Hello to everyone who's reading this - if any. Thank you for taking your time to read this, because I warn you - I don't think it'll make much sense. But thank you. It means a lot.

Before I get into the 'story', I just want to say that I'm not sure of what I'm doing.

I've never done this before, and I admit, I'm terrified.

This is no fanfiction.

This is no made up story.

And I just needed a way to put this out into the world, because honestly, I've seen so many people struggle, and it's always those kind of people. The ones with the friends. The carefree ones. Kind hearted. With smiles that could make flowers grow, that could rival the sun in brightness and beauty.

And no one notices.

It's always the ones you think look happiest that are the most broken inside. And if you just take a moment to look at them- really, look at them, in their eyes- the signs are everywhere. It's something I've noticed over and over again. They make jokes about it, they laugh about it. They make casual comments on things - suicide, self harm, eating disorder, anxiety, insecurities - and the trick is to know when it's just a joke or comment - and when it's a silent plea for someone to notice. 

I don't think anyone does it on purpose.

Maybe it's a coping strategy.

But please...

There are so many of them - of us - out there. If you have someone you know like this, or a friend, family...it doesn't matter. Just...talk to them. You might be surprised by how many of us there are.

And if you are one of those people...

This story is for you.