listen to the song "Lose Somebody by Kygo and One republic"

it has so much correspondence to this chapter enjoy :)

Above picture is Victoria justice played as maddie, check her aesthetic in the "Cast/Aesthetics chapter !"

FIVE YEARS AGO

"Please, I am begging you Kendall! Just this time, I will do your homework for the whole month!" Maddie said pleadingly while mustering her cutest puppy eyes, but I won't fall for them this time!

"A month? Nope, 2 months" I said smirking, it feels good to be in control and have the upper hand.

she huffed in annoyance then finally said the words I have been willing to hear. "I will do your homework for three months, happy now? now can we please get ready, we are already late!"

"Under one condition." I said smirking.

"You sure are sneaky." Maddie said annoyingly.

"Well, you do want me to go to your friends house for a sleepover, and I told you a million times I hate her, how can you even be friends with her, even once she pretended she slipp-"

"Kendall, you are ranting again, but we don't have time for this! I am already late! " she groaned while applying more lip-gloss on her already plumped lips.

That's the difference between me and my sister. She is always dressed up elegantly, looks gorgeous, and guys drooling over her perfect body, and how it curves in the right places, yet she never did the 'deed' with anyone, she was still a virgin.

and lastly, lets not get started on her personality, kind to everyone, always helpful and very social. And that is quite the opposite of me, introverted and always in the shadows of Maddie. If anyone asks me whom I related too, and I tell them Maddie Mcartle, they would just laugh it off and not believe me.

it hurts being left alone and bullied at. Despite my sister being the most popular, she doesn't rule the school like the mean popular girls does, she set a new stereotype that popular girls can still be kind, and I am very proud of her. But what about her sister, no scratch that her twin sister. What about me being bullied? What about me being in her shadows? What about my parents not caring about me? She didn't even realize one bit that I was hurting.

I suffered in silence and it sucks big time, and here I am going to one of my bullies house for a sleepover cause my sister doesn't want me staying alone in the house.

"Ken, you alright? You zoned out a bit there, you alright? Do I get you a glass of water?" Maddie said worryingly while looking at me inspecting if I have any injuries.

I chuckled, Maddie can overreact sometimes "Maddie, I zoned out I didn't die, don't worry I am fine."

she flinched when I said these words "Don't say this, you are not going to die, I promise you." she said while holding my hands in her palms and squeezing them tightly.

"Maddie what is wrong with you? You are never that adamant to go to a sleepover and you have been so jumpy and jittery since mom and dad left, what's wrong." I said softening my tone as I looked straight at her, wanting her to tell me what's wrong, I am her sister, she cant hide anything from me.

she stood up from kneeling beside me and opened my curtains and looked out of the windows turning her head from side to side, making me dizzy. She gasped loudly and closed the window and curtain so fast, and started pacing around my room talking to herself and biting her nails occasionally.

Its official, my twin sister turned crazy.

"Mads, what's wrong, why are you so nervous?"

Maddie opened her mouth to speak but was cut off by an urgent knock on the door.

Maddie froze in her stance an started biting her nails, again may I add, nervously and she was sweating profusely. I really don't know what's wrong with her, it might be mom and dad, maybe there dinner reservation was cancelled.

"Maddie, I will go get the door, it might be our par-"

"No, don't go there, I- I'll go check alright. Didn't our parents tell us, stranger danger. " She said smiling despite her feeling nervous and frightened.

I know my sister too well, she is definitely hiding something.

"Maddie, what are you hiding, you need to tell me now, I am scared for you." I said my eyebrows furrowed together in confusion and terror. My sister is never like this, that means something bad is about to happen very soon.

and the fact that I don't know what's going to happen scares me.

" I am going to tell you soon, I promise, but for now trust me alright." she said while kissing me on the cheek an tucked a loose stand of my hair behind my ear.

Being cut off from our sisterly moment her phone rung and she excused herself out of my room to answer it, with that look of fright still plastered across her face.

she went to her room and shut the door with a slam and I was left, once again alone with my thoughts. But my curious part of me wanted to know who is Maddie talking too, and why she was scared, I cant stand my sister being scared, it breaks me from the inside, my pain is her pain.

So I tiptoed towards her room and put my ear against her door and hear who she is talking too and why she is so scared.

"You know I love you baby, please don't do this, please!" Maddie said wailing on the phone.

Who is she talking to, and what should that person not do?

Maddie stopped crying and I heard her sniffle a few times before saying " Baby, I did the inevitable with you, I lied to my parents, but this, this is huge, you are going to ruin many lives, I cant, and its already ruining yours!!" Maddie said crying again.

" No, NO! You can't hurt them please!" there was silence then I heard Maddie speak the words that I will forever change my life.

" I will do whatever you say, but please, don't hurt her." She said quietly and I felt her slump against the door.

"She is my whole world and I can't bare to see anything happen to her, so please, promise me she will stay safe, and you wouldn't lay a finger on her, ever." Maddie said wailing and crying silently.

" You know, I still cant believe how money changes people baby, I am going to talk to your boss and show him a piece of my mind!" I heard my sister huff angrily and i heard a crash somewhere.

I guess my sister threw something against the wall, she must be very angry, my sister is never the violent type.

"What! No, that's too long, I need to at least see her once every month!" Maddie said screaming agonizingly, she really was in pain, and she seemed very very hurt.

I really just wanted to barge into her room and give her a big hug and tell her everything will be alright, somehow my gut feeling was telling me things will go out of control from this moment, and everything will be far from alright.

" Fine, I agree, just give me a few minutes, and I will be under your command." I heard her sigh heavily.

She must be exhausted.

"wait, baby, you promised me, I swear to god if she ever gets hurt..." there was a long deafening silence then what Maddie said shocked me too the core.

" I will ,myself, kill you with my own bare hands if you ever lay a finger on her , so be careful baby cause you wouldn't want to mess with me." she said in harsh tone, that I couldn't quite believe for a second that it was my sister that said those words.

" I- I love you too." she said and I heard her end the call and she started crying softly. I really wanted to comfort her right now, but I knew I needed to get back to my room, before she suspects I was eavesdropping on her conversation when she clearly said she didn't want me listening to it.

so I quickly shuffled back to my bedroom and got out my hunger games book, so I can pretend I was doing something, but I couldn't focus on reading.

How could I?

who is the 'she'? and are we being threatened? who is she talking too? and who was ringing the doorbell?

cut from my abrupt thoughts, I saw Maddie strolling in with a smile on her face, and her face showed that she hadn't cried at all, even though I heard her cry.

If she could hide her emotions so easily like this, how many times have she broken down and cried and I didn't know that she was hurting?

"hey sis, my friend just called me and she was the one who rung the doorbell, and surprise surprise, you don't need to go to the sleepover! I will go on my own, how does that sound?" She said beaming at me so happily, for a second I was going to smile with her but then I remembered that right now, she lied to me, cause that conversation was definitely not from her friends.

She is lying to me again.

" Actually. I changed my mind, I am coming with you." I said opposing her.

I am definitely not going to let my sister go to her friends house ,because who knows, she might not even go to her friends house and she might be in danger.

Shock was the only emotion plastered on her face.

"Excuse me?" she said in an accusing tone.

I rolled my eyes. " You were the one begging me to go with you, so now I am , you finally convinced me to go with you, know you don't want me to go? is there something you are hiding from me?" I said batting my eyelashes, I was going to bait her into saying the truth.

She glared at me until her countenance softened and she finallly gave in "Fine you can come, but we need to be very careful alright."

"Thanks!" I tired to keep myself calm even thought my stomach was full of butterflies, I will finally know whom my sister was talking too.

"Get ready in five, I'll be waiting with your drink!" She said her voice muffled because she locked the door in her way out.

Wait what drink? I shook my head and got ready. I wore a black tank top with skinny denim jeans and my old converse shoes, I love them so much, don't judge.

Then a heard a soft knock on the door, and I mumbled a come in.

"Here is your drink, drink it all, cause we are going to have to walk all the way to my friends house." She said that while she kept her gaze down on the floor, as if my plain old brown carpet is the most interesting thing in the world.

Whenever she wouodnt look into me in they eye that means she is lying. But I trust my sister, she wouldn't harm me in any way no matter what.

Oh how wrong I was.

As soon as the cup touched my mouth and I took a sip from it, I knew something was wrong.

The water tasted weird and I suddenly felt dizzy and dropped the glass cup on the floor, the crash echoing through the empty house.

My sister quickly came to hold me and hugged me tightly, her hug supporting my weight, I was not able to stand on myself, the room was spinning too fast.

"I am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry!" She said crying in my shoulder.

"I had to do this, so you don't get in trouble and killed, I love you so much, and if you dont see me in the morning dont freak out, I will be safe I promise. I will always keep looking out for you sister."she said hugging me tighter, while I am feeling delirious and seeing everything doubled.

"I love you so much." My sister continued chanting the same sentence against my shoulder.

At this point, I couldn't focus on anything, unless on my sisters betrayel, my twin's sisters betrayel. She placed me on the bed and covered me with the blankets and said I love you again and placed a soft kiss in my sweaty forehead.

I managed to move my hand and clutch her wrist so softly. She turned around her eyes fill with unshed tears, and her cheeks damp form crying.

"Stay."

Thats all I could manage to say before I felt my head becoming heavy and I layed my head on the pillow again.

As if saying that word caused more tears to be shed she shook her head softly and said "I am sorry I can't, I can't lose you. You mean the world to me, and I would be heartbroken if someone hurt you, please trust me, this for the best."

She kissed my forehead and said "I love you so much, stay away from..."

I couldn't focus on her warning, I matter how I tried to stay awake. I wanted to memorize every piece of her, she was leaving me behind for an unknown reason,she drugged me..

Then I suddenly slipped into the abyss darkness where my worries will drift away...

~~~

three days later

(Still in the past)

"Kendall, kendall!" The shrill voice of my mom's frantic voice woke me up from my dreamless sleep.

I clutched my head painfully, it was like a million of elephants were in my head stomping in my brain.

"Whats wrong?" I said groggily.

"You have been asleep for three days, kendall" she said looking worryingly at me.

Three days? Whatever Maddie drugged me with. Wait Maddie drugged me!

"Where is Maddie?" I said my voice frantic, worried about my twin sister.

Then I saw my mom do something I never expected her to do.

She cried.

"I- she hasn't been home since Tuesday, I filed a missing report on her."

I gasped and started shaking violently, my mom then left my room and I slipped against the wall and started pulling at my hair fustratingly.

"WHY MADDIE, WHY!!" I said screaming, she left me, all alone..

But she warned me about something, or precisely someone.

"C'mon kendall, c'mon remember!" I tried so hard but whatever drug maddie drugged me in was to powerful because I couldn't remember anything that happened yesterday except one thing.

Her heart beating fast with fear, and how she kept saying I love you too many times.

Twins never get separated, and I will find you Maddie no matter what the consequences are.

Till death do us apart Maddie.

I will never forget you, my twin sister, I love you.

~~~~~

PRESENT

Its blinding. White sterilized lights. Words. Distant voices. A throbbing pain in the back of my head emitting to the front. Someone crying.

"I am sorry, I am sorry."

Memories. Heartbreak. crying.

"I miss my best friend, please come back!"

A burning sensation, struggle to breathe.

"You are perfect the way you are, that's why I like you Pumpkin."

Blurry vision. Struggle to move.

"We need you here, Maddie would want you to live."

Tubes, my hands twitching, a flow of breath flows through my mouth.

"Stay with is us please."

Something soft grazing my skin. Something clutching my hand.

"You are a warrior, you can do it, I believe in you pumpkin."

Sounds. Loud chatter.

"I am sorry I couldn't help you, please wake up. Please."

Frantic sounds. Someone shouting.

"I love you sis, till we meet again."

My eyes fluttering, blurry vision,

"I need you here please..."

A figure stepping forward. A sound.

"Kendall, can you hear me? I need a need a doctor! I think she stabilized!"

Eyes fluttering ,dizziness.

"Kendall, keep fighting you can do it!"

Darkness. Struggling to breathe....

Then silence...

A/N: Hiii guys!! Well I think this enthusiasm is too much after what I have done heheh oops-

Sorry guys but I gotcha guys didn't I ;)

You though she woke up ha! In your face hehe xdd. The best thing about being in an author is that you know how the book is going to end, yet you love to torture your readers hehe.

I swear I dont work as a villain as a part time job I promise! Xddd

So what do you guys think if the chapter? Yay or nah? Got a bit of flashback of the dreadful day.

It honestly broke my heart! The way maddie was saying sorry *sniffles*

Did your heart break guys?

Also also did you listen to the song?! You really should listen to it, cause it resembles this chapter sooo much! And the picture above is Maddie played by Victoria Justice!! I added her aesthetic in the cast/aesthetics chapter! Please check it out!!

I tried to find someone similar to Shelly hennig cz she plays kendsll cz uk maddie and kendall are twins! What do you guys think?! Do they look like?

Stay safe guys and ily!

~Salsa♡