" I truly never learned what the words "I miss you" means, when I reached for my sister's hand and it wasn't there."

Dear Maddie,

oh Maddie, don't you realize I grieve to much? your death and now my teachers death, which is most probably because of me, i wanted to know the answers to your death. Why do people die, why can't we live forever? Why should we feel pain of losing someone? Sometimes Maddie I wish to die so I can go and be there, up there with you. But then I think of my parents, and my friends, and how sad they will feel, just like how sad I feel about losing you. I miss you so much Maddie, you don't understand! Why did you have to die, why? Why did god have to take you a way form me, why didn't he kill the bad guys? the world now is such a corrupt place with no kindness, oh Maddie, I wish you were here...

but it's okay, everything will be alright, I hope. Here is your poem Maddie it's called the moment that you died-

The moment that you died,

my heat was torn in two.

One side filled with heartache,

while the other died with you.

I often lay awake at night,

when the world is fast asleep.

I take a walk down memory lane,

with tears upon my cheek.

Remembering you is easy,

I do it everyday.

but missing you is a heartache,

That never goes away.

I hold you tightly within my heart,

and there you will remain.

until the joyous day arrives,

that we will meet again.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Going into Maddie's room was probably one of the hardest decisions in my life. Whenever I used to go in there I would stay hours crumpled up and crying, missing my sister dearly. In her room , you feel like she is still alive with you, but then reality will come crawling up your butt, and pinch you back to reality.

But I needed to go in there. I didn't have a choice. The messages that were being sent to me are from Maddie's killer, and he is after me, for some unknown reason, which is creeping me out if I am honest.

and well, this is life folks, you can't change anything about, some people are born rich others are poor, but it's you who decide how you want to change.

I need to start looking for clues I thought to myself cause well ,so I don't want to die, and also I want to see what the hell Maddie was up to that resulted in her dead.

Yes, curiosity killed the cat.

Where should I look in her room?

I took slow steady steps, thinking I might ruin the silence in her room. I felt the tears coming up, but I quickly wiped them away with my sleeve.

As I looked around in her room, all the memories of me and her slid in front of me like a flashback, I remembered all the pillow fights we had, the sleepovers and when we used to sneak out to get some food at midnight.

I smiled at the memories, me and Maddie were unsperable in those days, guess we are now. Oh the irony...

I decided to look under her bed, maybe she hid a diary under it. I bent down and put my hand under to feel if there is anything under, when my hand touched it I squeaked, maybe it's a clue?

I pulled the thing from under the bed and I gasped and threw the thing away with disgust.

what is an underwear doing under Maddie's bed?

I huffed in annoyance and went to the bathroom to clean my hands form that disgusting underwear.

After I felt refreshed I went back to her room and searched everywhere, her closet, her drawers everything, yet no clue.

Until I realized something, Maddie used to have a computer in her room, and its still in there, maybe if I could charge it maybe I could find something in her computer.

I fist pumped the air, it's a surprise I found that idea, guess I am smart after all.

I went to the computer and put it in the charger.

now I have to do the worst thing I hate doing...

Wait.

I decided to to play some playing games until it fully charged, but my mind was in another dimension, Will I find a clue, or will I go empty handed and maybe even die on the way.

I shook these negative thoughts form my head, I am going to find something from her computer, I am not going empty handed no matter what.

My thoughts were drifting to Ace, we are finally back to friends even though I want us to be more than that.

but hey a girl can dream right?

suddenly I felt something vibrating, is it my phone? is it another message?

I slumped in relief when I found out it was form the computer indicating that it has been fully charged.

I quickly scrambled form the bed and went to sit down on the chair, and put in the password. Surprisingly, I still remember it.

Yes, Maddie was to precious to me to the extent I remember her password.

I scrolled through all the files and everything, yet nothing.

empty handed, again.

Sitting in front of the computer memories rushed through my head, when I used to spy on Maddie in the night, and I used to see her typing something on her computer, when I get to think of it, it was a usual occurrence.

Every night, she used to type whole paragraphs on her computer. but when I looked through her computer, I didn't see any big and long paragraphs, only school notes and maybe some pictures, but never long paragraphs.

Maybe there is something hidden in the computer. I mean it was 2012, you could hide files or apps, so everything is possible.

I racked my mind through some answers, yet nothing came, I needed someone to assist me, I can't do this alone.

who will help me?

Now don't give me the look I won't call Ace, I will call my other friends then I will call Ace, seems fair enough.

I called Nora, but she didn't answer back meaning she was either studying or hanging out. Same with Jake and Alec.

it's fate guys, me and Ace are destined to be together.

I called Ace and waited patiently while the phone rang, then after the third rung, some husky voice answered.

"Hello, who is this?" Ace said gruffly, indicating he was sleeping, I feel bad now, but I answered anyways.

"It's me, Kendall, " I answered quietly.

"Kendall, is everything okay why are you calling me." Ace rushed so fast that I couldn't stop myself from laughing.

"Can't a friend call another friend?" I said still smiling.

Ace was acting was very suspicious, after Ms. Melanie's death, he is always panicky around me.

"of course, but I know you Kendall, you only call me when you need help or in trouble." he said laughing lightly.

Damn he is smart.

I could imagine him smiling to me right now, snap out of it Kendall!

"Kendall? " Ace 's voice rang out in my head, and quickly shook my head away as if it will clear those thoughts as way from head.

"Ya, so here's the deal, I was looking into Maddie's room, to find clues, and I haven't found anything, so could you help me?" I said nervously waiting for his answer.

"Sure I will be there in five, bye Kendall, stay safe." he answered in a somber tone, and stressed the word safe, then he ended the call.

I plopped on the bed in relief, when I realized I told him mostly everything about the messages, he didn't ask me why I was finding clues, or why I am in Maddie's room after all these years, it like he expected me to call him.

I shook those thoughts away, and waited patiently while he came , I changed into more respectable clothes and brushed my hair, I looked okay.

then I heard a knock on the door, and quickly opened the door enthusiastically which earned a chuckle from Ace.

"Too excited to see me huh." Ace said smirking,.

"Don't think to much of yourself, I thought it was the pizza guy, pizza is way more exciting than you. " I said smirking to him, knowing very well I hurt his ego.

He stood in the doorway his jaw hug open probably attracting flies, I could help but laugh at him.

when he heard me laugh he shook his head and looked at me so fondly and smiled to most beautiful dimpled smile ever.

"You are something else Kendall." he said still staring at me so intense that I could collapse at any time.

but of course he had to cut this amazing moment.

"So you want to to help search for clues in Maddie's room right?" he said while walking up the stairs.

"Yes." I said still shook from what happened.

we stayed hours in the room searching in every corner, until Ace asked me for permission to open her computer to search for stuff, and I reluctantly agreed, he looked so focused his hand moving so fast on the keyboard, he looked so hot. His muscles protruding from his shirt every time he moved his hand.

Damn he is hot.

"I found something." Ace said nervously, cutting me from my thoughts.

"What is it?" I said rushing to him, wanting to know what he found.

then the next thing he said shocked me to the core.

"I found a secret diary on her computer."

A/N : Welp! I have finally done the aesthetics XD! Whatcha guys think?! Yay or nah?!

Oooo and the cast, have you imagined the characters in that way?!

Anywhoo I am pretty proud of myself :)

I made new banners so check out the chapter for the banners!!

also this is by far the longest chapter I wrote 2000 WORDS! like damn, wtf xd!

So what do you think of the chapter did you like it or no?

votes and comments are appreciated :)))

well, a secret diary huh 😉 what do you think is inside the secret diary?

well you will find out in the next chapter! Baiiiiii! !

~Salsa♡