Chapt. 60: Are You Still There? Change
Naruto had went off for a mission, so I was to be kept under surveillance by Kakashi Hatake. Naruto dropped me off at his house before he left or his mission.
Honestly, it was a bit awkward for me... As my memory recalls, I use to live with Kakashi and he was the one who took care of me stead of being locked up in my cell.
"I'm always going to be honest with you, Akina. You can count on that."
And he also protected me during Pein's invasion of the Leaf Village. He tackled me out of the way before I could get squished by Choji and his father. And yet, I almost killed him and left Pein to finish him off for me.
Right now, I'm in Kakashi's house and in my old bedroom. I made such a mess of it. Yet, he fixed it all up for me. The wallpaper was replaced to hide the scratches and he got new a new mirror, bedsheets, and a pillow.
"It's like nothing ever happened to it..." I whisper to myself. I can even remember the nights I would look out the window to avoid sleeping. Did I ever sleep while I stayed with Kakashi? The only times I've slept was when I was with Madara.
"Well, I couldn't let you sleep in a trashy room, now can I?" I take a step back, becoming startled by Kakashi. "It's different from the last time you were here, isn't it?"
"It is..." I nod my head.
"Come on. The tea is almost ready." Kakashi goes to the living room and I follow him. I sit on the couch as he hands me a cup of tea. "Are you all right? You've been quiet ever since you got here."
"It's just that... It's weird for you to accept me back so easily and willingly. For someone who has taken care of me and trusted me back then forgives me so suddenly. Out of all the people, you should be the one scolding at me. I attacked you just so I can see my Darling again, then left you without saying goodbye...." I frown.
"You're really feeling guilty about this, aren't you?" Kakashi takes a seat next to me and sets his cup on the coffee table.
"Of course I am..." I nod. "You were the first person to see me different and I almost killed you. I ignored your feelings and consideration and this whole time...you still cared... You and Darling didn't give up looking for me... And I..."
"Akina," I feel Kakashi softly place his hand on the top of my head as I began to tear up. "You don't have to feel sorry about anything."
"But, I do! I should!" I shout, leaning forward.
"You were living in the past, thinking that every human was the same. So, you were protecting yourself while trying to accomplish on turning yourself human. But, you can't get over the things that you did."
"I've never felt this kind of guilt before...." I look down at my lap.
"You must have felt lonely, didn't you?"
"Huh??" I look at Kakashi and I am pulled into a warm, tightly embrace. "K-Kakashi!?" I gasp. "Wh-What are you doing!? If you keep holding me like this, I'm going to take your chakra! L-Let go!" I panic and try to push him away, but he holds me tighter and closer. "Kakashi!"
"It's okay, Akina." He pulls away and smiles at me. I blink, realizing that I'm not taking his chakra. This happened with Naruto, too. "Do you feel anything? Do you feel my chakra?"
"I don't... I'm not taking any of your chakra!" I exclaim.
"Because you're human. You're okay." Kakashi pats my head and goes back to holding me. "As long as you're with me and Naruto, we will keep you safe from now on. I missed you so much... I can't even to begin to tell you how worried I was about you..."
"Kakashi..." I begin to blush. I feel like I've been getting sensitive ever since I became human. "Kakashi," I wrap my arms around him and hug me close to me. "I missed you, too..."
I spent the entire day with Kakashi in his house that day. He told me that Naruto was going to be gone for at least 2 days. I don't know where Ritsu had ran off to. He was there when Naruto dropped me off at Kakashi's, but he left afterwards.
I hope he doesn't show or tell anybody about the medication that we found out about. I trust Ritsu with it after all that he's done for me, but at the same time, what he plan on doing now that he's in the leaf village? He use to be Orochimaru's spy and tagged along with Sasuke because I joined him.
"Now that you're human, do you still have the same Jutsu's?" Kakashi asked me.
"Yeah. Look," I hold my hand up and perform one of my jutsu. "Diversion Fog." A black fog forms out of my palm. "I can still perform the jutsu without performing any hand signs."
"How are you able to do that? Were you born with that kind of gift?"
"I'm not sure myself." I shake my head. "Actually, I can't remember how I was able to do this. The 3rd Hokage didn't put me through any treatment to obtain this kind of ability."
"I see." Kakashi looks toward the window and see that it's night time. "You should get some rest. I don't want you to stay up all night. Wait, will you be able to sleep? You never slept when you were living with me. You would stay up all night sitting on the bed with your knees to your chest or looking out the window."
'He remembers every moment we spent together in this house!' I think, a bit surprised. "Um..." My eyes wander to the side. "I slept well when I was with Madara... My head would be on his lap or he would be hold me to keep me calm." I say the last sentences outside.
"Then why don't we try that."
"Huh?" Suddenly Kakashi picks me up and carries me to my old bedroom. "What are you doing!? I'm not a child!"
Kakashi ignores me and keeps walking to the bedroom. Once we're inside, Kakashi lies me down on the bed and he lies me next to me, then wraps his arms around me and holds me close to him.
"K-Kakashi! You can't do this!?" I blush.
"Why not? I'm just holding you." He smiles.
"You're my guardian! We shouldn't be in bed together!"
"You've changed a lot, Akina. Since when did you get sensitive? It's not like I'm going to take advantage of you. That would be wrong. You never slept with someone beside you, have you?"
"Not beside me, no..." I look down. "I've never had somebody beside me while I slept." As I said, Madara would hold me close and tightly whenever I got angry and my head would be on his lap when I slept.
"Then let's change that up, shall we?" Kakashi holds me closer and rests his head on top of mine. "I'll be right here so you won't have to feel alone. If you have a nightmare, I'll be here to calm you down. I promise."
I slowly close my eyes and find myself dozing off into a slumber. I guess I have changed. Is this what being human is like?
Yet...
Will Madara come looking for me? He's still out there and so is Sasuke. I know Madara wouldn't leave me alone like this. After everything he's done and I've found out. After all, he's the one who saved me. I can't abandon him...
Madara... Are you still there?
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