Flashback

Dhiya's POV

I occupied the last seat of the auditorium. Looking at Akshadh and his family members I was dying out of my love. I didn't see any emotions in Akshadh's face. He was welcomed by everyone presented there. Then, he was greeted by Janu's parents. He greeted them back. What does it mean? I closed my eyes for few minutes as I couldn't bare anything happening around me. I was confused by the present, Did Akshadh is playing double game? Did he cheats me and now Janu? Did he is aware of the function before itself? If not how could he greet Janu's parents at once.

Why did you do this to me Akshadh? Why did you play in our lives? If you are playboy type, definitely I would stop the engagement function.

Next thinking about Janu, If Janu came to know about my love for Akshadh what will happen? Will she ever forgive me? How would she digest if she knows that her husband is in love with me after getting marriage to him? Is it sin to hide my feelings? God, why did you put me in such situation? I need both Akshadh and Janu, whom did I choose to be. I can't hide my feelings anymore and cheat Janu. I should confess my feelings to both, I prayed silently to God to give me a chance.

At that time, Janu invited me to the stage. Though I didn't look at Akshadh face to face, I noticed he looked at me shockingly. He never imagined that I was Janu's cousin. As everyone tells that "Love is Blind" I don't know whether this love makes me blind but I should find whether Akshadh real type or play boy type? I should open up my feelings to Janu as soon as possible.

After the recognization function, we shifted to a private room, where Janu and I were there. I should use this situation. I should confess my feelings to Janu, I can't cheat my Janu. I gathered all my strength.

"Ja ...Janu," I called her slowly. Janu was looking at her reflections in the mirror.

She turned aside to look at me.

"Janu, I need to talk something important to you," I said in a flow looking straight to her face.

Her phone disturbs. She attended the call.

"Dhiya, only half an hour more for the engagement function. Add little makeup to my face. Mom asked us to come soon," giggled Janu

God! How could I disturb her peace of mind? Anyways She should know whatever happened between me and Akshadh in U.S

"Dhiya! Are you here?" She waved her hand that brought me back to present.

"Yes," I nodded.

"Tell me, you said that you want to tell something important," asked her as giving space to my feelings.

"Ja....Janu....Aksha... Akshadh," I stammered

"Stop it Dhiya. I know what are you going to ask me?"

"Dhiya, I am sorry to hide this from you. I got my Akshadh because of you. You helped me without even I conveyed my feelings to you. Do you remember I came to Delhi two years back?"

'My Akshadh' her words showed she was started to live with him in her dreams. I was confused to the core. Did Akshadh knows her before itself? Did he hide about Janu to me?

"I helped you!!! How? " I asked confusedly.

"Yes Dhiya, you helped me. I came to Delhi in search of Akshadh. I love Akshadh since two years. When, I was unable to find him in Delhi, I became depressed but your words motivated me. Your companionship gave me the strength. I didn't lose my hope and started developing my feelings for him before itself"

I remembered that I console Janu when she was in depression. She told me that she came to Delhi to sign a project and to start partnership with her friend whose mobile number was missed before years so she came Delhi to search her friend by the old address. For about a week she tried a lot to find in all directions but went in vain.Did she mean the missed friend as Akshadh? Did Akshadh is the reason for her depression?

"Why did you hide about your love to me, Janu?" I asked frowning. If she told at that time I would never have fall for Akshadh and our lives would never get crossed.

"You were in the last semester examination, I thought not to disturb you as it affects your examination. Also, I knew you would get hurted if I failed in my love. You can't accept my failures. You always wished to see my smile. If a drop of tear cornered in my eyes then you are first person who wipe my tears. I never ever expected that I would succeed in my love. I thought of burying my love within me. If I didn't get Akshadh I would have never marry anyone in my life. Months passed, I started loving him to the core. I can't live without him Dhiya," she said emotionally falling in my arms.

Tears formed in my eyes. What will I do now? If I confess my love to Janu, what will I do if she took wrong decision. My subconscious is warning me, "Tell the truth, Dhiya," I cleared the throat and loosened the hug.

Before I raised my voice, Janu raised saying "I dont know whether Akshadh loves me or not but I cant live without him. I didnt even talk to him before. I started living together with him in my dreams. Will Akshadh oppose me Dhiya? If he rejects I would end my life here" she said shocking me. I slapped at her right chin hearing the word that she would end her life.

"Janu! What are you talking? Are you out of mind?" I asked seriously.

"Dhiya, please be with me. I am scared of rejection," she said and cried me hugging.

"Dont cry Janu. I am there for you," I said her convincing.

Janu's mom knocked the door.

"Please smile. Let us go now,"

Then we moved towards the function hall. We had our seats and Akshadh family had their seats opposite to us. Janu makes me to sit next to her. She held my hand tightly to make herself comfortable. I was looking around our family members were enjoying the function. I wiped my tears formed in my eyes seeing Akshadh in front of me. He is innocent. If I confess my love, he would reject Janu.. What will happen if Akshadh rejects Janu? Janu may kill herself!!!! No I won't allow this to happen.. My family, my Janu life is more important to me.

I was waiting for a chance to talk to Akshadh about Janu. I looked at him often and luckily he signalled me to talk for few minutes.

I excused myself from there and came out. Within few minutes, I moved closer to him.

"Dhiya!" his eyes started shedding tears while saying my name.

I controlled my emotions by thinking of Janu's words and cleared my throat
"What do you want?" I asked him with a tone of bit arrogant.

"Dhiya, Don't you love me?" He asked seriously moving a step closer to me.

I turned my aside and blinking my eyes continuously to stop the flow of tears and managed to say "No! I don't love you that is why I returned from U.S before you. Please leave me," I said looking at him.

"Don't lie Dhiya. You left me knowing about this function. I am sure you love me Dhiya. Don't cheat urself, Seriously, I am not aware of anything happening here Dhiya," he said genuinely.

Yes I knew Akshadh. I am the unlucky woman. I can't see something worst happens to Janu. She would end her life if you rejects her. Before two years itself, she undergone depression because of you Akshadh. She loved you since two years and I am late. I am happy that I am giving my priceless gift to Janu who looks after you very well than me. There is nothing to worry if you get her in your life Akshadh. I am not a right person for you ~ my subconscious mind.

"I am not ready to hear your tactics. Don't waste the time," I pretended angrily and was about to leave.

"One minute Dhiya"

"What?" I didn't look at him as I have no rights for it.

"Don't you love me?"

"No, please leave me," I said stepping forward.

"I can't marry your cousin. I am going from here," he said as I expected.

God! Save our lives. I took the point which hurts him. I am sorry Akshadh, I pleaded inwardly.

"I said I don't love you. How could you imagine my care and sympathy towards Allen as love. Don't ever come in my life again. Before that I will go from here. Do what you want?" I said and left the place.

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Hi friends

Dhiya tried a lot to confess her love to both of them but knowing Janu's heart she couldn't end up confessing her love. After hearing that Janu would end her life if Akshadh rejects Janu so Dhiya can't go against Janu life since they love and care each other like sisters from the beginning of there life.. I hope you would understand Dhiya's pitiful situation.

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