Listen to the song River of tears by Alessia Cara!

Also, there are no diary entries or quotes becasue kendall is unconscious so she can't write :)

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The rain patters softly against the roof when I finally flutter my eyes open after struggling for so long. It's very dark and I presume its midnight because the only light shining was the word 'EMERGENCY' in big red bold color.

Ace sits slumped in an armchair beside my bed. His head hanging low as he is snoring softly, his arms under his head. He looked so peaceful and I didn't want to wake him up. Three empty coffee cups for Starbucks lay littered on the floor beside my friends awkward sleeping position.

A bunch of roses and a handful of get well soon cards were neatly placed on my bedside table, the flowers essence seeping through the room like the ever essence of the sea.

On the other side of the room lay my mom, a fashion magazine layed carelessly on her lap and snoring so softly. despite how old my mom is, she still looked pretty that's why guys swoon over her.

My hands reached out for the closest person, who was dad, but I notice the needles tapped inside my skin. I always hated needles, and the fact that are so many inside my body, sacred me. The heart monitor started beeping rapidly and I knew that right now I needed to calm down or else I would die again.

Deep breaths Kendall, think of  a happy moment.

If you die, you wont be able to finish the Vampire Diaries, and you need to know what happens!

Wait does heaven have a TV? if it does I would just Netflix and chill, and maybe I wouldn't have to pay for the subscription bill!

Wait will I even go to heaven, I mean I am a bad girl, and god won't even let me in heaven, I mean, Satan is my best friend.

Wait why am I thinking about TV and heaven?

I shook my head softly which erupted  a headache in my head emitting from the back crawling its way to the front.

The pain was unbearable.

I looked down at my body, a white threaded blanket covering my body, giving me warmth. I follow the needle and its cord to the IV drip stand where I am being supplied with all the nutrient's I need, and probably pain killers too.

then I realized I was in the hospital.

You stupid of course you were do they freaking sell an IV drip in the supermarket?

I don't know, they could, its 2018 anything is possible.

Sometimes I wonder why I choose your body...  could have went to someone smarter than that.

Not my fault suck it up princess, also isn't it your job to keep me optimistic ?

well yes.... But I am too lazy.

And know I know why I am always lazy! Its you! Traitor!  I am going to report to the subconscious government!

You do know there is no such thing as that. Gen Z these days ugh.

and that ladies and gentleman is how to roast yourself  and make yourself stupid.

The soft breath of my father draws my attentions and cuts me off from my humiliation from my subconscious. He looked so peaceful, yet angry. Three frown creases were etched into his soft lineless face. He kept shaking around and muttering to himself " You should leave, now."

i was too dizzy to focus on anything he was saying, or how much important it actually was, and by then it would be too late.

I squeeze my eye shut, blinking three times. I cough softly my head swishing from side to side surveying the room. I hadn't noticed that there was  a TV attached on the wall , and was on mute.

They really need to save energy.

But one thing caught my eye, the date written at the bottom of the news being displayed.

"April 19..." I rasp, confused.

When has time passes so fast! what happened to me? I still need more time before my so called 'death date', I need to find who sends these messages.

The door opens in my room surprising me and cutting me from my thoughts. I watch as the nurse comes in, shock the only expression on her face, she quickly rushed to my clipboard, wrote so fast that I felt myself feeling dizzy. After all this she came to my IV tube and started adjusting some of the vials and I felt myself at ease once again. Must be a painkiller.

"How are you feeling?" The nurse asked me smiling at me softly.

" I feel okay, but do you know why I am in here?" I asked her.

Her face fall ashen for a second then came back to smiling "You got a heart attack sweetheart."

Heart attack? this young? then everything came back to focus. The secret diary on Maddie's computer, how she kept secrets from me.

"Its alright sweetheart, just don't stress yourself for the next few days and you will be as good as new." She said laying her small petite hand on my shoulder, her touch bringing me comfort.

"Thank you" I rasped my throat still feeling dry form the lack of water.

She handed me a cup filled with water and gently tipped the cup into my mouth enough for me to drink and not to choke.

She then to wake up my mom, and she nodded to my direction wanting to leave the room for the sake of our privacy.

My mom stirs in her sleep and slowly yawns then stops and looks at me with wide eyes, full of shock and excitement.

her face is blank at first like she cant decipher what she is seeing, she blinks several times before breaking into a sad smile.

"Kendall." She croak's. "Oh, god Kendall."

she quickly rushes to me pinning me to her chest and sobbing loudly. She brushes her fingers through my hair soothingly

"You are awake. You're here. You're okay," She whispers to my chest. "Oh god, You're okay. You are okay."

I diligently lift my hands to hold her but I wince. The ache in my heart has made me soo weak. She withdraws form me , wiping her eyes.

"Sorry," she sniffs. "Did I hurt you?"

I shake my head slowly smiling at her. This was the first time I felt happy around my mom, she was always screaming at me or drunk, the loss of Maddie leaving a whole in her heart that no-one could ever replace, only Maddie could.

"You started to wake up yesterday," she whispers, rubbing my hand soothingly. "But then-then you didn't so I thought maybe... maybe I'd imagined it. But you're here."

I am not going anywhere, unless that psycho who wants to kill me drags me around. I really want to tell her, but it hurts, everything hurts.

Mom walked over to wake up dad, lightly shaking his shoulder. "Sleepyhead. Ken is awake."

That was the first time after Maddie's death that my mom called me Ken. That made so happy that finally maybe just maybe, things at the house will get better.

Dad begins to open his eyes, groaning slightly. "What's wrong Emma?"

"She is awake." She repeats.

My dad looks over at me a frown etched at is face then a forced smile comes across his face. I wanted to throw up, he can never be my father. My father left long ago, the one whom I used to watch basketball matches with, the one who used to tell me bedtime stories , that version of him was long gone since Maddie's death.

I think he really just wants to kill me on the spot, with me dead he would live freely. And the look in his eyes states so.

He leans over me and for a second I get scared, but I knew he could never hurt me, he would never, I am his daughter.

" Its good to have you back, wouldn't want to lose you too, Maddie is enough." he says the frown still etched on his face.

My mom slap's his hand and looked at me so gingerly and said " I knew you would pull through. I never doubted your strength." she said while kissing my forehead.

then my dad's phone rings, the frown still etched on his face, "I need to answer this, its important I will come back again, when I finish the call."

My mom sighs softly clearly disappointed but dismisses him then looks at me with newfound joy I haven't seen since five years.

" You know your friends are causing quite the ruckus outside ." she said chuckling softly.

My friends, they are here. Is Ace with them?

"You know," She said while rubbing my hand soothingly. "I owe my life to the kid out there called Ace, if he wasn't there and hadn't called the ambulance, you would have- you would have been gone." My mom said tears brimming her eyes.

"I am alive mom and that's what all that matters alright, lets just forget this ever happened okay?" I said while I kissed my mom on the cheek, and action I haven't done five years ago.

the pitter patter of steps coming our way made my mom wipe away the tears on her cheek and told me " I think I should leave you alone with your friends for sometime, they missed you a lot."

"I will see you tomorrow Ken, I will take a shower eat dinner and come back here, i probably look like  a zombie now." She chuckled and I couldn't help but laugh along.

she left the room and I was alone once again, but I felt my head was too dizzy and snuggled deeper into the pillow till I feel, for the first time, into a peaceful sleep.

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I wake up suddenly, I coughing fit erupting my way through the lungs. I clench my fists in pain and start coughing again, till I notice movement in the chair next to my bad. I reach for the lamp on the bedside table, turning it on to illuminate their face. 

Ace's head is slumped to one side, resting against the head of the armchair. He is staring of into space, his tired eyes blinking. When he sees me turn on the light, he jumps in his seat, clenching the arm rests.

"Scared ya." I whisper smiling softly at him.

His eyes glisten with tears. I extend my hand toward him and he grips it tightly.

"You have no idea," he croak's wiping the tears furiously.

" I am sorry." I say sympathetically, seeing Ace like this made my heart break. He was to vulnerable and I hate to be the reason for that.

"Don't apologize its fine , you are here and that's all what matters pumpkin." he said sternly.

"You died in my arms," he whispers, his eyes full of anguish and heartbreak. "Your heart stopped. I thought... I thought..."

"Ace," I move strands of hair from his eyes tucking them behind his ear. "I am alive and that's all what matters." I said smiling.

"Alright you too lovebirds, break it up!"

my head whips to the doorway and laugh happy tears. " you are here."

" Of course I am here! I Just had to drag those to boy's lazy asses to come here, they thought playing Pubg was more important that seeing you!" Nora said laughing while placing the bouquet of flowers she got in an empty vase.

Alec and Jake come barging in and quickly came in and hugged me.

"Shit Ken, you gave us quite a scare," Alec breathes, wracking a hand over his buzzed head.

"You can say that again." Jake agrees.

"Omg you guys, I don't deserve you." I sniff. they cared about me so much that it made my heart swell in happiness.

And Ace, the fact that out shoulders are touching and he is holding my hand tightly scared I will ever go away, makes me feel at calm and peace, and most importantly, makes me feel loved.

But no I don't love him of course it is just a simple crush.

"Shut up Ken!' they all chorus.

"Holy shit! I swear we did not plan that." Alec says cracking up. everyone begin to laugh I do too, not caring about the pain.

Right now all that mattered, was that my best friend are here, oh and my crush too.

After staying with me for a while and talking, and playing board games, eventually the nurses kicked everybody out including Ace. It was actually quiet hilarious watching the petite nurses trying to escort rowdy 17 year old boys.

I went to check my messages and found that my phone has over a thousand messages from all over the school wishing me fast recovery, but one caught my attention.

"The Unknown number" I muttered softly.

I opened the message and gasped when I read what it said.

"An early death, now now, we are the only ones that get to kill you. The clock is ticking tick tock."

I angrily shoved my phone on the floor aggressively probably cracking the screen. I will not let them scare me like that. With my parents and friends, we could do anything.

And we will fight back, after all the Mcardle family is never known to give up.

And that's a promise I intend to keep no matter what the cost.

A/N: well well, when I am in a  crappy mood I usually write hehe so here is another chapter for Can one keep a secret!

what do you guys think? need improvements, what did you like about this chapter?

also you guys better be grateful that I let her live lol , I am just warning you guys, you need to have a huge pack of tissues beside you, and to buckle up your seat bealts, becasue the ride is gonna start getting bumby hehe.

anywhoo, i have  sequel planned for can one keep a secret! so after this book will finsh i will start writing the sequeal i am so excited ahh!!

and also i really wanna make the 100 edits so i am slowly learning hehe Marmara100 you got me obsessed hehe but in a good way 😁😆

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