Shanaya's POV:

"But Ami... I don't know..." I heard Hussain's voice and I frowned into my sleep. I turned in bed and opened my eyes, blinking a few times to see I was alone in the bed. I sat in the bed and rubbed my eyes and looked towards the door. Door was slightly open and I can see Hussain's back. He is standing near the door. Images from last night clouded my mind and I shuddered visibly. I gulped and tried to calm my beating heart.

"Hussain beta, She needs a little change. I know, she needs to be out of here." I heard Nasreen aunty whispering. She is keeping her voice low. Maybe she doesn't want to wake me up? Oh god, it looks like I am listening to their private conversation. I slowly got out of the bed and walked upto the dressing table. With my slightly trembling fingers I picked up the hair brush. Just as I was about to throw a hair brush so they can know I am already awake, I heard Hussain saying.

"Ami...ok. but phele I want to go and visit her mom." His morning voice is deeper than normal and I remembered how he talked to me last night. Shivering in the memory how he touched my hand I absent mindedly opened my fist causing the brush to fall on tiles with a thud. Hussain abruptly turned around and I knelt down to pick up the brush, behaving as I dint even knew he stood there. I felt his eyes on me but I dint dare look up. Why I am so scared?! I snapped at myself mentally.

From corner of my eye I saw him turning around to his mom again. He whispered something, that I dint quite catch and then he came into the room, closing the door. My heart nearly stopped as locked the door as well. I stood still near the dressing table. My hands sweating with nervousness. I so don't want to be here with him, alone.

I nervously glanced up and saw Hussain also glancing at me now and then. Our eyes met for a minute and I looked away. My heart beat increasing 5 times more. I was about to move when I heard him sigh deeply. I started brushing my hair with my shivering hands, trying to cover my face with my hair. I gulped and and took deep breaths. I hate the fear I am feeling. He will not do anything. Right?

"Shanaya. Um..about last night." He said and I stopped brushing and placed the brush back on the dressing table. I heard footsteps and glanced at him worried, he was coming near me and I instantly took a step back. He froze on his spot. He furrowned, and then his eyes widened. I refuse to meet his gaze and looked at the floor.

"I- I am sorry- seriously...I dint knew what I was doing last night- I was- it's just-" he rambled and I kept looking at my hands, fumbling with my fingers. I don't want to talk about this. I still feel  the fear he built in me, the way he behaved last night, was not ok. I saw him taking a step foward and I took a back. I glanced up and he made a sad face.

"I am sorry!" He said again. "Shanaya I wasn't trying to scare you! I am...I am so sorry." He exclaimed, taking a step closer. I can't take this anymore! I walked pass him and into the washroom, Shutting and locking the door quickly. I slide down the door and covered my face in my hands.

I am so weak!
I am so wrecked!
I am a mess!

I cried silently. Why Hussain came near me! I am not ready for this! I don't want this! He just ruined the little hope I had that I could get through this. Why!

Shehryar. My heart whimpered and I bite my lip, stopping myself from making any sound. I am his wife, he have the right to touch me...but..but.. I loved Shehryar.

It was supposed to be him. Touching me, hugging me. I burried my face in my hands and shut my eyes tightly.

It's haraam to even think about Shehryar now. My consciousness warned me and I felt like screaming. I got up and walked up to sink. I stared at myself. Blood shot eyes. I opened the tap and washed my face a few times. I looked again at the mirror and gulped. Wiping the tears away.

My lower lip trembled as I remember how close Hussain was last night. I am not a kid. I know what he was doing. And the fact that he even tried that hurt me. But what do I expect from him? To understand. To wait for me. No. I can't expect anything. After all he is my husband. If he wants me.... tears stream down my face at the thought of any if this. I can't do this!

I was out of my inner battle when someone knocked on the door. How long have I been in here?

"Shanaya?" I heard Aunty's voice and I washed my face. Wiping tears away, I faked a smile. I can't show anybody how weak I am feeling. I have to be strong. With this though I opened the door. Anuty genuinely smiled and lead me to the bed. I furrowned in confusion as I saw a suitcase on the bed with my clothes in it. My eyes widened in horror, Are they going to throw me out cause I can't make Hussain....happy? The thought setting my mind in haze. Aunty touched my shoulder and I looked at her. She smiled and a wave of relief washed over me. She is smiling, means she is happy with me. They won't throw me out.

"Beta pack you bag for a week. We are sending you and Hussain on honeymoon." And just with that the small relief moment ended and my heart stopped. A week with Hussain, alone.

"Kya hua?" Aunty asked and I shook my head. What do I tell her? Aunty I am scared of your son! I don't want to be alone with him. I stared in horror as she removed the clothes and set them in the suit case. I was standing there dumbfounded when the door opened and Hussain entered. I froze.

"Ami hum Aunty se hospital mein m8l k atey hain." Hussain said as stood beside me and I took a step away, slowly.

"Ok bacha, just come before time. Actually take your stuff with you and head straight to airport then. Your flight is in two hours."Aunty smiled and I looked at my hands. One thing making me a little happy, that I am going to meet Ami.

"Get ready?" Hussain said and I nodded before walking towards the closet. My hand slightly touched Hussain's and I shuddered. I dint dare look at him to see his reaction but I felt his eyes on as I moved in the room to get my stuff, I tried not to run and hide in a corner. To my relief Aunty spoke up.

"Hussain ap jao sub se mil lo. Mein Shanaya ko le aati hoon, once she is ready." Hussain left after that and I changed into a black dress. It was simple, airline kameez with diamonds embroidery on the ends and sleeves. I wear bangles as Aunty brsuhed my hair. The gesture reminding me of my mom. She smiled and I blinked back the tears that were threatening to fall. Once she made my hair in plates. She bend down and kiss on my forehead. I smiled genuinely. A small gesture of comfort helping me to calm down.

"Shanaya. Ek baat kahoon?" She asked as I stood up. I nodded and she took my hand.

"I am sorry for what all happened beta. Your Uncle is really angry with Shehryar. Beta we don't know why he did this to you and Us but all I know is ke mera Hussain. He is trying his best." The tears dint stopped this time as she said the two names, which are in my life with a good reason to make me cry. Shehryar and Hussain.

"Shanaya. Don't cry beta." She whispered as tears well up in her eyes as well. She hugged me and I tried to control my tears. She patted my back and make circles with her hand. Comforting me but I want ami! I want her hug so badly! I want her to tell me what to do!

"Let Hussain in." Aunty whispered and pulled away. I gulped and wiped my tears. I looked at her, she smiled and worry for her son flashed in her eyes.

"Just give him a chance. I know it's difficult Shanaya. Isliye hum ne yeh holiday plan kiya hai. Sath mein tjora waqt bitao. Ek dosre ko jano. I know he will mend your heart." She said softly and I looked down.

My broken heart. I corrected her in mind.

"Chalo. Hussain wait kar raha hoga." She said smiling and we make our way to the stairs. I dragged the suitcase on it's wheels till the stairs but when I tried to hold it, I can't. It was heavy as both mine and Hussain's dresses and stuff was in this. Hussain saw me struggling with the heavy suitcase and in long three strides he was beside me.

"I got it." He whispered and picked up the suitcase easily. His muscles flexed as he moved. We came down and after bidding our good byes to Uncle Aunty and Maha. We left.

The car ride was as quite as a mute movie. No one spoke and I was thankful cause my mind still wasn't ready to deal with Hussain. We reached the hospital and when I entered Ami's room. My eyes got teary. I sat beside her in te chair. She looks like an angel. A small smile palyed at my lips as I feel her touch. Her hand, got skinnier than before. I wiped my tears away and kissed her forhead.

"She is doing well Shanaya. Hopefully she will wake up soon." Doctor informed me and I smiled at him kindly.

Kassh ap mujh se baat kar sakhti ami. I need you so much! I miss you ami. I mentally whispered and kissed her hand. Soon we had to leave cause of the flight. With last glance at Ami's beautiful face, we headed to the car. Hussain was extra quite the whole time and I dint wanted to change that.

With only some moments we shared last night, everything has changed drastically for me. Where I had a hope, now fear has took that place.

After a long quite ride we reached the airport. This was my first time getting out of Pakistan, and that's also happened to with Hussain. So saying that I am nervous will be a big understatement.

"This way." Hussain signalled me and I followed him quietly. I was glad he wasn't touching me but my relief was cut short as we entered a crowded place and Hussain hold my hand. I shivered internally and gulped. Trying my best to not freak out. Some people pushed me, gasping in shock, I fell on Hussain. He caught me without losing his balance. His hand on my hip and other still holding my wrist.

"Hey! Watch where you are going!" Hussain exclaimed angrily at the boys who had pushed me. I stepped away and Hussain lead us to the plane. Thankfully nothing happened and we were on the plane. Hussain hasn't released my hand yet, so I pulled my hand slowly. He gaze fell at our hand and when I pulled away completely he stared at me. I looked away, his gaze intense enough to make me look away. We sat on the seat. We got the side seats of two. I took the window seat while Hussain sat beside me.

"Please buckle up your seats belt." The  voice spoke in the speakers. I did as told. Everything was fine till another five minutes and then ear piercing sounds were made as plane was about to take off. I furrowned and worriedly look at Hussain who had his hand out for me. I took his hand thankfully and grasped it tightly. As if my life depends on it. He squeezed my hand, assuring and smiled. I shut my eyes and leaned near Hussain's shoulder as the sounds got louder.

I dint knew that this could be this scary!

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