill, I wanted to kill her and then I realised that I can't kill her

"I hope you don't find one." I say, out loud with underlying prayer there somewhere.

She lifts her head from my chest and I look into her eyes to know what she is thinking. A small tired smile forms on her face.

Tiptoeing she plant a gentle kiss on my forehead and there is nothing sexy or exciting about the kiss. It is a gentle touch of promise, of care, affection and forgiveness.

"There is one reason I am still angry with you among others." She said now teasing me.

I have never been more relieved or happy in my life.

"What?" I asked to humour her.

"You never allowed me inside that awesome music store of yours. That was place you insulted me first." She pointed out.

"This weekend I will take you to Nirvana." I said smiling at her, grateful for forgiving me or even trying to do so.

She smiled and then buried her face in crook of my neck sighing deeply as I smell great. Her gesture made me chuckle but it also sent a shot of warmth through me and I won't lie by saying that I was not excited.

I had to laugh, because I liked the girl more than I remember liking anyone besides Marc of course but that I will never accept out loud.

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So? So? How was it? Was her reaction okay? 

I was so conflicted what to write and I wanted to write so you guys could be happy and I ended up writing this!:)

I put myself in her shoes and thought how would I react?

She knows town has Vertians, she talks to animals...It would have been stupid if she freaked out a lot!

And.*dun dun dun *.. Mr. Ice Prince admits, he likes her! :P

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