Laserian

I had no idea I was this insane. I mean many people told me I was short tempered, mad, weird, dangerous....and even evil. But I had no idea the insanity was actually inside me.

And it only showed when I was with Amber. I am calm around her, I am less angry, I am even a bit teasing and highly amused by whatever she does.

When she held my hand , I knew the meaning of heart beat multiplied by billion times. It was painful but in a sweet pain kind of way, pain you enjoy. I felt the rush of electricity between us .

But most of all her hand with mine was like the most natural thing in the world, like it fitted there perfectly. And felt the fate mocking me, the girl I was suppose to kill was consoling me, giving me emotional support.

And even worst was the gentle look in his eyes was not pity for me but just genuine care. At that moment I cursed fate, my lineage as Hood and her bad luck that she was supposed to be eliminated.

It that instant I didn't push her away instead I welcomed her touch that made me breath without any stiffness which I usually carry.

She asked me the same questions I did and all this for asking something I already knew. She told everything to dog me. But when I saw her stressed and so much in pain after the nightmare she finally remembers I had to do something, I needed to do something.

She called out my name in her dream and now she even remembers me in person there. What was I? Good guy? Bad guy? Just audience to her cruel fate? I did decide something though, If she was really meant to die for Hoods safety then I will make sure that I will kill her and not allow anyone else to touch her.

Always, in her dreams she is either protecting me or asking me not to leave. I sincerely hope I was opposite of what I am in real life, I wish in her dreams I was her protector and not her killer.

I also have a tattoo! Where the hell did that came from? Oh! I remember...my brain that goes for walk when she is around. And even thought I can't see her face, I knew her now too well now and I know she would be gapping at me with wide eyes.

And I was sure that when I meet her today I will be bombarded with question.

As soon as I thought that, I saw her walking towards me. It amazed me how I was less cold and stiff around her but even more amazed at the fact that my cold personality didn't affect her.

For short time maybe but she didn't stay mad at me for long time. She asked me ideal girl..I don't know what I answered because I was looking..Rather staring at her.

Her warm personality was affecting my cold demeanour.

The wind played with the few loose strands from her ponytail which swayed lightly as she walked down the slope. She was not looking at me, her head buried into her camera doing something. She was wearing a cut sleeves cream coloured top and chocolate brown shorts.

It was side effect of having so many desserts made by her that she herself looked like an edible dessert right then.

LASERIAN!

My conscience thankfully was still intact and yelled at me for having dirty thoughts.

Finally she lifted her head and as soon as our eyes met she smiled and lifted her hands to wave at me. Such an over enthusiastic gesture made her fumble a little and she was running too fast on sloop. A little scream escaped her mouth but I was there before any damage could happen.

And yet again, she was in my arms and I was saving her. If Fate could mock me then it was taking full advantage of it now.

Her petite form was hugging me for her dear life or maybe for the life of her camera, she loved that thing more than her life.

Her body fitted so well against my tall form that I was reluctant to let her go. It was a novel and a nice feeling to hold her.

I let her go and she side stepped carefully still clutching the sleeves of my T-shirt.

"Thanks." She breathed.

"Mention not. It's like you love falling around." I teased her.

She scoffed so unlike her.

"Only when you are around I tend to fall." She whined like a kid.

Only around me? Was I bad luck for her? Or was she too intimidated around me? I wished neither of them was true.

"Okay where are we going Ian?" She asked clearly excited.

Ian, she said it with ease and I was truthful I could only hear it from her and no one else because the name held too many memories.

"To finish your project." I stated simply.

"I knew that! But what is the location." She badgered me about it.

And I was enjoying it.

"You will see soon."

She rolled her eyes at me.

"Okay this is the shot of sunset I took right now." She said edging closer so our shoulder was almost touching.

It's not like I was shy or a really gentleman kind of guy but as she edged closer, I respectfully created a little distance between us but she unaware of the whole situation and she closed in again. Her scent , her warmth was kind of overwhelming.

"We are here." I said my voice a little thick with awkwardness which apparently only I feel.

I have known people to stay away from me but she was the opposite.

Her eyes went wide and they literally sparkled under the star light. She let out her breath softly and turned to look at me with same amazed expression. She blinked and turned to look at the sight in front of her.

"Wow!" She breathed the word out.

She swirled around to give one look to whole place, and the whispered a 'wow'. I had to chuckle at her reaction.

"Laserian O'Fearghaile , this is freaking amazing!" She said grinning at me with absolute delight.

She was right, my name from her mouth did sound regal.

"Well, go ahead and take picture. I just shared by secret spot with you." I said trying to feel less bashful about whole thing.

I was being kind of truthful, it was my secret spot. It is the place where I came alone when my parents died. Among the large collection of flowers was the a lavender coloured flower that was used for Hood appointing ceremony. He liquid from it is used to make the tattoo on back of our neck and keep the scent from us.

But here was the girl who knew my scent.

The place was called my Fiore Rock and most people don't find it because its in core of forest and no one dared to walk in. It was a rock in centre and around it flowers were grown like a fence. It has all the flowers of different shade. But for me it was more like a thinking rock.

In the moon light the flowers were glowing like Fire flies and each colour gave off different aura. I was not a flower person but tulips were something I could tolerate.

We can just sit there on rock look at the interesting pattern made by hundreds of flowers around us, the fragrance fill us and hear the sound of lake nearby.

So I just showed her my solace point.

She was busy taking picture, really energetic about the whole thing. I sat down on the rock knowing well enough that she will take some time here.

How did it come to this? I wanted to help her enough to gather courage to ask her about the project I already knew about and then bring her to this. I shared another piece of me with her. But I knew nothing about her.

Besides the fact that she dream about me and someone else named Mattix.

I turned to look at her work...Was I getting attached to the girl? Should I get attached to her? Why was my life so complicated?

I could have liked anyone , anyone from this whole wide world but It had to be one I have to kill, was assigned to kill.

Like? So this was it. I liked her? Amber was pretty likable, even the shy Terian was friends with her. Who cannot like her? She was a nice person.

But nothing explained my weird behaviour and dumb brain around her.

I was suppose to stay nonchalant, detached and it was getting harder. For God sake, she cuddled my dog form, she hugs my panther form , made my human form smile.

She even hid my secret, lied to me when I asked about how she found about the moon lit path.

She was everywhere around me and I was reeling from side effect of Amber overdose.

"I am done, can I come and sit?" She asked with a smile on her face.

Her smile reached her eyes, making her look really happy. But the tiredness never left her face. I pained me to think that she had been in this torturous state because of me.

Well I did improve from being the rude cold person to helping in front of her.

"Sure." I said shifting a little to make space for her on the rock.

She jumped up and sat cross legged still admiring the beauty of the place.

"How did you find this place? A trick to impress ladies? Or date with girlfriend?" She asked teasing me.

I smiled at her slightly.

"I don't have a girlfriend, if that's what you want to know." I said and got the desired effect.

She was flustered.

"N-No! I didn't mean that. I-I was just...forget it!" She said immediately doing what she always did when she is nervous or embarrassed, hid behind her camera.

It was kind of fun seeing her this way.

After a while I made up my mind or maybe my mind shut down completely.

"I came here after my parents died. It was peaceful here and no one knew about it. There is not cell reception either. I would come and sit here for hours, just think, mourn them and plucked flowers for Marc mom, Isla.

She took me in after my parents died." I told her, I had no idea why but I did.

And I felt a pain lift of my heavy chest and I allowed some air to flow in.

She was quiet for few minutes and I think I might have weirded her out. Should I have not told her that? Was she that kind of girl who ignored other's pain ? No , I knew Amber was not like that.

"I have nightmares." She said in a low tone almost like a whisper.

My first reaction was to turn sharply towards her, at her revelation of something she had not even told her parents, not even her dog who she knew couldn't tell anyone.

But I kept looking straight so that she did feel awkward by my sudden reaction. I just listened, slightly awed.

"Something happened when I was eight. Since then I have terrible nightmares." She laughed dryly, "Worst part is I can't even remember these dreams. But I never get to sleep more than three four hours."

She paused and I kept the silence sure that she would continue. She was opening up to me and I was more than grateful.

"I cry in sleep because of them and they are a constant pain in ass but you know what I have never told my parents or anyone. And now you can go around thinking I am insane." She laughed again without any humour.

There was the pinch in my heart again and now I turned to look at her.

I tried to form words that will make sense in this situation, like I said I was not a talker. I wanted to console but what I will tell her that could make her feel better. I could have held her hand like she did for me but it was too intimate for me.

"Well I already knew you were insane since the day I saw you outside my store." I said in attempt to make her smile.

And she did and I felt victorious on such a meagre task.

"So you will not bale out on the girl that dreams stuff and is partially insane?" She asked lightly but apprehension seeped in her voice.

She was worried that I will hate her for suffering from nightmares, wasn't she suffering enough.

"I will only bale out on you if you don't give me coffee." I said now grinning.

Weird, definitely.

She laughed and I was finally relieved. I was never going to dislike her, nightmares or otherwise.

If Marc heard me joking he would possibly put it in tomorrow's newspaper and Amber will help him out. He definitely had the upper hand over me, Terian too, they had her number. They called her M.

"Thank you for today Ian, really. Not only you help me complete the project but also shared a little secret with me. I am grateful for both, more for latter though." She said everyone like she meant it.

I looked at her now the moon light making her face shine, highlighting the little mole over her lips. And a sharp desire hit my gut, I wanted to touch that mole.

I snapped myself back to senses and jumped down from rock creating distance between us , immediately.

"Let's go. It is getting late." I said and looked away.

I should have offered her help to get down but I was too shaken up by my thoughts right now. She jumped down herself dusting off her hands.

"And when will I get to know about the tattoo?" She asked her lifting her eyebrows.

Here comes the interrogation.

"After the performance, if you can guess what it is?" I said putting a condition.

Why should I suffer alone?

"Two days from now and I see you perform." She said sounding excited about it and indirectly accepting my challenge.

I was proud of being in a band for the first time in my life. Marc did something right then.

"Yeah, well don't get too excited it will be dull without all screaming fans." I said trying to be cool about it.

"Don't worry; one fan will be there for you." She said laughing lightly.

Ah! So she was my fan- I mean Hood fan. It was kind of relief, I didn't had very good first impression or next one or the next one.

I was dribbling with two questions in my mind. Should I ask for her number because asking marc would be ...plain stupid or should I ask more about nightmares.

Does it make sense? I wanted to know about more her nightmares since I know she had them but now I was weighing it with getting her number.

No, definitely doesn't make sense. Then again, most of the things don't when I am around her.

I was still self debating when she turned towards me.

"Do you know about anyone named Mattix from around here?" She asked and this time it was hard to conceal my emotion.

Mattix , the name from her dream. Does she remember the person from dream? When did that happen? I am with her when she dreams.

"I don't think so." I said carefully.

"Oh, okay. Anna told me about another photographer from some town close by, some Mattix....yeah, Talfryn Mattix." She said remembering the name.

The animal in me growled within. Mattix, she said name in he dreams, she threatened the guy. Now who hell is this new guy and what does he want?

I have to find out.

"I have to go, I remembered something important." I said and suddenly had a brilliant idea.

"Call me when you reach home." I said in a hurry.

"Really Ian, on what number." She said with sarcasm.

"Oh yeah, here give me your phone." I said feeling smug about the clever move.

I then gave call from her mobile on mine.

"Night!" I said.

"Good night!" She said walking in opposite direction.

I looked at her saved number on my phone and felt stupidly happy. Marc's insanity was rubbing off on me.

Laserian, it just a damn number, get a grip!

And this was when she was around me most of the time. Could overdose of a person kill? I hope not!

YAY! Update! :)

It sometimes really gets hard to make Laserian react. But I try...I try people.

WHAT? Only 7 days left for Camp nano...And I am still idea less! *sob*

may the odds be ever in your favour!

I will think of something. 

Did you notice how Laserian helped in finding two things for the list :) And I thought he was trying to kill her 

Geez silly me XD

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