We walked into class holding hands. Aliee looked at me raising her eyebrows. I ignored her looks and sat down next to Kihyun.

"You're still a piece of trash." I heard Aliee say.

Yes, I already know that...

Kihyun grabbed my name squeezing it. I looked at him. He gave me an "It's alright" look. I pressed my lips together nodding my head.

She kept with her comments until the teacher walked in. The class went by fast. As I got up to follow Kihyun out Aliee tripped me. I thought I was going to hit the floor but Kihyun caught me.

It felt like it was only me and him in the room. Our eyes searching each other's. He smiled lightly helping me up.

"I think I'm falling for you..." I said softly.

"You can fall for me any day...but not like that." He smirked.

The day drug on. Aliee no longer became a threat. It's like she gave up. She still gives me dirty looks, but I can deal with that.

"Want me to walk you home?" Kihyun asked.

"Sure." I smiled.

He took my hand into his. His thumb rubbed my knuckles. I looked down at our hands smiling.

As I walked up I noticed my dads car still parked in the same spot. I didn't think anything of it.

"Dad." I shouted waiting for a response. "Is he still sleeping? Hold on." I looked at Kihyun.

He nodded and sat on the couch. I walked slowly to his room. Something feels off. I opened the door and fell to my knees.

"Dad!" I let out a loud cry.

For the first time in a long time I was crying. Kihyun ran into the room. His eyes widened at the sight.

"Don't look." He kneel in front of me hugging me tightly.

I couldn't believe my eyes. Was life so hard for my dad? Why couldn't he fought it? Why didn't he talk about it? Now...now he's hanging from the ceiling fan.

I heard Kihyun talking to someone. The police? Possibly...

I peeked up at my dads lifeless body hanging there. I started crying harder. Kihyun then picked me up carrying me out the room.

I shouldn't have left my dad this morning. I should've known something was off when he didn't get up.

So lost in my thoughts I didn't even know how hard I was crying. Am I even breathing.

"Paige!" Kihyun waves his hand in front of my face.

I saw flashing lights outside my house.

Is this reality?

Someone wake me up.

Someone tell me I'm dreaming.

Someone.

Anyone.

This can't be real.

"Breathe Paige, breathe." Kihyun said in a worried voice.

I looked up to see men carrying my dad out. His body was covered with a white sheet. I closed my eyes looking away. As I did the darkness caught me.

I woke up to the bright lights above me.

Am I in heaven?

I turned my head to see Kihyun sleeping on the couch. There was two other people in the room. A girl and a guy. I sat up remembering what happened.

Do I expect it?

Do I deny it?

Do I join him?

"You're awake." The nurse walked in. "How are you feeling honey?"

Honestly, I wanna die.

"A bit foggy." I said.

"Do you want some water?" She asked, checking my vitals.

"Mm, yes please." I said as I laid back down.

☆☆

If you are reading this and you have any thoughts of suicide or have attempted to commit suicide, I wanna say life is worth living. Don't let those bad days ruin your entire life. I wanna say you did well, it's okay if you're not perfect. Being perfect isn't always good. If you wanna talk about anything please inbox me you can also talk to through twitter link is my profile ☺️ PLEASE keep going with life. ❤️