jueka1 this Callie chapter still won't give you the resolution you're seeking...

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My eyes—tired and sore still from the constant bursts of tears that came out of me throughout the afternoon since Flynn broke up with me—danced around the room as my heart thudded in my chest. A part of me was excited to find out what person, after all these years, was able to capture Sara's heart. But, at the same time, I felt hurt that she hadn't told me.

I had felt us drifting apart ever since Lexi arrived. Though it seemed my sister and Sara had more in common than we did.

Though with Flynn in the picture all this time, I didn't have much of a chance to feel that hole forming in me from her absence. Because I had filled it with him.

But now...

Catching Sara like this though, blanket clutched to her chest, eyes wide and fearful, made me wary as to why she'd be so scared for me to find out who she was hooking up with.

Who could they possibly be—

But as the person under the covers began to move up, I realised who was under there before their head appeared.

Because my eyes immediately zeroed in on her backpack.

Please be wrong... please be wrong... I pleaded. 

Then I asked, "Is that my sister's bag? Where is she?" 

Because why would Sara be in here hooking up with someone and my sister was elsewhere?

Sara gripped even more forcefully at the blanket, pushing at the person who was trying to come up.

But Sara lost the battle and eventually her blonde and purple head poked out, blue eyes swirling with apology.

No.

Surely not.

Surely—

"What's going on here?" I asked, determined to be wrong. Certain this had to be a complete misunderstanding. While I knew Sara was bi, Lexi was... well... she was doing the kiss list with me!

Lexi wiped her hand across her mouth before reaching over Sara for her school shirt.

I stood in the doorway—Flynn's breakup and my afternoon appointment a distant memory in current circumstances—as I watched both girls fumble to put their clothes back on.

Sara and Lexi?

No.

Surely not.

Lexi... she did the kiss list with me, I told myself again. Unless she's bi...

And Sara... she wouldn't do this to me.

There has to be some reason that—

What reason? She was checking for a mole on Sara's leg UNDER the covers?

My heart began to thud in my chest and that familiar sting returned to my eyes. I was surprised I had any more tears left in me after the crying jags that continuously erupted at the doctor's office and in the car rides, absolutely overwhelming mum.

She didn't want to drop me off here.

But I was determined to be with my best friend after the afternoon I had.

Both now clothed and seated on the edge of Sara's bed, they turned their heads down to the ground as their hands pressed to their knees in an apologetic posture.

"It's true," Lexi then said.

"What's true?" I asked, still unable to move from my spot.

"Sara and I..." my sister paused, glancing Sara's way before they shared a slight smile—one way too loving that made me wonder how I had not noticed this before—before looking back to me, "We are together."

I began to shake my head. "That's impossible."

"How?" Lex pressed.

"How? Unless you're bi—"

"I'm gay," my sister interrupted me.

"Bullshit."

"Is it that horrible if I am?" Lexi asked, hand clutching her chest as though I was hurting her.

"I don't give a shit about anyone's sexuality, but... you've been doing the kiss list with me," I said, stating the obvious, finally voicing that one fact I had that could deny what I thought was happening between my best friend and sister.

Lexi gave me a slight shrug. "There was no clause that said I had to enjoy kissing boys to do it with you... I wanted you to see you could get anyone you wanted, and if I had to kiss some disgusting boys for—"

Turning away from my sister mid sentence towards my best friend's guilty eyes, I interrupted Lexi's speil to demand, "How are you okay with the fact your lover was kissing a bunch of boys?"

"She stopped before we got together," Sara whispered, turning her head down towards her lap. "Just as you and Flynn went to the creek that day..."

"Since the cr..." My mind raced as it did the mental maths. "That was like week three last term. Almost three months ago!"

"Two and a half," Sara whispered, as though it were any form of apology or justification.

"My best friend and sister have been hooking up behind my back and... you never felt like this was something to tell me?" I asked, looking between the two.

But neither had anything to say. They both turned their heads to their laps, unable to meet my gaze.

"Seriously?" I demanded when neither came out with an explanation.

"We didn't want to..." Lexi started, briefly glancing up at me before deciding she couldn't hold my gaze, looking back to the ground. "We didn't want to upset you."

"Oh, yeah... because me walking in on you three months—"

"Two and a half," Sara interrupted.

"Whatever," I spat at her, causing Sara to flinch. "Walking in on you two this long into your relationship is way better. You've both been lying to me this whole time."

But whatever thread was holding Lexi's head down, was making her feel guilty, seemed to snap at that comment. "What does it matter that we were lying?"

"Because my sister and best friend should be honest to me for us to have a healthy relationship with each other?"

"Well maybe if you weren't so scary to talk to—"

"Are you seriously going to blame your lies on me? We've been getting along since the creek. You don't think at some point it would have been nice to say, 'hey sis, I like your bestie, mind if I date her?' Or, I don't know, 'hey sis, I'm fucking gay?' You had me running around doing the kiss list—"

"The kiss list was for you, Callie. Not me. I was just going along with it in the hopes I could help you and your confidence and—"

"Well I fucking hated the kiss list. If we never did it then I never would have gone to that party and I never would have kissed Flynn and he and I never would have gotten close or hung out and I wouldn't have been dumped!" I spat at them both, feeling my eyes begin to well with tears.

Then Sara's head slowly turned up, brows coming down and face softening. "What do you mean dumped?"

"I ran into him as I came out of school today," I choked, feeling my knees begin to wobble.

I didn't have time to hit the ground though. As my body began to shake, Sara was by my side in an instant, arms wrapping around me, pulling me close to her chest.

I sobbed my worries into her as I managed to blubber out the exchange and what Flynn said. But at the end of it all, Lexi had the audacity to cross the room and try to touch me.

Flinching away from her, I spat, "This is all your fault."

"My fault?" she demanded. "I didn't cause his uncle to—"

"If I hadn't done the kiss list, then I wouldn't have gotten hurt."

"Don't even give me that, Callie. You were so happy with him and—"

"But what good was that happiness when it was so quickly taken away? I wish I had just stayed in my room, reading my books, and not flirting with or kissing people. Being alone and just having my friend is way better than socialising. Is better than having Flynn or you in my life."

But as Lexi reached for me again, I squirmed out of Sara's arms. "I'm going to complete that damn kiss list," I said to her as Lexi stayed on her spot on the ground. "And when I do, you will never ever speak to me again. Just like you promised."

And with that, I stormed out of Sara's room, ignoring both of their calls after me.

I trudged down the stairs, pretending I didn't hear Sara's door close up the way.

And I marched out of her house towards home, ignoring Lexi's pleads behind me as she followed me home.

Can Callie's day get any worse? Find out over the next couple of chapters...