❆°➳ "I dont know"
⤷ chapter fifty-three

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"the shopping is done for the next day or two" I said, placing the shopping bags on the bench. I went out for a couple hours to pop into the new house to see to progress. everything was going really well.

all the furniture had arrived and everything was set up. our dream home was coming together nicely. anna already had the new house address, she popped over now and then to sort out her space. her sleepout out the back is all set up and ready for her and quin to move into.

the kids rooms were ready, we just had to put their books, toys, clothes and their other things into draws but I can do so when we actually move in. anna made sure she was moved in already, she wanted to make sure that when we all moved in that she can spend the time helping us get the kids settled into their rooms.

she knows taehyung wont be able to do much. we will have our hands full. I felt so overjoyed and excited to move into the new house. I cant wait and I know the kids cant wait as well. I start to take all the groceries out the bags when anna walks towards me.

when I glanced at her I could tell she was a little nervous. I placed the fruit that was in my hands on the bench as I leant against it.

"whats wrong?" I whispered, she gulped and shook her head.

"its probably nothing but when taehyung woke up before he was quite sweaty, he looked panicked for some reason. as if he was looking for something when his eyes landed on me he wanted me to follow him and bring ara."

"I did so and he wanted ara in his arms. when I placed her in his arms it looked as if he was about to cry, he told me I could go after he thanked me but his voice was shaky and he would not look up at me"

"when I went to leave, I shut the door behind him and just as I shut the door I heard him cry. I wanted to walk back in but I t-thought he needed space" anna explained. I frowned and cleared my throat. I hate hearing that taehyung was in any kind of pain.

"I will go check on him" I said, looking at the groceries for a second before she pulled a bag towards her.

"let me do it" she smiled. I thanked her before I went into the room. my eyes landed on taehyung as soon as I opened the door. his eyes met mine and I immediately shut the door behind me. he was laying in the middle of the large bed, his back leaning against the headboard as ara was sleeping peacefully in his arms. I could tell he had been crying and it broke my heart. I slipped my jacket off and took my shoes off before walking towards him.

I leant onto the bed before sitting right next to him. I wrapped my arm around his shoulder and he shuffled a little closer to me, so now his back was resting against my chest.

"tell me whats on your mind love" I whispered against his neck, my chin resting on his shoulder as I looked at our beautiful daughter.

"I h-have no idea. I woke up from napping and felt really panicked, I had a nightmare that ara did not make it. that all of this was a dream. by the time I woke up I was sweaty and was finding it hard to breath. I came out to look for you and the kids but anna said you were out, I just wanted ara in my arms so I got anna to follow me"

"when ara was in my arms sleeping I was able to calm down but that feeling scared me, not knowing where she was, her not being in my line of sight. it was scary gguk. I d-dont want to feel that way again" he whispered, the tears rolling down his delicate cheeks.

I could never understand what that feeling would feel like, but I could only imagine it. I wrapped my arms around him tighter and pecked his neck a few times.

"you wont babe. I sorted everything I needed to today. we can move into the new house tomorrow. I will pack the car tonight if the things we need to take. anna is all set, her and quin will leave earlier tomorrow morning to get to the new house. our room is all set up with crib by our bed. we have loads of time to sort out ara's room"

"the house is furnished, we just need to put our belongings in places and figure out where we want what" I whispered, trying my best to calm him down.

"the kids are excited, the property is secure and no one can get it besides us. we will give jimin and yoongi access to the house but they will be the only ones. my mum is coming down in a few weeks to see the kids and meet ara. she tells me you both have been calling lots since she left for holiday"

taehyung sniffled and smiled, turning his head to look at me a little.

"I miss your mum being around often. she deserves the holiday though, more then anyone. I am glad she has been enjoying herself. it will be nice for her to spend some time with us all. we got to make sure we set up the guest-" taehyung mentioned but I cut him off.

"of course babe, we have time. we will sort everything out. lets just focus on you feeling better and moving into our dream home"

"that sounds amazing" he whispered, wiping his tears as he let out a breath.

"I love you" I whispered, pecking his neck over and over again.

"I love you more" he whispered back, leaning against my chest more as we both now look at our sleeping daughter who was so perfect.

I am so excited to see where this next chapter will take us. so excited.