"Time passes, but not one day goes by that you are not here in my heart. The day you died was not just a day on the calendar, it was the day when my very existence changed forever."

Dear Maddie,

Sometimes I feel like you are full of secrets that you keep hidden away from me. A secret diary Maddie, seriously? Why would you hide such a thing from me, it really breaks my heart, but I still love you, but i still ponder why you did this too me, I am going to die Maddie if you don't know, my death date is planned and if I don't find out who is sending these messages I will die. It brings me peace ,but also sadness. I mean I will finally be up there with you! but the sadness is that I will leave mom and dad alone, I don't want to cause them a heartbreak, but they never really cared about me now did they? You were always the perfect child, everything you ever wanted you got, unlike me I was shouted at, scolded at. I used to cry at night, but no one even knew. you slept soundly in your sleep while I struggled to fight my demons away. I am not blaming you Maddie, no one knew, but sometimes death is the answer, I still love you no matter what, here is your poem, its called - In memory.

it broke our hearts in two,

the day we lost you,

But you did not go alone.

A part of us went with you,

the day God took you home.

If tears could build a stairway,

and heartache make a lane,

we'd walk our way to heaven,

and bring you back again.

In life we loved you dearly,

in death we love you still,

in our hearts you hold a place,

no one could ever fill.

A secret diary?

in Maddie's room?

Maddie actually kept secrets form me?

And whats worse is that the secret diary had a password that I don't know, me and Maddie used to tell our passwords to eachother, yet she didnt tell me about this one, so I had to guess it.

The fact that Maddie kept a secret like this is killing me from the inside.

"No no, you are lying Ace, no way!" I said screaming hysterically and pushing Ace out of the chair and sat down instead of him.

He fell with a thump on the floor and muttered "Women" as he massaged his back.

"You are lying Ace, because there is no other explanation for this" I said angrily, pointing at the computer screen.

Those sea green softened and I felt myself melt in them, they held so much affection and kindness.

But also with secrets that no one can figure out yet. That's the worst thing about secrets, some secrets are good, while others will kill you.

Secrets are weapons, keep them hidden in the dark,no matter how hard you try, the truth will always be revealed and the light will shine.

And that's when you realize how you have lost everything in such a few words.

"Everyone has secrets Kendall, it was just a matter of time before you crack the code and figure it out." He said looking at me intently.

"And you cracked the code and figured out Maddie's secret." He added when he realized I haven't answered him back.

I tried my best to hide my emotions, so I did the best thing I was good at.

Sarcasm.

I smirked "Since when were a philosopher, there there , one job at a time, you are doing a great job at being stupid most of the times, you don't want to be fired from that job now would you." I said while patting his hair.

Damn his hair is soft.

"I am not stupid Kendall." He scoffed.

"Then what are you then?" I said stifling a laugh.

"A human?" He said incredulously.

I couldn't help but laugh, its so funny to see him so flustered and embarrassed.

It was like all my worries flooded away when I was with him, only him.

When I stopped laughing I saw Ace looking at me intently grinning like an idiot.

Wait he is an idiot.

I shifted uncomfortably and I started biting my nails "Is there something stuck in my teeth, dammit! I knew I should have looked at the mirror after I ate the spinach, now I made a co-"

"Nothing is wrong Kendall." He said smiling, his eyes sparkling with every word he spoke.

"Then why are you smiling like an idiot and staring at me?" I said raising my eyebrows.

"You are just too perfect Kendall, and I cant believe I haven't realized that till now." He said nearing me to me, still looking at me.

I blushed and used my long hair as curtain to hide my blush, but of course Ace had other plans.

He put his finger under my chin and lifted my face  up so gently and looked at me with those beautiful sea green eyes. There is no doubt that he is a fucking Greek God with those eyes and hair and looks.

He was perfect, but I am far too imperfect for him to like me.

"I love it when you blush Kendall, it makes me feel so good, that I made a girl as beautiful as you, fall to my charms." he said huskily.

We were so close and I could feel our ragged breathes as Ace neared while looking at my lips.

Omg he is gonna kiss me!

But you know how I always ruin the good moments, so I did something that I didn't expect to do,

I leaned in closer...

I felt Ace's breath hitch as I neared , and we were so close to kissing, then instead of placing my lips on his, I placed them on his nose.

Then pulled away smirking. He fell right into my trap.

Ace stood staring at me, his jaw practically hanging from how I played him.

Ace chuckled while running a hand through his silky hair "Playing hard to get aren't you." he said smiling.

"You could say this." I mumbled.

The reason I didn't want to kiss him, because I  wasn't ready, I am not ready to expose my feelings, I wasn't ready to fall in love, that was such a huge step after I practically lost trust in everyone.

And how I got betrayed by my boyfriend made me think all boys are stupid, using girls to their own expense, maybe just maybe, Ace was different. If he is, then I know he will wait for me till the time comes.

"Well, I came here for a reason right? , c'mon lets figure out the password so we can finally unravel the mystery of your sister" He said in a spooky voice, trying to intimidate me.

"Alright, never knew you were a hard worker." I said mumbling in annoyance.

"There are a lot of things you don't know about me sweetheart." He said winking at me.

My curiosity peeked up, "So when I am going to everything about you?" I said smiling while tiptoeing so I can reach the same height as he is.

He grinned at that gesture and put a strand of hair behind my air and leaned in closer and spoke in a husky voice "Soon darling, soon, when the time comes, my heart will be all yours."

I blushed and quickly went to sit down on the chair so I can try to find out what was the password for Maddie's secret diary.

From my peripheral vision, I saw Ace slump his shoulders and sigh loudly, I  quickly turned around and went up to him. I looked up to his eyes, and I saw how his sea green eyes were swirling with so many emotions, yet they looked as beautiful as ever.

"You can talk to me, alright." I said soothingly while rubbing his hands to comfort him.

"I sure will pumpkin." he said his eyes shining with a  light I couldn't quite comprehend.

I looked at him with a monotone expression, even though my heart was beating fast "Seriously Ace, pumpkin, why exactly would you call me pumpkin?" I said staring at him.

He shrugged his shoulders carelessly "I really don't know, but it suits you, and I like the way your face lights up when I call you that." He said smirking.

I humphed in annoyance and folded my arms on my chest and quickly went down to sit on the chair for the hundredth time, so I can figure out the password.

He laughed lightly as he sat down on my bed and started scrolling through his phone.

I must admit, he looked quite beautiful and the way he called me pumpkin, my heart flutters in a an emotion I cant really express, but I feel happy around him.

We both have secrets, and I know that the time will come when we both share ours, but whats haunting me the most, is how how far our secrets will go too hurt us.

While looking at the the screen I realized the situation we were in. Maddie has a secret diary, and had kept that a secret from me, the countless times she told me she was doing her work on the computer, she might have just been writing in her diary, spilling her thoughts to an object, but not spilling them to her sister, her other half, her twin.

It was quite skeptical and I couldn't believe it, but when I saw the words "secret diary" flashed on the screen, I was hit with a truckload of emotions.

 Ace wasn't lying, but my twin sister lied to me.

Ace wasn't lying, but my twin sister lied to me.

Ace wasn't lying, but my twin sister lied to me.

That same sentence kept chanting in my head making me fell dizzy and exhausted, it was just too much, so I decided to rest on the bed, when I went up to stand from the chair to lay down, black spots evaded in my evasion and I saw everything spinning around. I felt myself swaying and I prepared for the impact but never felt it.

Ace caught me, and his grip tightened further when he saw me grimace, his eyebrows dipped low and he gathered me into his arms and helped me onto my feet. I tried wiggling away from, grumbling, telling him I could walk on my own, but yet he kept a strong firm around my shoulders, tucking me in close to him.

I'd never say it aloud, but I was secretly glad he was holding me, I don't think I would have been able to walk on my own.

"Pumpkin." Ace said softly, but his grip still tight around, but not enough to hurt me.

She actually kept secrets from me, my twin sister, we told each other everything and we promised ourselves we will never ever keep secrets, and here she is, broke our promise till God knows when.

I started heaving, the fact that my sister betrayed is out of my mind, the tears started appearing  as my vision started blurring, and from my hazed vision I felt Ace's grip tighten more around me.

Yet he didn't even hurt me.

Fear overtook my head and I started panicking. There were to many thoughts rushing through my head and I felt the room spinning around and I felt panic rise through me. My body slumped down. My knees shook violently under me they gave out completely.

"Kendall, you are not breathing, deep breaths , nice and easy, there you go." he said in a soothing voice, to calm my panicky soul.

I collapsed in his hold, unable to hold my own weight. An icy chill replaced the fire that was in my stomach causing my body to start shivering uncontrollably.

My heart as I thought could never ever sped up in that way.I had some struggles for some air to reach my lungs forcing my chest to rise and fall rapidly as I panted for air.

A loud voice was heard, telling to clam down, his voice was muffled, as if I was underwater, but his voice held certainty unlike mine.

I sucked in a large gulp of air, and the fog that was swarming around me faded away and suddenly everything became razor sharp. Ace was holding me tightly with one expression etched across his face.

Terror.

"Breathe Kendall, breathe , you are going to be okay pumpkin, I promise, I am not going anywhere." he said with fear in his sea green eyes.

I tried I really tried, but I couldn't, the pain was too overwhelming.

Its like my body had a mind of its own.

My heart was pounding so fast and my lungs demanded air greedily.

There was no room for words.

"Focus Kendall, focus on your breathing. Calm down, deep breaths." Ace instructed soothingly rubbing his finger across my face and pushed the hair out of eyes.

But this, this never happened to me before. I classified it as a panic attack in my head, because I saw some people in our school suffer from it.

I never experienced it before. But this hurt, really hurt. I lifted my hand to my chest as pain started coming in.

A sharp stinging pain that increases whenever I wanted to breathe. I was suffocating silently. I felt my face twist in my anguish, my mouth falling open. I grabbed onto Ace's arm with my free hand digging my hands into his arm, drawing blood. Ace didn't seem affected by it but looked at me with fear and shock.

"Ace ... I...cant." that's all I could get out. Agony swept through my body. Sweat coated my skin as my body temperature battled between hot and cold. My breaths quickened in an increasing speed, wondering how I still haven't passed out from the pain. The room spun around me again causing my stomach to churn.

"Kendall, you need to calm down." Ace said, but I felt the fear in his tone.

"I cant...it hurts." I gasped out clawing my chest as my heart started beating faster. It hurt too much and I don't know if I can handle it anymore.

Ace's grip on me tightened, and started whispering soothing words in my ear to calm me down form the state I was in.

Fear was the only emotion plastered on his face.

Was I gonna die?

I thought my death was gonna be an easy one not a long and excruciating one.

My head swam in dizziness as the world turned around me. Then Ace layed me down gently on the floor.  He placed a hand against and my forehead "You are burning up quickly."

Something strange happened, a sharp jab of pain entered my chest....followed by peace. My breaths calmed as did my heart. Relief washed through me. It was finally over.

Emphasis on the word thought.

Ace leaned forward placing two fingers against the side of my neck.

What is he doing!

"Your pulse is slow" Ace said shakily he slipped his hands under me and grunted and lifted me and muttered to himself "she is heavy." while he was still whispering soothing words too me.

"Your pulse is really slow now fuck!" he ran with me cradling at his chest while laying me on the bed so gingerly.

My body felt limp as I couldn't feel my bottom part of my body. Then Ace  stood over me and took out his phone from his pocket and called an ambulance.

"Everything is going to be alright, I promise, I am here, just keep those eyes open pumpkin." He said fear lacing his tone.

"Pumpkin, you have to stay awake okay? keep those eyes open. I know it sounds amazing to close your eyes and rest but no not now!" he said while shaking.

I tried listening to him but I couldn't I felt like I was fading away.

I tried I really did but even as he spoke I felt myself go away. Ace shook my body aggressively trying anything to keep me awake. But nothing will ever keep me awake. The darkness was too inviting.

He told me to keep my eyes open but I couldn't.

The pain, the pressure on my heart, my body's exhaustion, I just couldn't.

The peace was sweeping through me begging me to close my eyes and this time I complied.

"No! No! stay awake!" I heard Ace scream.

Then the door was banged open, but I couldn't make out my surroundings. The figures where too blurry, and I was slowly losing conscious.

I felt my body go limp and I closed my eyes, letting the darkness inviting me to its embrace.

Someone put two fingers next to my neck and said in a shaking voice,

"Her heart stopped."

A/N:

Can I please get a round of applause for writing my longest chapter yet with 3000 words!!  and for giving you an awesome twist ;)

*crickets chirping* *awkward silence*

Oh cmon guys, talk to mee *puppy eyes* , I mean yes I am heartless, to do this after we had a Kace moment....

YES KACE IS THE NEW SHIP NAME FOR KENDALL AND ACE !! thanks to KatyLeahCollins

Anywhoo, how was the chapter? I mean her heart stopped oop... But this is preparing you guys for wayyyy worse stuff that is going to happen, I mean i will probably have a bounty on top of my head when I end the book xdd.

No but seriously did you guys like the Kace moments, cause I suck at writing romantic scenes, I like to write bloody scenes, hehehe,

Okay I should probably stop rambling but I have an updating schedule right now, so i can get my life a bit organized ;-;

So Wrong lies is on hold right now, it won't be on hold when i finish can one keep a secret, and when i have a definitive plot in my hands, like I know how the story ends, yet I can't seem to write anything, so ya.

As for Can one keep a secret i will be updating every Saturday, but this update is early bcz i feel bad for leaving you guys so ya DO NOT EXPECT A NEW CHAPTER ON SATURDAY!!! cz i updated today, the schedule will be working starting Sunday :))

Ps: Can one keep a sceret will be about 30  chapters (:

As for breaking at dawn, I have the plot ready, i just need to write more chapters, so expect on Thursday every two weeks.

As for Estelle and Essence, that will be depending on my mood and if i want to write poetry, so ya,cz there is literally no plot in poetry xdd.

As for the spam book, well also depending in my mood xdd.

Well thats it guys! I have a maths and bio exam next Sunday and our teacher hasn't explained anything ;-;

So ya girl has to self study again 😑

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